Canadian Idol - Week 2

Okay, so last week I was off a bit on the bottom three, but Emily was eliminated, as I predicted. Whoo! So here I am again to dis…I mean, to critique tonight’s performances.
Casey started the show off with a yawn, singing pretty well, but just not great. That’s the weird thing with her – she’s good but just not good enough. She’s too cute though. Next was Josh, who just did what he does. It was funny, I enjoyed the dancing. He really needs to shave, though. Ashley attempted to growl her way through a song and hide her missed notes (as in all of them) by spinning the entire performance. Hey, the Pee Wee-ness seems to work for Suzi. Didn’t work so well for her though. Of course the judges loved it, I mean she’s got a meaner growl than Sass Jordan, so she was probably feeling intimidated. Daryl decided to act like a star and walked out confidently, not like he was about to dodge tomatoes. He was awesome! He sang so well and loosened up a lot, I feel so proud of him! Plus he sang “Superstition” which is always a good time. I know I said it last week, but I’ll say it again: I. LOVE. REX. That’s pretty much all there is to it, he sang like a cool tough guy. I had no idea that the song “Gansta’s Paradise” sampled a Stevie Wonder song! I know I’m slightly biased, because she was born in Manitoba, but Amber is so wonderful, its getting to the point that I just have to look at her and get chills. She should win, I really want her up there. Brilliant. Ooh, and I lose all respect for Melissa but brutalizing the song that she sang tonight. It was putridly awful. She can’t hold on much longer. Aaron did so well. The thing that’s different about him in comparison to most of the other competitors is that he does the same stuff they do, only he actually hits the notes. He’s got some mad talent. Suzi continues to compete for Pee Wee Idol this week, singing that song from “Center Stage”. She copies Ashley and tries spinning to hide her bad notes. Perhaps all the competitors should start spinning, the judges really seem to like that.
It was all around a pretty enjoyable show, with all the people I like doing well, and all the people I don’t doing whatever it is they do.
The bottom three? Melissa, Ashley, Casey. AND ASHLEY GOES.

P.S. Hey if she leaves then Suzi can officially be crowned the winner of the first Pee Wee Idol!

To Avoid Being Tarred and Feathered...

I've decided to post my Canadian Idol rantings on my site, instead of on their website where I will be beaten and hated by every Idol fan in Canada.
So...last night was the first night of the top 10. I wasn't expecting much, because Canada has promptly turned into the USA by voting all these talentless girls in based on looks instead of singing ability. I wasn't expecting much, and I didn't get much.
Aaron was first, and he was okay I guess, kinda fun, but ultimately forgettable. Emily was next. This girl is BAD, as in TERRIBLE and completely TALENTLESS. Like she is horrendously awful, and I am offended that she was voted in above Vince and Josh. Oh it just makes me sick. She thinks she's miss Teen Canada and she needs a strong kick in the teeth to convince her otherwise. I'd just like to thank Farely for his comments and Zach as well who called her a pageant singer. Daryl was next, my boy Daryl, who was so scared I thought he was going to die right there on stage. He was possibly frightened by Sass' boob exposure! Poor kid, he'll improve with time. That kid can sing though. Even Baba told me he had good tone. Suzi was next - and I'll admit it early, that I cannot stand her. The mere sight of her unclean hair and the way she sings! Man! What is this, Pee Wee Herman Idol?!? And she was bad, every big note she reached for or run she sang was just off and terrible. Even Kristin, who likes her, said she was bad. So thats that. Melissa gets some points because I liked her bio. She seems like a cool chick and I love seeing her in shorts, playing basketball and being normal. She sang pretty good too I guess. Ashley is competing in the Pee Wee Idol competition as well, I see. Her song was "near flawless" because it consisted of five notes and takes no skill whatsoever to sing. I loved her brother crying and saying "this is like Oprah - they make you cry!" That was awesome. Rex....Rex....I LOVE REX. This boy can really do no wrong, in my mind. I love his accent and his reference to the Loreal Girls. What a nice boy. Amber is AMAZING. She looked beautiful and I had chills the entire song, I was seriously freezing afterwards. When Zack called her voice holy, he's pretty close. Josh was incredible, that boy is OFF THE HOOK. Just amazing. Too good for the show and wonderful. Plus his guitar room is pink, how amazing is that? Casey was cute, she's so adorable and I feel bad for her because her song was so rushed.
So, what's my prediction for tonights bottom 3? Emily, Aaron, Casey - AND EMILY GOES. She MUST go...

