Friday, December 24, 2010

i celebrate the day

i have posted this before but its just too good. i love this song and i am blessed to know the one who was born so i might live.

And with this Christmas wish is missed
The point I could convey
If only I could find the words to say to let You know how much You've touched my life
Because here is where You're finding me, in the exact same place as New Year's eve
And from a lack of my persistency
We're less than half as close as I want to be

And the first time
That You opened Your eyes did You realize that You would be my Savior?
And the first breath that left Your lips
Did You know that it would change this world forever ?

And so this Christmas I'll compare the things I felt in prior years
To what this midnight made so clear
That You have come to meet me here

To look back and think that
This baby would one day save me
In the hope that what You did
That you were born so I might really live
To look back and think that
This baby would one day save me

And I, I celebrate the day
That You were born to die
So I could one day pray for You to save my life

- Relient K

Tuesday, November 09, 2010

beethoven's 5th symphony

on a grumpy day, this made me happy. i love the finale!

Sunday, October 31, 2010

monster mash

this just makes me laugh.

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i can't tell which one is funnier!

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Saturday, September 11, 2010

i heart autotunes.

this still makes my day. if i need to be happy, all i need to do is press play, dance, and sing along!

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

my top 5.

my experience yesterday with the funniest video i have ever seen has inspired to me to post my top 5 favorite youtube videos of the moment, and why i love them so much! dedicated to my dad, the biggest youtube fan i know. so lets get down to business!

Honorable Mention - Oh Don Piano!

This oldie of the talking cat is so hilarious that I cannot watch it without laughing. Poor thing is sick or scared, but he makes some hilarious sounds! WHY I EYES YA! Love it.
Ok but here we go:

#5 - When Elephants Retire.
This video makes me teary every time - its so sweet! When the elephant has her head against the gate and she's just sitting there looking sad...aww. What a nice video!

#4 - Single Ladies Devastation.

Terrell found this, and I think its so funny and adorable. I love the kids reaction and the way the dad ends the video is priceless!

#3 - Sam Tsui - Summer Pop Medley.
Sam Tsui singing a sick arrangement of every song that was popular this spring = AWESOME. He is so talented and really I could listen to him sing anything.
I think I should be offended, but its WAY too funny to be! Between the OMGs and the hun cal fro yos, I am too busy laughing to care! And the gust of wind thing always gets to me!

...and finally...the number 1 video is....

Okay, so Jess showed this to me last night...I have not laughed this hard in a long time. I actually had the same reactions as the guy in the video. I laughed, I cried, at one point I sobbed, "make it stop! Its too much!" right when he also declared it to be too much. Basically only watch this if you are in a giddy mood or else it won't be nearly as hilarious. But I can't even think about it without laughing my head off. And yes, apparently he was sober when this video was filmed!

Bonus! Double Rainbow Autotune song! Its so catchy! Its been in my head all day!!

I hope you enjoyed my video selection! Tell me yours!

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

no greater love have i ever known.

this song just gets me and makes me weep. terrell and i asked katie and glenn to sing it at our wedding and i am so glad they did. to me this song blows my mind because it describes my relationship with God and my relationship with terrell. i love the picture it paints of just being at rest in God's presence. it reminds me of those times that terrell and i are just together, enjoying each other's company, and knowing that God is a part of that too. i am always so astounded that God not only loves me, but considers me to be his friend, too. if i think of him as a friend, and not just as something i can't see, i find it so much easier to imagine trusting him, spending time with him, and confiding in him. i just love this song.

Thursday, July 01, 2010


this weekend terrell and i are flying out to ontario to see his family and friends, as well as have a second wedding reception! i get to wear my dress again, we get to hear some speeches again, and we get to each cake and most likely receive presents again (like we need anything else!).

it will be nice to re-live our wedding, even though we won't know as many of the people who are there (it will mostly be terrell's parents' friends and church people) it will still be great. and luckily for me, i will have some family there! kristin and tyler are stopping in on their drive home so they will be there to celebrate with us. and, perhaps the most surprising of all, MY MOM is coming!! she is flying out with us tomorrow morning and driving back with my siblings. crazy! i am really excited that it all worked out! my mom has never flown before so it could be interesting! but she is a brave lady so i am sure all will be well.

so that's where i'll be for the next few days. have a great canada day!!

Monday, June 21, 2010


i hate when its dark out ALL DAY. it makes me depressed.

money stresses me out.

my chiropractor makes me feel better.

i like sleeping on a real bed.

i like watching movies and tv.

i watched pearl harbor last night and didn't cry! its a first!

i miss my high school friends.

i love my husband.

i really like sour cream and onion ruffle chips. who knew?

grey's anatomy is my favorite show of all time. i love the characters like they are real, i love the medical drama, i love how the season finale makes me bawl like a baby EVERY YEAR.

i miss dancing.

i dislike when bad things happen to our car.

i am excited to see sarah soon!

my lips are dry.

i should blog more.

