Hope y'all remember what Easter is all about:
"When you were dead in your sins and in the uncircumcision of your sinful nature, God made you alive in Christ. He forgave us all our sins, having cancelled the written code with its regulations, that was against us and that stood opposed to us; He took that away, nailing it to the cross. And having disarmed the powers and authorities, He made a public spectacle of them, triumphing over them by the cross."
Colossians 2:13-15
God bless your Easter.
P.S. Today, almost a week after the Kalan concert, it hit me. I am so in a funk!
Sunday, March 27, 2005
Saturday, March 26, 2005
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
The Kalan Story
OH MY GOSH.
Tonight I saw, heard, touched, MET AND TOOK A PICTURE WITH KALAN PORTER!!!
I could seriously die! The whole thing seems so unreal right now!!! Like it hasn't totally sunk in yet, I want to see my pictures so maybe I'll believe it. HOLY CRAP THIS IS CRAZY!
So Brynne, Ireen, Ashley and I went to Brandon (even though the highways were closed, lol) and hung out at the mall a bit. I got Drive Me Crazy and The Babysitter's Club on DVD! I'm pumped! Then we went to the Westman Auditorium, it was around 7:30. We got Kalan shirts and pictures, it said Amanda Stott was giving autographs but nothing on Kalan, so we were sad. Then we went in, it was PACKED. I'm serious. So many girls, of all ages! Little girls and moms and even some grandma's! It was hilarious. Anyways, I was wetting myself and feeling totally nauseated. It was crazy. Then Amanda Stott came out. WOW. What a voice! Its totally sad, she had 10 thousand times more talent than Kelly Clarkson, but she's like hardley famous at all. She's unbelieveable, and completely inspiring. I bought her CD! And got a picture with her. She actually almost made me weep, her voice just moved me.
So after her set, and an autograph and picture with her later, I was back in my seat, feeling ill. Maria was two rows ahead of me, and was like "see that guy up there? Is that Kalan?" I looked up and it totally was! I was like, waving, and he was smiling and waving back. Then the lights went off. Everyone was screaming and I was freaking right out. It seemed like 5 minutes before I could hear this sound...and saw this guy with a violin walk out in a black coat with the collar all turned up. Oh wow. He started playing, it was amazing. Everyone was screaming, and the lights were purple! Then, after the Prelude, he turned his back, and his band rushed out. He whipped around and started "She's So Dangerous."
I was numb, I didn't know what to do. So I cheered. Then I started bawling my head off. I was so overhelmed, that he was real, and there, and singing, and he was so REAL. I mean he was a living breathing real person, not just a face on TV. Ireen laughed at me as I cried until the end of the song. Then he sang "And We Drive" and I wanted to die. I LOVE THAT SONG. Then he was like, "Hey Brandon" and there was more screaming. I was zooming in on my camera and taking pictures. He sang "I Don't Wanna Miss You", and my word, it was lovely. I mean that kid can sing. Like sure, he's an absolute cutey, but when it comes down to it, he is TALENTED. He sang "Single" and finally people got up and started dancing. After the song the skanky old man in charge told us to sit down. Then he sang "Old Man" and Ireen sang along, too cute. It was beautiful. Then Kalan told us to stand up! Ha ha! It was awesome. He kept singing and it was amazing, I was just screaming and Brynne and I were freaking out.
I got up and went to the side to take some pictures up close. I mean I got some great ones. He was so close, I could see the amazing blue of his eyes. And he smiled too! It was amazing! He played his violin so much too! Wow. I went and sat down again and Brynne and I got up to polka during one of his solos, but then we just joined the pit. I wanted to get touched SO bad. Then he left and came back out with a cowboy hat on. I admit, it was hot. Maria joined us in the pit. Then he did "The Devil Came Down to Georgia." It was awesome. Then he sang "Awake in a Dream" and changed it so it was all rock-y, it was amazing. Then he left. I was sad, I so thought it was over. But he came back out and sang songs he sang on Idol, like "House of the Rising Sun", "Long Train Runnin", "Nature Boy", and "Born to Be Wild."
OH MY GOSH. During Long Train Runnin', he was running around touching fingers with people, and I reached...and he GRABBED my hand. I mean he was just wiggling fingers, but he grabbed my right hand. I almost puked. I was screaming and freaking, and I pointed at my hand at Ashley and Ireen, and they laughed. It was unreal. Then I cried again (tool). He sang the last two songs, then had a huge instrumental solo with his band. He waved, bowed, let some people touch his hair, and left. I was sad, wired, pumped and in shock!
Brynne and I decided last Friday we were going out to his bus. Well lots of other people had the same idea. So we waited (Ashley wouldn't come, that bum) and waited. I felt so bad. I mean the poor kid just wants to relax, you know? And he's hounded by fans. But yeah, I waited and couldn't believe he was right there. Then...I got up there. I gave him my sheet to sign and he said, "Hi, how are you?" And I blurted, "God bless you! That was good." And he was like, "wow, thank you." And then I asked for a picture, and he said sure, and I put my arm around him, and he put his arm around me, and Brynne jumped in beside me (you're forgiven) and Ireen took it. I don't even think I blinked. Then I said thanks and danced away.
I MET HIM! I TOUCHED HIM! HE ACKNOWLEDGED THAT I EXIST! And I have a picture to prove it!! (Please God, let it turn out!)
It still doesn't seem real. I'm flying so high right now. Wow oh wow. I don't even know what to say. Tomorrow I will be in the biggest FUNK ever.