I Am Understood?

Okay, I'm gonna steal some of Cassie's words when she said, "what the dog is up with blindside that, like, influences me so deeply?" Because I feel the EXACT same way about Relient K. Their songs never cease to amaze, move and bless me so much that I can't even describe it. Jesus is so present in their lives. Last night I was listening to "Two Lefts Don't Make a Right, But Three Do" and I had to stop and write down what I felt. I was like, Matt Theisson is AMAZING. I mean I've never met him or anything, but it feels like he just gets me and writes songs that say what I'm thinking and feel but could never write. Its like we're so on the same track, and he's so amazing because he shares all these personal conversations with God and records them. Wow, they are so amazing. Here's a song that blesses my life, I hope it blesses yours.

sometimes it's embarassing to talk to you
to hold a conversation with the only one who sees right through
this version of myself i try to hide behind
i'll bury my face because my disgrace will leave me terrified
and sometimes i'm so thankful for your loyalty
your love regardless of the mistakes i make will spoil me
my confidence is in a sence, a gift you've given me
and i'm satisfied to realize you're all i'll ever need
you looked into my life and never stopped
and you're thinking all my thoughts
are so simple but so beautiful
and you recite my words right back to me
before i even speak
you let me know, i am understood
and sometimes i spend my time just trying to escape
i work so hard, so desperately, in an attempt to create space
cause i want distance from the utmost important thing i know
i see your love, then turn my back, and beg for you to go
you looked into my life and never stopped
and you're thinking all my thoughts
you're so simple but so beautiful
and you recite my words right back to me
before i even speak
you let me know, i am understood
you're the only one who understands completely
you're the only one who knows me yet still loves completetely
and sometimes the place i'm at is at a loss for words
if i think of something worthy, i know that it's already yours
and through the times i've faded and you've outlined me again
you've just patiently waited to bring me back and then
you looked into my life and never stopped
and you're thinking all my thoughts
you're so simple but so beautiful
and you recite my words right back to me
before i even speak
you let me know, i am understood
your voice has broken my defence
let me embrace salvation
your voice has broken my defence
let me embrace salvation
let me embrace
let me embrace salvation.

Grad 2005

Look, it's Curtis and me on grad day, aren't we beautiful?

I don't really have the drive to write anything about grad, other than it was a great day, everyone looked beautiful, I WON AWARDS and I was really emotional and cried through alot of it. Thanks so much to everyone who gave me cards that said nice things in them (thats you, Christie) and for all the beautiful gifts. And special thanks to my parents who made all of this possible, I'm sorry for all the time, money, concern and effort you've put in through the past 12 years, especially when it came to math, Mom. I don't even wanna think of where I'd be without all of the above stuff, so really I am truely grateful. Even though I am very excited to finish this chapter of my life, I am also sad to leave behind many amazing people that have helped make me into the person that I am today. Without most of you, I think life would be very different. Thanks for all your prayers! I love you all!!

P.S. I miss you Cass.
P.P.S. I miss Ireen too.
P.P.P.S. And Henky Panky, miss you, boy.

