Thursday, December 30, 2004

Brace Face No More

I got them off!! They are gone!!
My braces were taken off today! I'm undecided about that. I mean its totally awesome and everything, but when I look in the mirror all I see is teeth! They are so huge! I have so much of them! And they feel all slimy and smooth. Its so weird! Its a little silly, really. I almost miss the braces, but not enough to put them back on again! It sounded like he was breaking my teeth off when he took off the brackets...
Not much else to say really, I'm just happy they're off! I can't wait to see people! It will blow their minds! I just hope I get used to them soon, because I feel a little self concious about them and all. So anyhoo, talk at y'all later!

Thursday, December 23, 2004

I got in!!!

I got in to the Outtatown program!! I'm in! Ashley and I both got in to the South African program!! We're gonna have so much fun together, I love her and I am so happy we both got it! Thank You God!!
I am scared, and worried about the money to pay for it, but if its what the Lord wants, He'll provide a way for me to go. I am so pumped, this is what I've wanted always, to go on a real missions trip and help people.
Thank You God!!

Wednesday, December 22, 2004

Let it All Out

Okay so today was the last day of school before Christmas holidays, PRAISE JESUS! School was getting to be too much. I hate it. Anyhoo, last night I went to bed at a decent hour, but I ended up listening to my Relient K CD on my head phones. I got to the song "Let it All Out" and I was like, wow, I love this song, so I played it again. And again. By that time I had really started listening to the words and the words just spoke to me. I mean the second verse, wow. So I was laying there, nodding emphatically along to the song, bawling my stupid head off. It was just that those were the words I needed, that no matter how crappy stuff gets, in the end it won't matter. God loves us no matter what. And in Him, there is strength. So I looked inside last night and found my strength. It was amazing.

Let it all out, get it all out
Rip it out, remove it
Don't be alarmed, when the wound begins to bleed
Cause we're so scared to find out
What this life's all about
So scared we're gonna lose it
Not knowing all along
That's exactly what we need
And today I will trust you with the confidence
Of a man who's never known defeat
But tomorrow, upon hearing what I did I will stare at you in disbelief
Oh inconsistent me, crying out for consistency
And you said I know this will hurt
But if I don't break your heart then things will just get worse
If the burden seems too much to bear
Remember, the end will justify the pain it took to get us there
And I'll let it be known at times I have shown
Signs of all my weakness
But somewhere in me, there is strength
And you promise me that you believe
In time I will defeat this
Cause somewhere in me, there is strength
And today I will trust you with the confidence
Of a man who's never known defeat
And I'll try my best to just forget
That that man isn't me
Reach out to me
Make my heart brand new
Every beat will be for You, for You
And I know You know
You touched my life
When You touched my heavy heart and made it light...

Congradulations Ashley!! I'm so excited for you! Love ya to pieces!

Sunday, December 19, 2004

Nothing Specific and Everything in General

So tonight was carolling. SO FUN! There were only like 12 of us, and it was tons of fun! We sang and Hazel gave us chocolate, which was so cute. Then we watched Elf at my house and talked forever. We also watched all these old movies we made for school until like 12:45. So it was a long youth group!
So today Henk called and said his plane was wrecked so no flying. I was saddened by that, but today was a good day so it was all cancelled out anyways.
Wow this is the worst post ever! But I don't even care! Tonight I asked Curtis to be my grad escort. He said yes! I was happy. I mean one less thingy to stress about. It wasn't even weird, and like I thought I'd have huge issues with how to word it. But nope, it just came out nicely. And he said yes, so all is well! Yay!
I am so tired, I have to go to bed.
I must say this though: I love all my friends! Like everyone, Ashley, Brynne, Curtis, Jodi, Henk, Adrienne, Allison, Ireen, Kaitlan, Lenny, Sarah, Brion and Mike. Even Josh. Seriously, hanging out with them is the happiest I ever am!
And Cass and Al - I MISS YOU SO MUCH! I had a dream about you last night, it made me sad because you're so far away. I love you guys, you are my SSS forever!