Some things bugged me a little however. Nothing about Kalan, just some of the fans. I mean its like some girls know nothing about him. So many kept yelling "you're hot" and were dressed so skimpy. I was like, he doesn't appreciate that. He loves Jesus. He appreciates your support, but he wants you to love his music, too. I mean some girls had a sign that said "come over sometime, I have a double bed." I think he'll be discusted by that, not impressed. It made me sad, and made me realize that I should just keep praying for him, he needs our prayers. So all of you reading this, say a little prayer for Kalan that he won't stray and will draw close to God, and let Him guide him and be his strength. He needs that to stay grounded, to stay...Kalan. I believe thats what makes him so great - his heart.
God bless Kalan Porter, may he continue to make great music, sing well, stay healthy and stay humbled by God's awesome presence in his life. I love you, Kalan. I'm praying for you.
Tonight I saw, heard, touched, MET AND TOOK A PICTURE WITH KALAN PORTER!!!
I could seriously die! The whole thing seems so unreal right now!!! Like it hasn't totally sunk in yet, I want to see my pictures so maybe I'll believe it. HOLY CRAP THIS IS CRAZY!
So Brynne, Ireen, Ashley and I went to Brandon (even though the highways were closed, lol) and hung out at the mall a bit. I got Drive Me Crazy and The Babysitter's Club on DVD! I'm pumped! Then we went to the Westman Auditorium, it was around 7:30. We got Kalan shirts and pictures, it said Amanda Stott was giving autographs but nothing on Kalan, so we were sad. Then we went in, it was PACKED. I'm serious. So many girls, of all ages! Little girls and moms and even some grandma's! It was hilarious. Anyways, I was wetting myself and feeling totally nauseated. It was crazy. Then Amanda Stott came out. WOW. What a voice! Its totally sad, she had 10 thousand times more talent than Kelly Clarkson, but she's like hardley famous at all. She's unbelieveable, and completely inspiring. I bought her CD! And got a picture with her. She actually almost made me weep, her voice just moved me.
So after her set, and an autograph and picture with her later, I was back in my seat, feeling ill. Maria was two rows ahead of me, and was like "see that guy up there? Is that Kalan?" I looked up and it totally was! I was like, waving, and he was smiling and waving back. Then the lights went off. Everyone was screaming and I was freaking right out. It seemed like 5 minutes before I could hear this sound...and saw this guy with a violin walk out in a black coat with the collar all turned up. Oh wow. He started playing, it was amazing. Everyone was screaming, and the lights were purple! Then, after the Prelude, he turned his back, and his band rushed out. He whipped around and started "She's So Dangerous."
I was numb, I didn't know what to do. So I cheered. Then I started bawling my head off. I was so overhelmed, that he was real, and there, and singing, and he was so REAL. I mean he was a living breathing real person, not just a face on TV. Ireen laughed at me as I cried until the end of the song. Then he sang "And We Drive" and I wanted to die. I LOVE THAT SONG. Then he was like, "Hey Brandon" and there was more screaming. I was zooming in on my camera and taking pictures. He sang "I Don't Wanna Miss You", and my word, it was lovely. I mean that kid can sing. Like sure, he's an absolute cutey, but when it comes down to it, he is TALENTED. He sang "Single" and finally people got up and started dancing. After the song the skanky old man in charge told us to sit down. Then he sang "Old Man" and Ireen sang along, too cute. It was beautiful. Then Kalan told us to stand up! Ha ha! It was awesome. He kept singing and it was amazing, I was just screaming and Brynne and I were freaking out.
I got up and went to the side to take some pictures up close. I mean I got some great ones. He was so close, I could see the amazing blue of his eyes. And he smiled too! It was amazing! He played his violin so much too! Wow. I went and sat down again and Brynne and I got up to polka during one of his solos, but then we just joined the pit. I wanted to get touched SO bad. Then he left and came back out with a cowboy hat on. I admit, it was hot. Maria joined us in the pit. Then he did "The Devil Came Down to Georgia." It was awesome. Then he sang "Awake in a Dream" and changed it so it was all rock-y, it was amazing. Then he left. I was sad, I so thought it was over. But he came back out and sang songs he sang on Idol, like "House of the Rising Sun", "Long Train Runnin", "Nature Boy", and "Born to Be Wild."
OH MY GOSH. During Long Train Runnin', he was running around touching fingers with people, and I reached...and he GRABBED my hand. I mean he was just wiggling fingers, but he grabbed my right hand. I almost puked. I was screaming and freaking, and I pointed at my hand at Ashley and Ireen, and they laughed. It was unreal. Then I cried again (tool). He sang the last two songs, then had a huge instrumental solo with his band. He waved, bowed, let some people touch his hair, and left. I was sad, wired, pumped and in shock!
Brynne and I decided last Friday we were going out to his bus. Well lots of other people had the same idea. So we waited (Ashley wouldn't come, that bum) and waited. I felt so bad. I mean the poor kid just wants to relax, you know? And he's hounded by fans. But yeah, I waited and couldn't believe he was right there. Then...I got up there. I gave him my sheet to sign and he said, "Hi, how are you?" And I blurted, "God bless you! That was good." And he was like, "wow, thank you." And then I asked for a picture, and he said sure, and I put my arm around him, and he put his arm around me, and Brynne jumped in beside me (you're forgiven) and Ireen took it. I don't even think I blinked. Then I said thanks and danced away.
I MET HIM! I TOUCHED HIM! HE ACKNOWLEDGED THAT I EXIST! And I have a picture to prove it!! (Please God, let it turn out!)