Everybody's Free (to Wear Sunscreen)

Ladies and Gentlemen of the class of ’99
If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience…I will dispense this advice now.
Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth; oh nevermind; you will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded. But trust me, in 20 years you’ll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can’t grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked. You’re not as fat as you imagine.
Don’t worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday.
Do one thing everyday that scares you
Sing.
Don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts, don’t put up with people who are reckless with yours.
Floss.
Don’t waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you’re ahead, sometimes you’re behind…the race is long, and in the end, it’s only with yourself.
Remember the compliments you receive, forget the insults; if you succeed in doing this, tell me how.
Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements.
Stretch.
Don’t feel guilty if you don’t know what you want to do with your life…the most interesting people I know didn’t know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year olds I know still don’t.
Get plenty of calcium.
Be kind to your knees, you’ll miss them when they’re gone.
Maybe you’ll marry, maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll have children, maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll divorce at 40, maybe you’ll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary…whatever you do, don’t congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself either – your choices are half chance, so are everybody else’s. Enjoy your body, use it every way you can…don’t be afraid of it, or what other people think of it, it’s the greatest instrument you’ll ever own.
Dance…even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room.
Read the directions, even if you don’t follow them.
Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly.
Get to know your parents, you never know when they’ll be gone for good.
Be nice to your siblings; they are the best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.
Understand that friends come and go, but for the precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you knew when you were young.
Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard; live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.
Travel.
Accept certain inalienable truths, prices will rise, politicians will philander, you too will get old, and when you do you’ll fantasize that when you were young prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.
Respect your elders.
Don’t expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund, maybe you have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one might run out.
Don’t mess too much with your hair, or by the time you're 40, it will look 85.
Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it’s worth.
But trust me on the sunscreen…

Best Weekend Ever

Okay so I just had, like, the most amazing weekend ever.
The youth group went to PLBC and cleaned up the camp. So we left on Friday at 4:00, and I was in the vehical w/ Ashley, Leanna, Adrienne, Henk and Brion. Leanna and Beatrice and I talked the whole way there about all this stuff, like drinking and smoking and premarital sex and everything we could think of and discussed the spiritual stuff about it. That was awesome. Then we got there and like, picked out our beds in the cabin. I had all awesome people in mine - Ashley, Adrienne, Allison, Natalie, and Leanna. I was pumped. So we all walked around and hung out, and Allison and I just talked and it was totally awesome to get to know her better, we have so much stuff in comman. So then, like, we had supper, which was fantastic and wonderful and we hung out more, then we had a campfire devotion, at which I gave my testimony. It was scary, but it felt so wonderful after, and like I totally cried and it made Ashley cry. Then everyone came up and hugged me and thanked me. Henk told me it was moving.
So then we went inside and had hot chocolate. It was so hot we all burned our tongues. Henk played the piano for us and it was beautiful. He's so good, (who knew?) and really it was so pretty. Then Leanna and Allison and I hung out, talking about God and everything, and it was so cool to have people want to talk about it. It was bed time, and Leanna sat up in her bunk reading the Bible. Ashley came up to join us, and we just layed there talking (all three of us on a single bed, TOP BUNK, man it was awkward). We laughed like idiots and it was so much fun. After like 3 hours we fell asleep. I woke up at like 5:30 and was so hot and uncomfortable, so I moved down to my bed. Leanna was like "no offence Janna, but THANK GOD." It was funny. Two hours later we were geting up for breakfast. It was pancakes, my favorite.
Then we split into groups and my group did the dishes. After that we went to dig out the volleyball pit. That was awful, the "sand" has turned hard as cement. It was bad. So Henk and I went to clean the tuck shop, and just talked and had some really good coversations about God and stuff. It was so neat to talk to him about it. We just talked for like an hour. After that we went back to the pit and picked weeds out of it. It was fun, Curtis and I buried Kim in the sand. So then we had lunch and had free time until 3:00. So Leanna and I sat in her bunk and talked about our church and all this stuff that we felt and stuff. It was so amazing. We felt the same about so much of it. So like, I changed and got clean and I just hung out with people, it was cool. Curtis and I played volleyball. I love that kid.
Then we drove to Brandon and had free time in the mall. I walked around with Leanna and Ash. I bought mascara. Anyhoo. So I met up with my parents, and the youth group left. I got my pictures developed and they are awesome, so many of me and Carlyle!!! Yay! Anyhoo. So yeah. I looked for grad shoes and couldn't find any. That was sad. Then I bought these beautiful and amazing pink and black airwalks, I love them to death. So we ate and the McDonalds guy hit on me, it was ridiculous. So on Sunday I went to church and we did fuzzy wuzzies in Sunday School. People wrote nice stuff on mine, and Curtis wrote "the greatest ever!" and Ashley wrote "the bestest friend." I was so thrilled I almost peed.
After church we got ready for mom's b-day party (her birthday is today). Then people came over. It was so fun, and the food and the cake was amazing. We sat around and it was awesome. Everyone went for a walk and then Ashley and I had this deep and amazing talk and we sang songs from camp and talked about songs we want to teach the orphans in Africa. It was so fun. Then everyone came back and Henk was soaked cuz he fell in a flooded ditch. It was hilarious. So we talked and ate around the campfire. After the Bakers left, Henk and Kristin and I sat around the fire, talking. Its so sad, I was just watching Henk and memorizing all these things about him, trying to take it all in and put it in a box so I could keep it and remember it always. I almost cried, I'm sad he's leaving. Then she went to bed and we talked out there until 3:00 am about everything. He's never been so open, ever. It was neat to hear him just be open and honest. So yeah, I'm tired, but I sat with Carlyle all band class, it was awesome. I should go, this post is way too long.