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Wednesday, April 21, 2010



Tuesday, March 30, 2010

oh, be careful...

i thought today for the first time in a long time about the song we sang in sunday school as a child:
oh be careful little eyes what you see
oh be careful little eyes what you see
for the father up above is looking down in love
oh be careful little eyes what you see
oh be careful little lips what you say...
oh be careful little ears what you hear...
oh be careful little hands what you do...
oh be careful little feet where you go...
i thought of this song today because someone sent me an email that i wish i could remove from my memory.
it was prefaced as a "don't text and drive" email, and showed a series of photos of a smart car that was essentially inside a semi. the driver of the smart car was supposedly texting and crossed the centre line. it looked as though the semi had eaten the smart car - there was really nothing left of it.
there was a warning that the photos were graphic, but i thought the worst thing i would see would be some blood on the highway. i mean, the pictures of the car itself were graphic enough. and considering the person that sent it to me (an elderly person), i never thought it would be that bad.
well, it was that bad, and worse. the only way i can properly describe it is to say that i feel ruined. i was unprepared for close up shots of the smart car driver, who had been sliced in half from the accident, and (i assume), dead. you could see his face. one picture was of his face, and another was of his lower half.
i am sure even just describing that give you chills. well seeing it was worse. i almost vomited. i gagged over my garbage car at work, like i was there in person and had seen the results of the accident. after the initial shock wore off, i drove home and thought of the lyrics to that sunday school song. oh how i wish i had been careful enough to never see that! now the image is burned in my mind. i spent the day feeling as though i had gone through an ordeal. after bawling on terrell about it for half an hour, i had a long nap and the first thing i saw when i opened my eyes was that guy's face. i can't believe that is just out there on the internet. that is someone's SON and that is just being sent around all over the world as some kind of gore pornography. that makes me almost more sick than the image itself.
and so i am reflecting on the song, and though its simple and childish, it still rings true today. we put ourselves in places where we see, hear, do, and say things that we shouldn't. sometimes its not our fault, like today. and sometimes we let it slowly get to us, like listening to depressing music when we feel sad which only makes us feel worse. we must be careful, because not only is God always watching us, but because He wants to protect us from these things.
i wish He would have slapped His hands over my eyes today.

Tuesday, March 09, 2010

can i have this dance

i have a question for y'all.

what do you think about this song? listen to the piano part. its really pretty. what about the words? i think they are actually quite nice.

i am mildly toying with the idea of having this play as i walk down the aisle. i just really think it sounds happy and lovely. terrell wants me to walk in to the theme from 'the holiday,' as its one of our favorite movies, but ashley walked in to it and i don't want to steal that from her.

so let me know what you think. my only hesitation is because of what movie the song is from...if you don't know, please listen to it unbiasedly and offer your opinion before you look it up.

also, again, sam tsui is incredible!

Tuesday, February 23, 2010


I was reading back over my blog because I was interviewed for CMU Sunday Radio this mornign about my Outtatown experience and I wanted to refresh my mind with some memories.

Looking back over my posts, I saw that I posted 100 times in 2006 (!). That is out of this world!

Not only was I posting often, but I usually had like 3-5 comments on each post. My friends and I were constantly commenting on each other's blogs.

It made me just miss those days when we all posted so frequently and had our own little network, and stayed in touch that way. :(

I wish I felt like posting more.

And I miss all y'all.

Just sayin'.

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

the consuming word

its that time of the month again - sermon writing time.

the thing that annoys me about writing a sermon is that it MATTERS.

unlike the papers i wrote in school - they didn't matter. they just needed to be written so i could fulfill the 25% or 40% of my final grade.

sometimes it felt like grammar mattered more than content, that how i said what i said mattered more that what i was actually saying.

not that i wrote bad papers while i was in university. they were well done, and i put a lot of effort into them. but only one person read it (the prof) and writing them didn't affect my life.

the main thing is that when i took a break from writing papers, it was a break. i never thought of it. i went to bed and didn't think of the subject, i watched movies and ate food and stopped thinking about prayer and superstition or thomas muntzer.

with sermons, i cannot stop thinking about it. i lie in bed worrying about it. i make supper and ponder the meaning of the text. i pour over books and the internet trying to find examples that are meaningful and personal. i drive to and from work wondering if i am living out what i am saying in the sermon, if my example are clear, how to put all my thoughts together. i am afraid that i will come across as insincere instead of genuine, if people will think i am a phony. i kill my back and and eyes staring at my computer for days on end and feel like crying when at the end of the day i have only written 300 words that i will actually use in my sermon.

what i say in my sermon MATTERS. i am supposed to be nurturing people. challenging people. they need to relate to it - it has to be inclusive. it has to sound good - not just be read, but spoken. i need to write it to fill a need. and what i say in my sermon will be analyzed and critiqued, not just for marks, but for who i am as a person or faith and what i believe.

i cannot walk away; i can't seem to take a break. it follows me. i look at people interacting with each other and search for a way to include what they are doing into my sermon. i read the text over and over. i read the passages around the text. i memorize the text.

writing a sermon is so difficult because i can never escape. i am continuously caught by the consuming word.

Thursday, February 11, 2010


its kinda funny how just one tiny thing can take you right back to the emotional state of being 10 years old.

a few days ago i was in terrell's apartment and as i was leaving, friend after friend of ours was coming into the apartment with food. they had decided to all make supper togeher and eat together, each person bringing different foods that were cooked together to create a dish.

i felt really awkward, because terrell was invited, and my roomate was participating, and i knew nothing about it. so i went back to my room to eat supper by myself in my apartment.

before i left terrell said i should stay if i wanted to, but i felt awkward because i didn't have any food to contribute to the meal. i also just felt awkward because frankly, i wasn't invited. even though terrell invited me in that moment (and his roomate sort of invited me to stay as i was leaving), i already felt shafted and didn't feel like staying. does anyone else get that? or am i alone here and you think i was being dumb for not staying?

(as an aside, i might have stayed after terrell's invite but i had a massive migraine and just needed quiet)

well i got back to my apartment and made a salad and was on the verge of tears the entire time. i thought at one point i might actually cry...and i felt ridiculous about it!! my friends didn't forget me to be mean, or to make some point...they just forgot, and in our busy lives i can't blame them. but i still felt like i was in grade 6 and my friends started playing a cool game at recess without me and then when i showed up they said i could be the maid while they were all princesses (hey, thats the way it was in the '90s).

i am not telling this story to make anyone feel bad, or to make you feel sorry for me, but rather to point out that a person can be quickly approaching 25 and still feel like a prepubescent.

people are weird.