Saturday, December 18, 2004

I'll Fly Away...

Wow, I have been neglecting my blog and for this I am extrememly sorry! Its been ridiculously busy. Bio is EVIL and it has been taking up alot of my time. And art too...
Anyhoo, last night was our church concert. It went well. Ireen was so cute and excited! She said it was her first church concert and she was totally cute and nervous before we sang. Ireen, Sarah, Kristin and I sang Silent Night. It went okay. Afterwards we had goodies and juice downstairs and I hung out with Addy, Allie, Jodi, Ireen, Curtis and Brion. It was so much fun! We did all these dumb things and ate way too much and talked and it was totally fun. Curtis was running around in my rainow scarf and mitts and it was very funny!
Today Henk invited me to go flying. Ashley and Brion are coming too. We're going aroud 2:00 this afternoon. I'm scared! I was really excited about it all week, and now I'm scared! I mean we could die! Wow, this is totally showing my lack of faith in Henk, who is a scary driver... But yeah I'm scared about it. I want to sit in the front. I've been flying once before and I sat in the back so I really really want to sit in the front. I hope Ashley and Brion will let me.
Tonight is carolling! My favorite Youth Group! I'm excited! We are singing and then coming to my house and eating and watching Elf. I've never seen it, I hope its good! But I think all my people are coming so I'm excited, its gonna be a good time! Today is just generally going to (hopefully) be a good day!
I should go get ready, I'm still in my pj's. And I think mom wants to go grocery shopping. So anyhoo I'm talk to y'all later!

Sunday, December 12, 2004

The Weekend

Okay so this weekend has been fun. On Friday we went and saw Ocean's 12, which was extremely funny! Ashley and I like died laughing! NO MORE PICTURES! Ha ha! And yeah we embarassed ourselves by talking loudly and laughing through the whole movie. It was fun though. I sat inbetween Ashley and Brynne, and then Brion and Henk. It was fun!
Then we went to McDonalds at like 11:55 and they still made us food. I hadn't eaten yet, and Ashley and Brynne had only had ice cream, so we got food. I sat in the back with Ashley and Henk on the way home. We had to huddle for warmth, it was so cold! When we got to Minnedosa, there were police cars around due to an accident, and they stopped us. He was angry and actually kind of rude. I wouldn't be very happy standing out in the cold at 1:00 am either, I guess. But yeah, I got home around 1:20, and Henk gave me a hug! I think he did it just so he could hug Ashley, but oh well. Oh yeah, he asked her to be his escort on the way home too.
It was fun, but I felt like such a fifth wheel! I mean it was Brion and Brynne in the front, and they're going to grad together, and then Ashley and Henk all snuggly in the back. So I snuggled up against the cold door for comfort, lol. So that part wasn't so great...
Then on Saturday we went bowling with the Youth Group. It was fun! Yay Twinkletoes! Afterwards Brynne, Henk and Brion came over. That night we put up our tree! That was awesome. Our house is now officially Christmasified. I love it.
Then today was church and tonight's the church banquet. I think I'm going. Its gonna be some good food! So yeah thus was my weekend. Laters!

Friday, December 10, 2004

Happy Birthday Brion!

Oh, I've been neglecting my blog so much this week! But this week was a really crazy one! Today is my homeboy Brion's birthday - he's turning the big 1-8 today! Now he's an adult! Whoo! He can vote! I'm glad I can't vote yet, I hate politics. Anyways...
So yeah tonight the plan is that Brynne, Henk, Ashley, Brion and I are gonna go see Ocean's 12 to celebrate the kid's birthday. It will be a Gremlin trip, and its gonna be fun! I'm excited! I need to have fun (and a red bull) after such a long and exhausting week.
My mouth is so sore! I cut it all open inside on my braces...I think its from playing my trumpet, because that just about KILLS me. The band concert went awesomely well on Wednesday! We played 3 senior band songs and 3 jazz band songs. Our jazz band rocks, its just so much fun to be in! And Geordie, Eddie, and Benny Waddell played Carol of the Bells by Metallica. It was amazing! I would marry those boys, such talent! I mean seriously, talented and the nicest kids ever. Too bad they're all younger than me. They're just so cool and incredibly talented! Anyways, before people start getting creeped out...
So yeah I should go do some math. I got back my latest module today and I got 84% on it, so yay. They correcting people are stupid. All they ever say is "show your work!" And I AM! I mean like how much more could I possibly write, stupid woman. But yeah, at least I'm doing alright in it. I think I'm writing the midterm not next week, but the week after. Scary stuff. Then I'll do the second half and write the exam in the second week of February. Thats the plan, anyways.
Well I'd better go. Toodles noodles!