Breathe

Sorry I haven't done a real post in forever. I've just felt uninspired or lazy or something, and I didn't want to do a crappy job of a post. So yes, here I am to spill out my brain as I see fit.
Okay so Tuesday night was the final band concert - or wait, my final band concert, ever. Last year I would've been praising God, but this year in band was so much fun! I think I'll miss it, I love so many of the people, and the music is so good! Dang. But yeah. It was fun though, I took some pictures of me with my peeps, and if they turn out I'll put some of them up on here.
Okay so did you like ever hear a song and wish you wrote it, or thought of some of the lines? That Anna Nalick song, 2 am (Breathe) has some lines that make me go, "dang! I wish I wrote that!"
2 am and I'm still awake writing this song
If I get it all down on paper it's no longer inside of me
Threatening the life it belongs to
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary screaming out loud
And I know that you'll use them however you want to
Frick, thats some good stuff, same with when she says, "life's like an hourglass glued to the table." Who came up with that anyways? I wish I could've. Know what else is a beautiful song? Iris, by Goo Goo Dolls. Wow. Anyhoo, I'm dumb, I'm feeling all funky and depressed because I don't have a job, and I need one, and this is my last normal month, and Henk is leaving so soon, and I'll like never see him, and yeah I'm sad. So thats pretty much it for me right now. So yeah. Sorry this post has sucked as much as it does.

He Will Lift You Up

When the world is crashing down around you
And no one understands
He will lift you up
When you feel no arms of love surround you
And you're all alone inside
He will be your Friend

He will lift you up
Close to the Heavens
Feel His embrace
Rushing down like the rain
Turn up your face
And thank your Heavenly Father
For He will lift you up

Cause He feels the pain you feel
And He longs to bear it for you
His love will soon reveal the plans
He has in store for you

He will lift you up
Close to the Heavens
Feel His embrace
Rushing down like the rain
Turn up your face
And thank your Heavenly Father
For He will lift you up

For He will lift you up

Here I am to Worship

Light of the world
You stepped down into darkness
Opened my eyes let me see
Beauty that made this heart adore You
Hope for a life spent with You

Here I am to worship
Here I am to bow down
Here I am to say that You're my God
You're altogether lovely
Altogether worthy
Altogether wonderful to me

King of all days
Oh, so highly exhaulted
Glorious in heaven above
Humbly You came to the earth You created
All for love's sake became poor

Here I am to worship
Here I am to bow down
Here I am to say that You're my God
You're altogether lovely
Altogether worthy
Altogether wonderful to me

I'll never know how much it cost
To see my sins upon that cross
I'll never know how much it cost
To see my sins upon that cross

Napoleon Dynamite

Okay, so this is the dumbest and funniest movie ever! All the characters are funny, and Napoleon is my hero, I just love him. I've seen it twice, both times with Henk present, which really helps complete the experience. So yes, run out and rent it, its very funny!!
Sarah sent me this link to a survey thing to figure out which character you are, and these were my results:

You are Deb and could drink whole milk if you wanted.

