Tuesday, November 29, 2011

hands and feet

i cry every time i watch this video. what a beautiful man. this is what the heart and hands and feet of jesus look like.

Friday, November 18, 2011

fb etiquette

some days i feel like deleting my facebook account only because people use it so poorly! why is it that no one seems to know the proper etiquette to posting online? if your marriage is in trouble, why would you EVER put your relationship status as a jaunty "it's complicated?" INAPPROPRIATE! if your parents are going through a rough patch in their marriage, crytic facebook statuses about it are also not appropriate, especially when they don't have their own facebook accounts and can't see what you're writing about them. updating your status 3+ times a day? we don't care - get a twitter account if you feel like posting every time you inhale or exhale. also, writing all over your spouses wall that you love them, want them to take out the garbage and asking them if they want to go for a walk later is annoying to anyone that has to see it - do you not live together?? can you not call this person? text them? leave them a note on the table in your own writing?? GOODNESS.

ok, so i needed to rant. all of these things i have seen done BY ADULTS who are my friends on facebook. time to be educated by this clever article i found entitled, "how to not be hated on facebook."

1. Stop taking quizzes. Nobody cares what literary time period you are.
2. If you sync your Twitter account to Facebook so that you fill others' news feeds with a constant stream of mundane updates and references to people with little @ symbols before their names, be prepared for people to de-friend you. Maybe even in real life.
3. Don't friend someone you don't actually know
4. If you must friend someone you don't know, include a message explaining why you are doing so. For example, "Hi, I'm your cousin's roommate!" would suffice.
5. Actually, no. Why would your cousin's roommate want to be your friend? That's still weird.
6. Don't invite people to events if they don't live in your city. I'm glad you still live in our old college town, but guess what? I don't. Even if I did, I still wouldn't waste my Friday night listening to you play music at that vegan coffee shop I frequented when I was 19 because I couldn't get into bars.
7. I'm sorry your grandfather died of emphysema, but I will not join your "cause."
8. Make sure all your photos are rotated in the proper direction. How will people know how fun your Fourth of July barbecue was if every picture looks like you fell over?
9. If you create a group called "Lost my cell phone; need your numbers!," I will join, but I won't give you my number.
10. Cryptic status updates about your mental state — "Rachel is trying so hard," "Rachel wishes things were different," "Rachel is starting her life over" — don't make you sound intriguing, just lonely and pathetic.

all things said, if you don't know the correct way to use social networking sites, don't use them or at least EDUCATE yourself for the sake of my sanity!

end rant.

Saturday, July 09, 2011

getting into you

When I made up my mind
And my heart along with that
To live not for myself
But yet for God, somebody said
Do you know what you are getting yourself into

When I finally ironed out
All of my priorities
And asked God to remove the doubt
That makes me so unsure of these
Things I ask myself, I ask myself
Do you know what you are getting yourself into

I'm getting into you
Because you got to me, in a way words can't describe
I'm getting into you
Because I've got to be
You're essential to survive
I'm going to love you with my life

When he looked at me and said
I kind of view you as a son
And for a second our eyes met
And I met that with a question
Do you know what you are getting yourself into


I've been a liar and I'll never amount to
The kind of person you deserve to worship you
You say you will not dwell on what I did but rather what I do you say
I love you and that's what you are getting yourself into


He said, I love you and that's what you are getting yourself into

relient k.

Thursday, June 30, 2011


I miss being able to sing. I have no voice now, its sad.

Thursday, June 16, 2011

chose one.

what is the most sad?
a) that vancouver lost the stanly cup in game 7.
b) the dangerous, uneccessary violence and head-shots the players take on each other, and how its ruining the integrity of the sport.
c) the horrible treatment of sows (helpthepigs.com).
d) the crowd's violent, destructive riot post game.

i could make an e) all of the above, but i really am curious.

Monday, May 23, 2011

life is so good.

saw this on oprah last week. what an amazing story, and what an adorable man! seriously so cute and so incredibly inspiring. it teaches me not to take my "right" to learn for granted. my favorite part is him reading the bible, and reading his birthday cards!

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

never say never.

ok so tonight a great and willing friend of mine went to see justin bieber: never say never with me. i have always liked justin - a cute canadian who had actual talent, and doesn't seem to be an idiot who does bad things and is a good role model to kids out there. also, its really just SO refreshing to have someone in the music industry who actually has TALENT and has worked hard to get where he is. he didn't have famous parents or a disney channel show to get him fame - he worked his butt off and his own musical talent got him where he is today. all he tells his fans is to chase after their dreams and not let anyone tell them they can't achieve them. and he plays like 10 instruments, and really cares about his fans. i gotta say, if this was 10 years ago i would feel about him like i did about bsb. he's like bsb, the way the fans are just CRAZY about him, whether 3 years old or 50 years old. and i get it. the movie was so good - it was incredible to see his journey, his family and friends so proud and supportive of him, and see him goofing around like any 17 year old would. if you have any desire at all to see it, DO. i want to see it again. i almost cried like 4 times, mostly because his family was just so proud of him. and i love all his crying fangirls, who just bawl because he exists. i can relate all too well, ha ha!

speaking of crying over j. biebs, here is the cutest video ever. the first one is an adorable 3 year old who was having a bad day, who claims she is crying over justin bieber because she loves him so much. second video is her getting to meet him, possibly the cutest thing ever because she is SO HAPPY. she just leaps on him and then happily clutches his hands. so cute. enjoy!

