back at it

the difficult thing about blogging is finding the motivation to start again. i really have sucked at blogging for the  last like, 6? years. gah. but i felt a little motivated today so here i am!

sometimes i wonder if i should retire this blog and start a new one. maybe then i'd feel more inclined, with a fresh start and all that. but i LOVE this blog and all the memories it holds and so i find it really hard to do that.

something that might help me post updates is my new year's resolution for 2013 (which is not about blogging, actually). this year i have decided that i want to commit to writing a letter or card and mailing it every week. i really suck at keeping in touch with people and that really bothers me about myself. i have a LOT if people in my life who i love dearly and think about often who probably have no idea due to my friendship negligence. its pretty appalling. so here i am, trying to do a good thing - wish me luck!

i also used to have a passion for writing - journaling, blogging, letter writing - that i seem to have lost, and it makes me sad. ever since i had a spell of depression for a semester in my second year of university, i seem to have lost my interest and passion for writing. i feel like there is a void in my life, a "hobby" void, you could say, that writing used to fill. i feel like i'm so busy that i don't have many interests or things that i do for me, so i hope writing every week will bring back the enjoyment of it.

maybe if i commit to posting on here every week who i wrote to, that will help me get in the swing of blogging again. and it will be cool to have a record of who all i wrote to, so when the year is over i can see who i wrote to and how many times.

the first people on my list are people who i love very much but don't always have many opportunities to tell that to - my grandparents. their health has not been the best lately and its kinda shocked me into the reality that they won't be around forever, and i want them to know how important they are to me.

so, for week one (and a half, since the year started on a tuesday...awkward) i am sending a card to my baba and gigi, who recently had to put down their cat, and a letter to my 92 year old grandma, who is facing surgery for breast cancer within the next month.

until next time.

me and my baba and grandma, may long weekend 2012.