I was just happy that I wasn't Kip or Uncle Rico!

Its All Over Now

Okay, so last night was the final night of Drama. I thought I would cry, and I did. I wasn't really sad that the play was done, but mostly was sad that I'd miss the people. And that I wouldn't be back there next year, because I'm in grade 12. So the play went pretty good. All of our scenes were good, so I was happy about that. I gave out the cards I had made. My favorite reaction was David. He just sat there reading with the genuine smile on his face. He looked so happy and then he looked at me and was like, "well Janna that was very sweet." And I was happy. Then he hugged me. So yeah, the show went on. Then we had curtain call and I almost cried. Then we backed up and cheered, and then I started weeping. I hugged Brynne and Sarah and Mike, then Randy and Julia. Wow I bawled like a tool when I hugged Julia. I am so going to miss her the most. Then I hugged Jim, and I mean I just bawled. I got tears all over his shirt, and he just kept saying these nice things to me. Then Rob gave me a rose, and I cried harder. After that I hugged Trevor and William, Scott and David. Scott was so cute. He hugged me and was like,"I'm gonna miss you." It was adorable. So yeah, I continued to cry and hug, and was totally humiliated because I was the only one.
So I went downstairs and changed, washed off my makeup etc. Then Brynne and I went upstairs to eat. SO MUCH GOOD FOOD! I sat with Julia and Hannah, Jim and Randy and Brynne. It was fun, and we ate way too much. Then we moved down closer to the front to watch the program. There were some skits, like the little kids dressing up like Jackie and Willie and singing. Too cute!! And some speeches by the directors and principles, etc. Then it was almost over and I was like, I have something to say. So I went up on stage and pulled out my notes I had made. I was like yeah, I always told myself I'd do this, but maybe it was a better idea in my head. I was intimidated! There were alot of people out there. So I was like, this was my 10th production here. But my voice was all wobbley. It was awful! And then I started crying. So I couldn't talk. So I blubbered my way through my speech about how much we're a big drama family, and how much each person there had touched my life. And I said that they helped raise me from 8 to 18. And then I said that I was looking forward to coming back to watch it next year, and finally feel back home. And then I went and sat down, but seriously I was bawling. I got to the stairs, and everyone was standing and clapping. I was an amazing and overwhelming feeling. When I got back to my seat, Jim hugged me and told me he was proud of me for doing that. And then Barry came over to hug me. Then Janice, then Barb and Gordie, Neil, Lori, Clare, Wendy, Brynne, Hannah. It was unbelieveable and I cried each time. Julia was like, "I'm mad at you!" and she was crying too. Then Trevor hugged me. And Scott and David. Then people started leaving. Julia was like, I don't want to leave! And she hugged me and was like "I'm going to miss you!" I just wept. Then they left, and she kept turning around and waving, and we were both weeping. It was really hard because I know I won't see her again for a while, or get to hang out with her like ever. So yeah. Then Brynne came over. I am so funking today. Its just weird to think that I won't see all those people again for such a long time! And I'm in Drama every year. What will I do with myself? So yeah, I'm sad.

Its Been Too Long

I'm so sorry I haven't posted in ever, its just that I have been so busy with Drama! This week is production week, and its going all right. I mean all the scenes I'm in have been good. So yeah...I never thought I'd be a girl who obsesses over tans, but I really enjoy looking down and seeing pretty tanned legs. And arms. I think it makes me look healthier or something. Last night Henk came to the play, and he waved at us before he left. I am so proud of him for acknowledgeing us in public! I mean he never comes to the front or anything, but the wave...excellent. Much improved. Anyhoo I gotta go to french class now, I am so sorry about the lack of postage but I will be back! Toodles!!