It still doesn't seem real. I'm flying so high right now. Wow oh wow. I don't even know what to say. Tomorrow I will be in the biggest FUNK ever.
Some things bugged me a little however. Nothing about Kalan, just some of the fans. I mean its like some girls know nothing about him. So many kept yelling "you're hot" and were dressed so skimpy. I was like, he doesn't appreciate that. He loves Jesus. He appreciates your support, but he wants you to love his music, too. I mean some girls had a sign that said "come over sometime, I have a double bed." I think he'll be discusted by that, not impressed. It made me sad, and made me realize that I should just keep praying for him, he needs our prayers. So all of you reading this, say a little prayer for Kalan that he won't stray and will draw close to God, and let Him guide him and be his strength. He needs that to stay grounded, to stay...Kalan. I believe thats what makes him so great - his heart.
God bless Kalan Porter, may he continue to make great music, sing well, stay healthy and stay humbled by God's awesome presence in his life. I love you, Kalan. I'm praying for you.
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
Three Hours
In three hours, I will see my man, my favorite person, my hero, my
KALAN PORTER
IN THE FLESH.
I think I might die of excitement. Or anticipation.
KALAN PORTER
IN THE FLESH.
I think I might die of excitement. Or anticipation.
Friday, March 18, 2005
Best Day EVER!
Today has been the freaking funnest day ever! It was Jazz Fest in Brandon, so we all packed up after an hour and a half of practising and headed off. I got to ride in the Handivan! It was the best group of us: Curtis, Eddie, Geordie, Kyle M, Kelsey, Carlyle, Britney, Heidi, Brynne and me. We just talked and hung out the whole way there. Heidi and I laughed most of the way, really! "We're in the handivan...WE'RE COOL!" LOL! Carlyle sat in the wheelchair! We were drawing on the fogged up windows (nice roadkill squirrel "guitar" Eddie!) and waving at people who passed us. And we ate on the way too, Eddie was jealous of my lunch. Then we got there, and we hung out in the hallway, and I saw Jeff and Norah came over to say hello. Then we went to warm up. We went out on the stage to set up, and I saw Andrew! That was cool. He actually announced us, and the songs we played. Then we played In the Mood. It was...interesting. Well it was actually pretty good until the last two bar lines, when the trumpets play the chromatic scale. We all just kind of died and yeah it was bad. I was so humiliated after we finished. Then we played Woodchopper's Ball, which was somehow worse. Oh it was so completely awful. But then we played Soul Bossa Nova. That was the best we ever played it. I mean, we nailed everything! It was amazing, we just killed it! The trumpets we good that whole song, I must say. Then we were adjudicated, and he was really nice. We went to another building and he worked with us for like an hour. We improved so much! If he came to our school once a month, we would be a completely better Jazz Band. So then we like rocked at Woodchopper's. He told us that we we started to play Soul Bossa, we completely changed. He said it was like we were a totally different band. So yeah, that was good.
Then we went to get pictures taken and the photo guy was a total skank (just like at Optimist). So we took the picture, and then we hung out outside. Eddie and I discussed how it must photo guy requirements to be a hoebag, lol. Then Kristin came and said goodbye. Then we all got on the Handivan. We were sitting there, just talking and some of us were humming Soul Bossa. Then Carlyle started yelling "HANDIVAN!" at people who walked by. It was so funny! Then we sang Soul Bossa, each of us singing our parts. It was totally fun and we were just screaming the whole time. People looked frightened, it was funny! My throat was so sore after that. After singing it through about 4 times, we were all like, "what time is it? why haven't we moved?" and Mr. Pettinger was like "It's 3:20 (we were supposed to have left an hour ago) and the handivan won't move out of park." So we all went outside and tried to push it, which was funny also.
Then we got back on, and Mr. Pettinger was on the phone calling the school etc. There was a charter bus parked across the street, and we were waving at the 3 people in it, yelling "Handivan!" at them. They waved and acted like idiots, and we were feeling silly, so Eddie stuck his head out the window and blew a kiss at them. This one guy was pumping his arm in the air with excitement, which scared Eddie. So he gave me his sunglasses, and I continued to wave at them. Then they wrote us a note and held it up against the window. It asked us to um, show some skin and we all laughed, and wrote back for them to show us some first. It was all in good fun, really. But then this one guys started taking off his sweater and dancing around, and then he started with his pants! I was hiding, and then I saw his teacher coming! He did too, when she came on, and ducked into a seat to redress. She looked pretty mad! When they walked by we all laughed and applauded, and I held up a sign that said "Nice." It was hilarious! Finally the handivan started moving, around 4:00. We celebrated by going to McDonalds. It was awesome! I hugged Carlyle! We laughed and talked and it was great. And Brynne and I started making our straws make sounds, and everyone else joined. We called it the Handivan song. It was totally awesome.
Then we finally started home, around 4:15. We talked about movies we like (who knew they all love Monty Python?), and comedians, and laughed like idiots. We also laughed about everything else that happened that day. We had a contest on who was ugliest when they were 12. We talked about hygene, and how cool it would be to take then Handivan to a drive in movie, with a big buttload of us. Seriously, I am so jealous of all of them. I was never that cool when I was 14 or 15. It was so totally awesome, like I mean we never ran out of things to talk about, or laugh about, and I could've driven for way longer than we did. I feel like we're like the Handivan's own Breakfast Club. We're like the Handivan Club (whoa, that sounded way cooler in my head). Like we're all forever bonded because of that one day. Who knows if on Monday we'll talk or anything, but for those few hours we a tight group of friends. Now that is beautiful. And I am so in a funk.
