Monday, January 24, 2011

virtue and moir

okay, i just want them to GET MARRIED! i just refuse to believe that they are dating other people. in my dream world they make me happy, like salle and pelletier and get married and have babies and love each other forever (although upon writing this i researched and found out they got a divorce. crap!). regardless, look at this chemistry! i absolutely think he is in love with her, from the way he looks at her to the way he cares for her. yes, they need to get married. thus sayeth the janna. can i get an amen?

Friday, January 21, 2011

praise you in this storm.

generally, casting crowns just change my life. even if i'm not going through a hard time, this song brings me to tears! so beautiful, and i love the words. its not always easy to praise God when we don't feel like it, but we must, because he never leaves us. the line that always gets me is, "You are who You are, no matter where I am." God is the same yesterday, today, forever - praise God for that! no matter how we stray he is always the same loving God.


Monday, January 10, 2011


so i have basically not been well since i got married.

constant colds (sore throat, stuffiness), perpetual but never completed flu-like symptoms (digestive issues, nausea, fever, seriously nauseous every time i eat, etc), and constantly, and i mean CONSTANTLY exhausted. and with that comes debilitating migraines that know me out for a few days usually.

i thought stress probably was a factor, being newly married and switching jobs only a few months into our marriage. but lately i have been more aware of how tired i am. like if we have a retreat on a weekend, or a busy weekend, i basically need to sleep for 3 days straight to begin to feel decent. i guarenteed get a cold and usually drag myself around for the next two weeks.

also, my body aches. i have been seeing a chiropractor for six+ months, and its been really great, but i find my body aches when i get into bed at night. my muscles are sore and certain joints will throb.

i have been thinking too lately that i need to get to an eye doctor because my eyes throb/feel strained alot so i guess my perscription must have changed.

and since getting married, i have been unable to multitask. terrell often gets irritated with me because he'll talk to me when i am cooking to watching tv and i can't listen to him while i am doing it, so i never hear what he's said.

anyways, all this said, and after sleeping in today for the third day in a row and feeling like it was impossible to wake up, i started to wonder if maybe i have chronic fatigue syndrome.

so i looked it up on wikipedia (where else!) and here if what i found.

You may have CFS if you have experienced:

1. A new onset (not lifelong) of unexplained, persistent fatigue unrelated to exertion and not substantially relieved by rest, that causes a significant reduction in previous activity levels.
2. Four or more of the following symptoms that last six months or longer:
  • Impaired memory or concentration
  • Post-exertional malaise, where physical or mental exertions bring on "extreme, prolonged exhaustion and sickness"
  • Unrefreshing sleep
  • Muscle pain
  • Pain in multiple joints
  • Headaches of a new kind or greater severity
  • Sore throat, frequent or recurring
  • Tender lymph nodes

Other common symptoms include:

  • Irritable bowel, abdominal pain, nausea, diarrhea or bloating
  • Chills and night sweats
  • Brain fog
  • Chest pain
  • Shortness of breath
  • Chronic cough
  • Visual disturbances (blurring, sensitivity to light, eye pain or dry eyes)
  • Allergies or sensitivities to foods, alcohol, odors, chemicals, medications or noise
  • Difficulty maintaining upright position (orthostatic instability, irregular heartbeat, dizziness, balance problems or fainting)
  • Psychological problems (depression, irritability, mood swings, anxiety, panic attacks)
so that sounds a lot like me. holy crap. and i think we have some in our family (like i think my uncle has it? not sure) so it wouldn't be unlikely. hmm. something to look into.

on another note, i keep dreaming about being somewhere warm and tropical, and lying in the sun. maybe i should start taking vitamin d. ha ha.

there's my health report for you as of now!