Pieces - Sum 41

I tried to be perfect
But nothing was worth it
I don’t believe it makes me real
I’d thought it’d be easy
But no one believes me
I meant all the things I said

If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own

This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don’t know how it got so bad
Sometimes it’s so crazy that nothing can save me
But it’s the only thing that I have

If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own

I tried to be perfect
It just wasn’t worth it
Nothing could ever be so wrong
It’s hard to believe me
It never gets easy
I guess I knew that all along

If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own

Easter Words

Hope y'all remember what Easter is all about:

"When you were dead in your sins and in the uncircumcision of your sinful nature, God made you alive in Christ. He forgave us all our sins, having cancelled the written code with its regulations, that was against us and that stood opposed to us; He took that away, nailing it to the cross. And having disarmed the powers and authorities, He made a public spectacle of them, triumphing over them by the cross."
Colossians 2:13-15

God bless your Easter.



P.S. Today, almost a week after the Kalan concert, it hit me. I am so in a funk!

Janna and Friend

Janna and Kalan :)

The Kalan Story

OH MY GOSH.
Tonight I saw, heard, touched, MET AND TOOK A PICTURE WITH KALAN PORTER!!!
I could seriously die! The whole thing seems so unreal right now!!! Like it hasn't totally sunk in yet, I want to see my pictures so maybe I'll believe it. HOLY CRAP THIS IS CRAZY!
So Brynne, Ireen, Ashley and I went to Brandon (even though the highways were closed, lol) and hung out at the mall a bit. I got Drive Me Crazy and The Babysitter's Club on DVD! I'm pumped! Then we went to the Westman Auditorium, it was around 7:30. We got Kalan shirts and pictures, it said Amanda Stott was giving autographs but nothing on Kalan, so we were sad. Then we went in, it was PACKED. I'm serious. So many girls, of all ages! Little girls and moms and even some grandma's! It was hilarious. Anyways, I was wetting myself and feeling totally nauseated. It was crazy. Then Amanda Stott came out. WOW. What a voice! Its totally sad, she had 10 thousand times more talent than Kelly Clarkson, but she's like hardley famous at all. She's unbelieveable, and completely inspiring. I bought her CD! And got a picture with her. She actually almost made me weep, her voice just moved me.
So after her set, and an autograph and picture with her later, I was back in my seat, feeling ill. Maria was two rows ahead of me, and was like "see that guy up there? Is that Kalan?" I looked up and it totally was! I was like, waving, and he was smiling and waving back. Then the lights went off. Everyone was screaming and I was freaking right out. It seemed like 5 minutes before I could hear this sound...and saw this guy with a violin walk out in a black coat with the collar all turned up. Oh wow. He started playing, it was amazing. Everyone was screaming, and the lights were purple! Then, after the Prelude, he turned his back, and his band rushed out. He whipped around and started "She's So Dangerous."
I was numb, I didn't know what to do. So I cheered. Then I started bawling my head off. I was so overhelmed, that he was real, and there, and singing, and he was so REAL. I mean he was a living breathing real person, not just a face on TV. Ireen laughed at me as I cried until the end of the song. Then he sang "And We Drive" and I wanted to die. I LOVE THAT SONG. Then he was like, "Hey Brandon" and there was more screaming. I was zooming in on my camera and taking pictures. He sang "I Don't Wanna Miss You", and my word, it was lovely. I mean that kid can sing. Like sure, he's an absolute cutey, but when it comes down to it, he is TALENTED. He sang "Single" and finally people got up and started dancing. After the song the skanky old man in charge told us to sit down. Then he sang "Old Man" and Ireen sang along, too cute. It was beautiful. Then Kalan told us to stand up! Ha ha! It was awesome. He kept singing and it was amazing, I was just screaming and Brynne and I were freaking out.