Then we went to get pictures taken and the photo guy was a total skank (just like at Optimist). So we took the picture, and then we hung out outside. Eddie and I discussed how it must photo guy requirements to be a hoebag, lol. Then Kristin came and said goodbye. Then we all got on the Handivan. We were sitting there, just talking and some of us were humming Soul Bossa. Then Carlyle started yelling "HANDIVAN!" at people who walked by. It was so funny! Then we sang Soul Bossa, each of us singing our parts. It was totally fun and we were just screaming the whole time. People looked frightened, it was funny! My throat was so sore after that. After singing it through about 4 times, we were all like, "what time is it? why haven't we moved?" and Mr. Pettinger was like "It's 3:20 (we were supposed to have left an hour ago) and the handivan won't move out of park." So we all went outside and tried to push it, which was funny also.
Then we got back on, and Mr. Pettinger was on the phone calling the school etc. There was a charter bus parked across the street, and we were waving at the 3 people in it, yelling "Handivan!" at them. They waved and acted like idiots, and we were feeling silly, so Eddie stuck his head out the window and blew a kiss at them. This one guy was pumping his arm in the air with excitement, which scared Eddie. So he gave me his sunglasses, and I continued to wave at them. Then they wrote us a note and held it up against the window. It asked us to um, show some skin and we all laughed, and wrote back for them to show us some first. It was all in good fun, really. But then this one guys started taking off his sweater and dancing around, and then he started with his pants! I was hiding, and then I saw his teacher coming! He did too, when she came on, and ducked into a seat to redress. She looked pretty mad! When they walked by we all laughed and applauded, and I held up a sign that said "Nice." It was hilarious! Finally the handivan started moving, around 4:00. We celebrated by going to McDonalds. It was awesome! I hugged Carlyle! We laughed and talked and it was great. And Brynne and I started making our straws make sounds, and everyone else joined. We called it the Handivan song. It was totally awesome.
Then we finally started home, around 4:15. We talked about movies we like (who knew they all love Monty Python?), and comedians, and laughed like idiots. We also laughed about everything else that happened that day. We had a contest on who was ugliest when they were 12. We talked about hygene, and how cool it would be to take then Handivan to a drive in movie, with a big buttload of us. Seriously, I am so jealous of all of them. I was never that cool when I was 14 or 15. It was so totally awesome, like I mean we never ran out of things to talk about, or laugh about, and I could've driven for way longer than we did. I feel like we're like the Handivan's own Breakfast Club. We're like the Handivan Club (whoa, that sounded way cooler in my head). Like we're all forever bonded because of that one day. Who knows if on Monday we'll talk or anything, but for those few hours we a tight group of friends. Now that is beautiful. And I am so in a funk.
Monday, March 14, 2005
Aicha
So sweet, so beautiful
Every day like a queen on her throne
Don't nobody knows how she feels
Aicha lady, one day you'll be real
She moves, she moves like a breeze
I swear I can't get her out of my dreams
To have her shining right here by my side
I'd sacrifice all the tears in my eyes
woo woo woo
Aicha, Aicha
Passin me by
Aicha, Aicha
My my my (ooh)
Aicha, Aicha
Smile for me now
I don't know, I dont know
Aicha in my life
For the complete Aicha experience, go to http://www.ebaumsworld.com/aicha.html
Every day like a queen on her throne
Don't nobody knows how she feels
Aicha lady, one day you'll be real
She moves, she moves like a breeze
I swear I can't get her out of my dreams
To have her shining right here by my side
I'd sacrifice all the tears in my eyes
woo woo woo
Aicha, Aicha
Passin me by
Aicha, Aicha
My my my (ooh)
Aicha, Aicha
Smile for me now
I don't know, I dont know
Aicha in my life
For the complete Aicha experience, go to http://www.ebaumsworld.com/aicha.html
Friday, March 11, 2005
Thursday, March 10, 2005
In Rememberance
Okay, so I've been deeply changed and moved by the four RCMP officers killed in Alberta. Everytime I see anything about them on the news, I cry. Right now an "In the Line of Duty" special is on. Oh wow, I just couldn't stop crying. Over 700 officers have died in Canada since the 60s. This one officer, his wife was 4 weeks pregnant when he was killed. He was only 21. She never met her father. Another one has a young child and leaves a pregnant wife. Oh, its just awful.
One of the officers was the son of a Lutheran pastor, and he told his dad that no matter what happened to him on the job, he knew where he was going to end up. I mean how beautifully and tragically sad is that? I just bawled. I mean he was only 25, he had his whole life ahead of him. He's with Jesus now, but the fact is he shouldn't be. He should be living his life, having children. I find it so unfair and awful. The truth is, nobody is to blame. As long as there's sin in the world, this will happen. People need Jesus, you know? Like people just need to find Him and hang out with Him and get to know Him and maybe stuff like this wouldn't happen. There was no reason to shoot those men. Oh this is awful, I am so sad.
I wish I could do something, I'm just feeling this deep desire to help out. The worst thing is that no matter what I do, or tried to do, nothing can bring this men back to their loved ones.
Const. Peter Schiemann, aged 25
Const. Leo Johnston, aged 32
Const. Anthony Gordon, aged 28
Const. Brock Myrol, aged 29
"We seek comfort in the midst of our sorrow, peace in the midst of our inner turmoil and hope...from a good and gracious God who is more powerful than the evil in us and around us. Yes, what happened to Peter and the others was horrific. Sin will run rampant, but horror and evil, sin and death did not win the day."