Sunday, December 05, 2004

Red Bull Works!

Okay, so I have zero energy to post, so I'll write later.
Guess what? Today I was bored so I looked up what my name means. And with my first and middle names put together it means "God has been Gracious" "Fairy or Elf".
I find this to be inexplicably anusing. I mean I'm a fairy! Ashley was right all along! And so was Andrew the day he called me something mean...
I HAD THE FUNNEST WEEKEND EVER! And I only got 11 hours of sleep in 48 hours. I want to die I am so tired. I still have some bio to do, and then I'm off to bed! Ooh actually I really want a Red Bull...they are so addicting!
Laters gaters!

Thursday, December 02, 2004

4 Hits and a Miss (plus 5 Queer Guys)

1. Topher Grace is totally my hero! I mean his name is Topher, how cool is that? And he's just so dorky cool, and he always plays such a nice guy, like on That 70's Show and Win a Date With Tad Hamilton. He's too cute! I just wanna marry him!
2. The guy from the "I've-grown-out-of" milk ads. I really hate that chick, but the guy is so cool, with lovely hair. And he doesn't pretend to rap, either. He's just too cool.
3. Josh Groban is amazing, its really completely sick how talented he is. I love him, his voice, and like all of his songs! Even the ones that aren't in English have beautiful translations. He just blows my mind - his talent is seriously not of this earth!
4. Ben Stiller is SO awesome! He always plays someone so awkwardly adorable, and I just wanna hug him! He's so funny and cute and seems like a really sweet guy. Plus he can totally re-invent himself and play just about anyone.
5. Ireen is such a sweetie! I just love her, she's my girl. We can just be like whatever and its all good. I'm totally glad we became friends, and I actually feel like she likes me, which is nice. I haven't heard her dis me or stuff I like yet, so all is good. He accent and grammer is so cute! I'm glad she's here this year and in my classes.
6. The Fab Five are so cool! I want to hang out with them! I almost wish I was a sloppy straight guy so they'd come over, beautify my house and take me shopping! Carson is so gross and funny, I love Kyan (he's so pretty!), Jai is totally cool, Thom is so talented and Ted is hilarious! I want to hang out with them and make them like me! They are so hilarious and their camaradrie is inexplicable. I just love them.

Wednesday, December 01, 2004

When You Say You Love Me

I LOVE THIS SONG!! Josh Groban is so fantastic! Sometimes I pretend he's singing this to I'm a loser!

Like the sound of silence calling
I hear your voice and suddenly I'm falling,
Lost in a dream
Like the echoes of our souls are meeting,
You say those words, my heart stops beating
I wonder what it means?

What could it be that comes over me?
At times I can't move
At times I can hardly breathe

When you say you love me
The world goes still, so still inside and
When you say you love me,
For a moment, there's no one else alive

You're the one I've always thought of
I don't know how, but I feel sheltered in your love
You're where I belong
And when you're with me if I close my eyes
There are times I swear I feel like I can fly
For a moment in time
Somewhere between
The Heavens and Earth
I'm frozen in time
Oh, when you say those words

And this journey that we're on.
How far we've come and I
Celebrate every moment.
And when you say you love me,
That's all you have to say.
I'll always feel this way.

When you say you love me
The world goes still, so still inside and.
When you say you love me
In that moment I know why I'm alive.
When you say you love me.
When you say you love me.
Do you know how I love you?