I got up and went to the side to take some pictures up close. I mean I got some great ones. He was so close, I could see the amazing blue of his eyes. And he smiled too! It was amazing! He played his violin so much too! Wow. I went and sat down again and Brynne and I got up to polka during one of his solos, but then we just joined the pit. I wanted to get touched SO bad. Then he left and came back out with a cowboy hat on. I admit, it was hot. Maria joined us in the pit. Then he did "The Devil Came Down to Georgia." It was awesome. Then he sang "Awake in a Dream" and changed it so it was all rock-y, it was amazing. Then he left. I was sad, I so thought it was over. But he came back out and sang songs he sang on Idol, like "House of the Rising Sun", "Long Train Runnin", "Nature Boy", and "Born to Be Wild."
OH MY GOSH. During Long Train Runnin', he was running around touching fingers with people, and I reached...and he GRABBED my hand. I mean he was just wiggling fingers, but he grabbed my right hand. I almost puked. I was screaming and freaking, and I pointed at my hand at Ashley and Ireen, and they laughed. It was unreal. Then I cried again (tool). He sang the last two songs, then had a huge instrumental solo with his band. He waved, bowed, let some people touch his hair, and left. I was sad, wired, pumped and in shock!
Brynne and I decided last Friday we were going out to his bus. Well lots of other people had the same idea. So we waited (Ashley wouldn't come, that bum) and waited. I felt so bad. I mean the poor kid just wants to relax, you know? And he's hounded by fans. But yeah, I waited and couldn't believe he was right there. Then...I got up there. I gave him my sheet to sign and he said, "Hi, how are you?" And I blurted, "God bless you! That was good." And he was like, "wow, thank you." And then I asked for a picture, and he said sure, and I put my arm around him, and he put his arm around me, and Brynne jumped in beside me (you're forgiven) and Ireen took it. I don't even think I blinked. Then I said thanks and danced away.
I MET HIM! I TOUCHED HIM! HE ACKNOWLEDGED THAT I EXIST! And I have a picture to prove it!! (Please God, let it turn out!)
It still doesn't seem real. I'm flying so high right now. Wow oh wow. I don't even know what to say. Tomorrow I will be in the biggest FUNK ever.
Some things bugged me a little however. Nothing about Kalan, just some of the fans. I mean its like some girls know nothing about him. So many kept yelling "you're hot" and were dressed so skimpy. I was like, he doesn't appreciate that. He loves Jesus. He appreciates your support, but he wants you to love his music, too. I mean some girls had a sign that said "come over sometime, I have a double bed." I think he'll be discusted by that, not impressed. It made me sad, and made me realize that I should just keep praying for him, he needs our prayers. So all of you reading this, say a little prayer for Kalan that he won't stray and will draw close to God, and let Him guide him and be his strength. He needs that to stay grounded, to stay...Kalan. I believe thats what makes him so great - his heart.
God bless Kalan Porter, may he continue to make great music, sing well, stay healthy and stay humbled by God's awesome presence in his life. I love you, Kalan. I'm praying for you.

Three Hours

In three hours, I will see my man, my favorite person, my hero, my
KALAN PORTER
IN THE FLESH.
I think I might die of excitement. Or anticipation.

Best Day EVER!