You will be remembered.
One of the officers was the son of a Lutheran pastor, and he told his dad that no matter what happened to him on the job, he knew where he was going to end up. I mean how beautifully and tragically sad is that? I just bawled. I mean he was only 25, he had his whole life ahead of him. He's with Jesus now, but the fact is he shouldn't be. He should be living his life, having children. I find it so unfair and awful. The truth is, nobody is to blame. As long as there's sin in the world, this will happen. People need Jesus, you know? Like people just need to find Him and hang out with Him and get to know Him and maybe stuff like this wouldn't happen. There was no reason to shoot those men. Oh this is awful, I am so sad.
I wish I could do something, I'm just feeling this deep desire to help out. The worst thing is that no matter what I do, or tried to do, nothing can bring this men back to their loved ones.
Const. Peter Schiemann, aged 25
Const. Leo Johnston, aged 32
Const. Anthony Gordon, aged 28
Const. Brock Myrol, aged 29
"We seek comfort in the midst of our sorrow, peace in the midst of our inner turmoil and hope...from a good and gracious God who is more powerful than the evil in us and around us. Yes, what happened to Peter and the others was horrific. Sin will run rampant, but horror and evil, sin and death did not win the day."
You will be remembered.
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
The Countdown
ten things i want to do in my lifetime:
1. hang out with (or preferably marry) Matt Thiessen from Relient K
2. fall in love and get married
3. graduate from college
4. have a family of my own
5. learn to play the guitar
6. travel around Europe
7. go to underprivilaged countries to do missions work
8. write and publish a book
9. have blue hair
10. help lots of people find Jesus
nine things on my mind:
1. i don't care enough about school
2. my head hurts
3. i wish i could do something tonight other than math
4. i am SO SAD that Matt Thiesson is married!
5. should I be coloring my french poster right now?
6. how much longer will I have this job?
7. I eat too much chocolate
8. something smells totally funky in here
9. what will Sarah and I sing for the talent show?
eight songs i love:
1. Crimson and Clover - Tommy James and the Shondells
2. Look What You've Done - Jet
3. When I Go Down - Relient K
4. Hopeless - The Trews
5. Boulevard of Broken Dreams - Green Day
6. Untitled - Simple Plan
7. In The Light- DC Talk
8. Pitiful - Blindeside
seven things i do almost every day:
1. complain
2. take tylenol
3. worry about something
4. listen to Relient K
5. eat a lot
6. laugh
7. say "Holy Crap"
six things (not people) i love:
1. rainbows
2. snuggling with my cats
3. getting e-mails
4. Festival (and my hoodie!)
5. dancing
6. playing the piano
five people i enjoy the company of: (not in any particular order)
1. Ashley
2. Brynne
3. Cassie
4. Ireen
5. Everyone who's reading this now...I LOVE YOU! I love too many people.
four most recent movies i’ve seen:
1. The Village
2. Hitch
3. Barbershop 2
4. Cellular (LOL!)
three skills i have:
1. writing stuff
2. singing
3. eating! lol
two things i’d change about myself:
1. I would SO be thinner! I mean...I'd accept myself :)
2. i would be better at telling people about Jesus
one bit of advice:
1. always smile! someone will smile back!
1. hang out with (or preferably marry) Matt Thiessen from Relient K
2. fall in love and get married
3. graduate from college
4. have a family of my own
5. learn to play the guitar
6. travel around Europe
7. go to underprivilaged countries to do missions work
8. write and publish a book
9. have blue hair
10. help lots of people find Jesus
nine things on my mind:
1. i don't care enough about school
2. my head hurts
3. i wish i could do something tonight other than math
4. i am SO SAD that Matt Thiesson is married!
5. should I be coloring my french poster right now?
6. how much longer will I have this job?
7. I eat too much chocolate
8. something smells totally funky in here
9. what will Sarah and I sing for the talent show?
eight songs i love:
1. Crimson and Clover - Tommy James and the Shondells
2. Look What You've Done - Jet
3. When I Go Down - Relient K
4. Hopeless - The Trews
5. Boulevard of Broken Dreams - Green Day
6. Untitled - Simple Plan
7. In The Light- DC Talk
8. Pitiful - Blindeside
seven things i do almost every day:
1. complain
2. take tylenol
3. worry about something
4. listen to Relient K
5. eat a lot
6. laugh
7. say "Holy Crap"
six things (not people) i love:
1. rainbows
2. snuggling with my cats
3. getting e-mails
4. Festival (and my hoodie!)
5. dancing
6. playing the piano
five people i enjoy the company of: (not in any particular order)
1. Ashley
2. Brynne
3. Cassie
4. Ireen
5. Everyone who's reading this now...I LOVE YOU! I love too many people.
four most recent movies i’ve seen:
1. The Village
2. Hitch
3. Barbershop 2
4. Cellular (LOL!)
three skills i have:
1. writing stuff
2. singing
3. eating! lol
two things i’d change about myself:
1. I would SO be thinner! I mean...I'd accept myself :)
2. i would be better at telling people about Jesus
one bit of advice:
1. always smile! someone will smile back!
Thursday, March 03, 2005
Hurry Up, Tomorrow!