Today has been the freaking funnest day ever! It was Jazz Fest in Brandon, so we all packed up after an hour and a half of practising and headed off. I got to ride in the Handivan! It was the best group of us: Curtis, Eddie, Geordie, Kyle M, Kelsey, Carlyle, Britney, Heidi, Brynne and me. We just talked and hung out the whole way there. Heidi and I laughed most of the way, really! "We're in the handivan...WE'RE COOL!" LOL! Carlyle sat in the wheelchair! We were drawing on the fogged up windows (nice roadkill squirrel "guitar" Eddie!) and waving at people who passed us. And we ate on the way too, Eddie was jealous of my lunch. Then we got there, and we hung out in the hallway, and I saw Jeff and Norah came over to say hello. Then we went to warm up. We went out on the stage to set up, and I saw Andrew! That was cool. He actually announced us, and the songs we played. Then we played In the Mood. It was...interesting. Well it was actually pretty good until the last two bar lines, when the trumpets play the chromatic scale. We all just kind of died and yeah it was bad. I was so humiliated after we finished. Then we played Woodchopper's Ball, which was somehow worse. Oh it was so completely awful. But then we played Soul Bossa Nova. That was the best we ever played it. I mean, we nailed everything! It was amazing, we just killed it! The trumpets we good that whole song, I must say. Then we were adjudicated, and he was really nice. We went to another building and he worked with us for like an hour. We improved so much! If he came to our school once a month, we would be a completely better Jazz Band. So then we like rocked at Woodchopper's. He told us that we we started to play Soul Bossa, we completely changed. He said it was like we were a totally different band. So yeah, that was good.
Then we went to get pictures taken and the photo guy was a total skank (just like at Optimist). So we took the picture, and then we hung out outside. Eddie and I discussed how it must photo guy requirements to be a hoebag, lol. Then Kristin came and said goodbye. Then we all got on the Handivan. We were sitting there, just talking and some of us were humming Soul Bossa. Then Carlyle started yelling "HANDIVAN!" at people who walked by. It was so funny! Then we sang Soul Bossa, each of us singing our parts. It was totally fun and we were just screaming the whole time. People looked frightened, it was funny! My throat was so sore after that. After singing it through about 4 times, we were all like, "what time is it? why haven't we moved?" and Mr. Pettinger was like "It's 3:20 (we were supposed to have left an hour ago) and the handivan won't move out of park." So we all went outside and tried to push it, which was funny also.
Then we got back on, and Mr. Pettinger was on the phone calling the school etc. There was a charter bus parked across the street, and we were waving at the 3 people in it, yelling "Handivan!" at them. They waved and acted like idiots, and we were feeling silly, so Eddie stuck his head out the window and blew a kiss at them. This one guy was pumping his arm in the air with excitement, which scared Eddie. So he gave me his sunglasses, and I continued to wave at them. Then they wrote us a note and held it up against the window. It asked us to um, show some skin and we all laughed, and wrote back for them to show us some first. It was all in good fun, really. But then this one guys started taking off his sweater and dancing around, and then he started with his pants! I was hiding, and then I saw his teacher coming! He did too, when she came on, and ducked into a seat to redress. She looked pretty mad! When they walked by we all laughed and applauded, and I held up a sign that said "Nice." It was hilarious! Finally the handivan started moving, around 4:00. We celebrated by going to McDonalds. It was awesome! I hugged Carlyle! We laughed and talked and it was great. And Brynne and I started making our straws make sounds, and everyone else joined. We called it the Handivan song. It was totally awesome.
Then we finally started home, around 4:15. We talked about movies we like (who knew they all love Monty Python?), and comedians, and laughed like idiots. We also laughed about everything else that happened that day. We had a contest on who was ugliest when they were 12. We talked about hygene, and how cool it would be to take then Handivan to a drive in movie, with a big buttload of us. Seriously, I am so jealous of all of them. I was never that cool when I was 14 or 15. It was so totally awesome, like I mean we never ran out of things to talk about, or laugh about, and I could've driven for way longer than we did. I feel like we're like the Handivan's own Breakfast Club. We're like the Handivan Club (whoa, that sounded way cooler in my head). Like we're all forever bonded because of that one day. Who knows if on Monday we'll talk or anything, but for those few hours we a tight group of friends. Now that is beautiful. And I am so in a funk.

Aicha

So sweet, so beautiful
Every day like a queen on her throne
Don't nobody knows how she feels
Aicha lady, one day you'll be real

She moves, she moves like a breeze
I swear I can't get her out of my dreams
To have her shining right here by my side
I'd sacrifice all the tears in my eyes
woo woo woo

Aicha, Aicha
Passin me by
Aicha, Aicha
My my my (ooh)
Aicha, Aicha
Smile for me now
I don't know, I dont know
Aicha in my life

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Again

Today
I cried
Again
Harder
Than before.