I wish tomorrow would get here. Not like today has been exceptionably awful or anything, but tomorrow is going to be fun! We have a sub in french, so that will be good, then work, and then Brynne and I are going to see Kristin's play! Maybe we can go out for coffee after or something, or just back to her room. Oh well. I'm hoping to show Brynne my grad dress as well. I hope she likes it! Then she's spending the night and we're going to the wavepool with youth group the next afternoon. And Ireen is coming! I haven't seen her in ever! It'll be a blast, I'm stoked. Plus swimming, how fun! Other than the swimsuit aspect. Oh well, whatevz. I can't believe I just said that, my sister is really starting to rub off on me...
Okay, so reading my 17 magazine today made me realise that I am TOTALLY addicted to caffine! The symptoms were that if you didn't have it you were sluggish, had headaches and were irritable. Well thats been me lately. I am so tired for no reason, I have constant headaches and mom pointed out that I've been grumpy. So yeah. I think its the chocolate more than the pop, because I've had so much of it in the past few weeks, with my birthday and Valentine's Day so close together. But now my supply is out, and I'm feeling the effects, people. Not good! I've totally put on weight since January too, which sucks. I just feel fat and yucky all the time, how annoying. So yes, caffine is bad, as is chocolate and no energy to work out. So yeah. Yeah.
Okay, so reading my 17 magazine today made me realise that I am TOTALLY addicted to caffine! The symptoms were that if you didn't have it you were sluggish, had headaches and were irritable. Well thats been me lately. I am so tired for no reason, I have constant headaches and mom pointed out that I've been grumpy. So yeah. I think its the chocolate more than the pop, because I've had so much of it in the past few weeks, with my birthday and Valentine's Day so close together. But now my supply is out, and I'm feeling the effects, people. Not good! I've totally put on weight since January too, which sucks. I just feel fat and yucky all the time, how annoying. So yes, caffine is bad, as is chocolate and no energy to work out. So yeah. Yeah.
Sunday, February 27, 2005
When I Go Down
I'll tell you flat out it hurts so much to think of this. So from my thoughts I will exclude the very thing that I hate more than anything is the way I'm powerless to dictate my own moods. I've thrown away so many things that could've been much more. And I just pray my problems go away if they're ignored, but that's not the way it works. No that's not the way it works. When I go down, I go down hard. And I take everything I've learned and teach myself some disregard. When I go down, it hurts to hit the bottom. And of the things that got me there I think, "if only I had fought them." If and when I can clear myself of this clouded mind I'll watch myself settle down into a place where peace can search me out and find that I'm ready to be found. I've thrown away the hope I had in friendships. I've thrown away so many things that could have been much more. I've thrown away the secret to find the end of this. And I just pray my problems go away if they're ignored, but that's not the way it works. No that's not that way it works. Any control I thought I had just slipped through my hands while my ever-present conscience shakes its head and reprimands me, reprimands me. Then and there I confess I'll blame all this on my selfishness. Yet You love me, and that consumes me, and I'll stand up again - and do so willingly. You give me hope, and hope, it gives me life. You touch my heavy heart, and when you do it makes me light. As I exhale I hear your voice, and I answer you, though I hardly make a noize. And from my lips the words I choose to say seem pathetic, but it's a fallen man's praise. Because I love You. Oh God, I love You. And life is now worth living if only because of You. And when they say I'm dead and gone it won't be further from the truth. When I go down, I lift my eyes to You. I won't look very far cause You'll be there with open arms to lift me up again...to lift me up again.
Tuesday, February 22, 2005
Stuck In My Head
Here's the thing, we started out friends. It was cool, but it was all pretend. Yeah, yeah, since you been gone. Your dedicated, you took the time, wasn't long, til I called you mine. Yeah, yeah, since you been gone. And all you'd ever hear me say is how I pictured me with you. That's all you'd ever hear me say. But since you been gone, I can breathe for the first time. I'm so moving on, yeah yeah! Thanks to you now I get what I want, since you been gone. How can I put it? You put me on. I even fell for that stupid love song. Yeah, yeah, since you been gone. How come I'd never hear you say I just wanna be with you? Guess you never felt that way. But since you been gone, I can breathe for the first time. I'm so moving on. Yeah, yeah. Thanks to you now I get, I get what I want. Since you been gone...you had your chance, you blew it, out of sight, out of mind. Shut your mouth, I just can't take it again and again and again and again... Since you been gone I can breathe for the first time. I'm so moving on. Yeah, yeah. Thanks to you now I get, I get what I want. I can breathe for the first time, I'm so moving on, yeah yeah. Thanks to you now I get, you should know, that I get, I get what I want. Since you been gone...since you been gone. Since you been gone...
Sunday, February 20, 2005
The One That Got Away
Ok, so these past two weeks have been insane. I haven't really been home for like the past five days. I went to Winnipeg to Festival Du Voyageur twice!!! It was totally awesome and fun and I love it there! Beaucoup de les mignons garçons! LOL I saw my future husband, he was this adorable dark haired guy who was the lead singer in a french band. He was so talented! And french! And didn't appear to have a girlfriend present! But yeah, I think we might have looked at each other once or twice (we had a moment!), but then they left and I never got to talk to him or find out his name or even the band's name! :( So yeah, it made me sad. I just chose to call him the one that got away...
Saturday, February 12, 2005
Its My Birthday
I"M 18!!!
SCARY!!!!
So yeah, happy brithday to me, I think Brynne and I are gonna go see "Finding Neverland", so toodles!
Wednesday, February 09, 2005
My New Kitties!
Hey! I got kitties on Monday, they are so cute and cuddley and I love them! The one on the left is orange and his name is Mozart. The one on the right is named Melody. Mo is so dumb, he's a huge goof. Mel is cute and really shy, but I think she'll get used to us eventually. They are siblings and 7 months old right now, so they're so tiny! I love them, and I am so excited to have cats!
Sunday, February 06, 2005
Stop! In the Name of WAD
Okay, so last night Brynne and I went to this family dance thing to watch WAD in Shoal Lake. It was AWESOME! Geordie and Eddie are discustingly talented. And Geordie is so my hero, I mean he's amazing at both the drums and the piano. Watching him play is amazing, I love watching people do what their passionate about and/or good at. Like seriously! After their first set Brynne and I went and sat with him because there was seriously no one else there our age. So we hung out with Geordie for like an hour. It was very funny, he was telling us stories he plans on telling magazines when he's famous! LOL I laughed! And about music and bands, like Default - turns out they're fans too! Whoo! Default power! Then it was midnight and Eddie's birthday so we went and yelled happy birthday at him. That was funny. The lead singer of the other band was really good! He sang happy birthday to Eddie and it was funny. He's only 15 now, but he's more talented than like 30 year olds out there now. He's like a next-generation Jimmy Hendrix! Seriously! Then WAD went back on and Brynne and I sat on the side, where we had a better view. They totally played a Default song! I was so excited and singing along. And at the end, I cheered - I was the only one however, much to my embarassment! But yeah, I shook it off, I mean anything in the name of Default, right? So yeah, the point of this story is that I was discustingly impressed, among other things, right Brynne? IT WAS SO COLD IN THERE! I thought I would die! I had my coat on the whole time, and yeah I was freezing! My toes froze. I got home and they were all white and I had to rub them for like 10 minutes before I went to bed. It was bad. And so I slept like a rock last night, I'm still tired, and yeah, thats my story. Go see WAD when you can people! Brynne and I are now gonna be groupies! LOL lata playas...
Monday, January 31, 2005
Goodbye! I'll Miss You!
Well this is basically a post to say that I will most likely be unable to post for the next 2 weeks. Life is carzy right now, with exams and math and grad pictures and everything. :( I apologise for my lack of posting and hope everyone will forgive me until my next post.
Now on to my weekend. On Saturday was my dad's 50th birthday! We planned this huge surprise party for him. It was the church. Everyone from the church was invited, and so were people like Henk, Brion and Brynne. It was pretty sweet. So all day we just layed around and I did homework all day and then we snuck off to the church to decorate. We made this huge banner that said "Happy 50th Owen" and we got everyone to write stuff on it. Dad seriously had no idea. He loves birthdays, so it was totally hard to watch him mope all day. We came home and he was all dressed up and ready to go, but then we just ate leftovers and watched the news. It was so sad! Then Jordan and Kristin and I said we were gonan go rent a movie, but went to the church to set up all the food. There was so much! People started arriving around quarter to six. Lots of people arrived and then around 7:15 mom and dad walked in. Everyone screamed and yelled "Surprise!" and dad was just beaming away! It was totally cool! Then we all mingled and talked and over 50 people were there and we presented the cake and Irwin prayed for dad and we had cake and ice cream. It was totally sweet. Then later Kristin got Henk cake but Ashley and I inhaled it before he sat down. Then we did it again with the next piece. Henk was like, "I'm gonna cry" and so was I because my stomach freaking hurt from all that! Then Pat and Ralph came and we all screamed. It was very cool. I didn't sleep until like 2:00 am and then we went to church the next morning. I was needless to say exhaustified!
It was totally wicked awesome and dad totally deserved it. He's the best! :) Then I did LA all day yesterday and math all night last night and that's what I'm off to do right now! Toodles!
Now on to my weekend. On Saturday was my dad's 50th birthday! We planned this huge surprise party for him. It was the church. Everyone from the church was invited, and so were people like Henk, Brion and Brynne. It was pretty sweet. So all day we just layed around and I did homework all day and then we snuck off to the church to decorate. We made this huge banner that said "Happy 50th Owen" and we got everyone to write stuff on it. Dad seriously had no idea. He loves birthdays, so it was totally hard to watch him mope all day. We came home and he was all dressed up and ready to go, but then we just ate leftovers and watched the news. It was so sad! Then Jordan and Kristin and I said we were gonan go rent a movie, but went to the church to set up all the food. There was so much! People started arriving around quarter to six. Lots of people arrived and then around 7:15 mom and dad walked in. Everyone screamed and yelled "Surprise!" and dad was just beaming away! It was totally cool! Then we all mingled and talked and over 50 people were there and we presented the cake and Irwin prayed for dad and we had cake and ice cream. It was totally sweet. Then later Kristin got Henk cake but Ashley and I inhaled it before he sat down. Then we did it again with the next piece. Henk was like, "I'm gonna cry" and so was I because my stomach freaking hurt from all that! Then Pat and Ralph came and we all screamed. It was very cool. I didn't sleep until like 2:00 am and then we went to church the next morning. I was needless to say exhaustified!
It was totally wicked awesome and dad totally deserved it. He's the best! :) Then I did LA all day yesterday and math all night last night and that's what I'm off to do right now! Toodles!
Tuesday, January 25, 2005
Wrong Number
Someone just called me and said it was a wrong number. Oops! LOL I HATE wrong numbers! They are so humiliating! Its like, wow I'd rather die than continue talking with you on the phone. And they're all like, Oh no problem, or sometimes they ask your name. Thats the worst. I mean smaall town, everyone knows everyone! So its awful! Anyways, I wrote my math exam and it went really well. I thought it was like, easy. I was happy, it was almost fun because I knew what I was doing the whole time. So that was all good and happy, but then we spent all morning filming our LA talk show, and then it was all screwed up and ended up not taping the good takes and just the out takes. So that blows. Anyhoo, I should go, work is done. Toodles!
Tuesday, January 18, 2005
Forgotten Music
Okay, so we happen to have a bunch of crappy '90s band on our computer. I totally listen to them tout les temps! Its a little sad really. Some of them aren't that bad, or at least they're cheesily enjoyable. So here's a shout out to some 90s bands that have become...forgotten music.
B44
Does anyone remember these guys? They sang "Get Down" and "Go-Go" which are totally fun and absolutely retarded songs. The harmony just SCREAMS boy band! Its so funny, it reminds me of grade 7, back when these guys were new. They were totally not really popular then...I like them. They make me laugh.
BBMak
Something about the B bands that caused them to die off or something...these guys are so cute! They're from the UK, so they were a typical boy band. Only with 3 members. The words hardly make sense, but the song "Ghost" is sung so beautifully, who even cares? And they sang "Out of My Heart" too. I think it was on a movie, cause I remember the video. No wait, that was "Still on Your Side." Okay so they had more singles than I remembered. But they're totally cute, and pretty talented. I wonder what ever happened to them?
Vertical Horizon
This band is like the definition of 2000. They were one of the first bands on the brand new radio station 94.7 STAR FM! Thats funny! I remember listening to them on the way back from the grade 7 field trip. They were actually good! I love the song "You're a God" its so awesome and catchy. And "Everything You Want" was huge in Westman for so long! I seriously really wonder where they are now...I really liked them! They still totally rock in my book. Their music should not be forgotten!
Other memorable bands and/or singers: Toni Braxton (who sang "He wasn't man enough for me"...if you listen to her deep voice you might take a stab at why!), Wide Mouth Mason ("Change"), Smashing Pumpkins (oh wow now thats an old one!), Shawn Mullins ("Lullaby" that was so not a song, he just said the verses...), Lifehouse ("Hanging By A Moment" was huge...I always got them confused with...), The Calling ("Wherever You Will Go"), Craig David (what a tool, I hated that "Fill Me In" song so much, almost as much as "7 Days"), Amanda Marshall ("Shades of Grey" was my favorite song for ever! Now I don't like her), Wave (what a sad sad excuse for a band...although I did see them in concert and met them too. I still say "Don't Say Sarah" killed their "career"!) And so many more, but I'm outta time and energy to type them out!
B44
Does anyone remember these guys? They sang "Get Down" and "Go-Go" which are totally fun and absolutely retarded songs. The harmony just SCREAMS boy band! Its so funny, it reminds me of grade 7, back when these guys were new. They were totally not really popular then...I like them. They make me laugh.
BBMak
Something about the B bands that caused them to die off or something...these guys are so cute! They're from the UK, so they were a typical boy band. Only with 3 members. The words hardly make sense, but the song "Ghost" is sung so beautifully, who even cares? And they sang "Out of My Heart" too. I think it was on a movie, cause I remember the video. No wait, that was "Still on Your Side." Okay so they had more singles than I remembered. But they're totally cute, and pretty talented. I wonder what ever happened to them?
Vertical Horizon
This band is like the definition of 2000. They were one of the first bands on the brand new radio station 94.7 STAR FM! Thats funny! I remember listening to them on the way back from the grade 7 field trip. They were actually good! I love the song "You're a God" its so awesome and catchy. And "Everything You Want" was huge in Westman for so long! I seriously really wonder where they are now...I really liked them! They still totally rock in my book. Their music should not be forgotten!
Other memorable bands and/or singers: Toni Braxton (who sang "He wasn't man enough for me"...if you listen to her deep voice you might take a stab at why!), Wide Mouth Mason ("Change"), Smashing Pumpkins (oh wow now thats an old one!), Shawn Mullins ("Lullaby" that was so not a song, he just said the verses...), Lifehouse ("Hanging By A Moment" was huge...I always got them confused with...), The Calling ("Wherever You Will Go"), Craig David (what a tool, I hated that "Fill Me In" song so much, almost as much as "7 Days"), Amanda Marshall ("Shades of Grey" was my favorite song for ever! Now I don't like her), Wave (what a sad sad excuse for a band...although I did see them in concert and met them too. I still say "Don't Say Sarah" killed their "career"!) And so many more, but I'm outta time and energy to type them out!
Sunday, January 16, 2005
Random Thoughts of the Day
Everything sucks when people quit drama, Pizza Pringles and chocolate milk = worst breath EVER, bacon and eggs rock and should be consumed daily, A Beautiful Mind is a sad sad movie, Mario Kart is fun, its too cold outside to exist, church is fun, old people are cute, secrets are the best, the only way to win Mario Kart is by actually knowing who you're paired up with lol, black fingernails are the best, hair is annoying, glasses fog up too easily, flirts are annoying to be around, boys can act weird, and they will always laugh at the word booby not matter how old they are, Cass' grad dress is pink and I'm excited, Relient is the best band of all time, Aicha is the funniest thing of all time, my grandma's car is a treat to drive, grandma is short, a house looks empty without a Christmas tree, CD burners rock, retainers are smelly, my head it constantly itchy, drugs are stupid, layering clothes is the way to go, skater shoes are hot, staying up too late on a Saturday night = an unpleasantly exhausting Sunday, God rocks my world and finally, fried chicken will cure a choking victim everytime!
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