Click to see a 3 year old crying over Justin Bieber. Then watch the following video:

Thursday, April 21, 2011

when i survey

i cannot handle this version of this song. so beautiful. be blessed this easter!
he lived just to die for our sins and rose from the grave to live again!


probably the best easter song ever. i love how it goes through jesus' entire life.
i get chills and cry almost every time.
i can also hardly watch this without crying because mama hopper starts crying. :'(

Saturday, April 16, 2011


for many, many years, i was obsessed with pickles.

although my love of pickles was exclusively to the dill variety, i lived on them for a lot of my childhood, snacked on them at potlucks, and of course, crammed myself full of as many of my baba's as i could fit inside of my stomach.

pickles got me through studying for exams, gross meals at the caf, and 3 am walks with friends. when we got together, we could easily polish off a big jar, the three of us, no problem!

alas, a few years ago, i lost my love of the pickle.

i still liked pickles as a friend, but i just couldn't eat as many as i used to.

perhaps it was that time i choked on the juice of one at the pancake house...i was really never the same after that.

i passed on them at potlucks. i neglected them because sadly, i think i overdid it for about 19 years.

lately, however, i have been craving pickles SO BADLY. terrell said we were out and i nearly cried. i frantically tore the pantry apart until i found the final jar we had - it was small, with baby dills inside. i polished it off myself in approximately 3 minutes.

we went shopping today and i bought some (i know) because i couldn't possibly wait until the weekend to get more. i didn't eat lunch before we went so i could (what else?) eat pickles for lunch! okay, maybe a grilled cheese sandwich too.

so, i don't know how, i don't know when, but my love returned to me.

this means that i'm either:

a) pregnant


b) the pickle fast is officially OVER!

**hint....its b.....

Tuesday, April 05, 2011


I have always loved music. The last few years I have hardly listened to any, however. I think living with roomates at school made me want to be respectful of their likes and dislikes, so I just didn't listen to any. It made me fall a little bit out of love with music. But lately I have found myself really enjoying fantastic songs that are either sung well, have great lyrics, or both. So here are some of the songs I can't seem to get enough of lately as I re-fall in love with music (in no particular order):

1. Oh Me, Oh My (Imogen Heap) - I love this song, especially the part in the middle where she sings, "Oh God, are you there? Are you there? Are you out there? Are you there if so where are you hiding? I'm having trouble finding you." I don't know how she means it in the song, but its such an emotional part of the song for me, and I love how she just belts it out.

2. Candlelight (Imogen Heap) - This is such a beautiful song. I love the piano. I actually dream of performing this song somewhere, playing the piano and belting it out. I actually think that if I found out I only had a few months to live, I would force Glenn to learn this, and we would sing it somewhere, in front of friends and family, maybe at the Bend Theatre. That would make me happy and would be something I would want to do before I died. Morbid, I know. Sorry.

3. Need You Now (Glee version!) - I really didn't like this song when it came out by Lady Antebellum. No offence to them. The lyrics are kinda dumb, oh I'm drunk, come to me! But for some reason hearing this version made me hear it in a new way. That, and I love Puck's voice - he is amazing! Sing more on Glee!!

4. That Should Be Me (J. Biebs & Rascal Flatts) - I really enjoy this, because I love RF, and yes, I like Justin too (he has a really great voice!). Well sung, enjoyable, and yeah, its so catchy I just keep listening to it!

5. Alone (Heart) - Probably the best song of all time. It will never, EVER lose its magic to me. She is so so so amazing! The best voice ever! During my apathetic music days, this song got me through. It bothers me that kids these days only know this song because of a crappy cover, especially when this one is so fabulous. Love you Heart, and love the exploding piano in the video!

EDIT: Ann's still got it! And Carrie is just unbelieveable! Oh my WORD. Check this out!

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

singing bird.

i can't stop watching this video, its hilarious! it makes me die laughing every time.

make sure you turn up the volume, because the quality is poor. terrell and i saw it on AFV and immediately looked it up online because we had to watch it again!

Enjoy this bird reciting a nursery rhyme! so funny!

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

10 reasons

10 reasons to smile after a crappy day:

1. new dresses.
2. bright colored tights.
3. blue eyed optimistic children.
4. sweet old ladies.
5. forehead kisses from my hubby.
6. cold, refreshing water to drink.
7. supportive colleagues.
8. a warm heater at my feet.
9. the promise of shoe shopping.
10. trust in my God...he is good.

Monday, January 24, 2011

virtue and moir

okay, i just want them to GET MARRIED! i just refuse to believe that they are dating other people. in my dream world they make me happy, like salle and pelletier and get married and have babies and love each other forever (although upon writing this i researched and found out they got a divorce. crap!). regardless, look at this chemistry! i absolutely think he is in love with her, from the way he looks at her to the way he cares for her. yes, they need to get married. thus sayeth the janna. can i get an amen?

Friday, January 21, 2011

praise you in this storm.

generally, casting crowns just change my life. even if i'm not going through a hard time, this song brings me to tears! so beautiful, and i love the words. its not always easy to praise God when we don't feel like it, but we must, because he never leaves us. the line that always gets me is, "You are who You are, no matter where I am." God is the same yesterday, today, forever - praise God for that! no matter how we stray he is always the same loving God.


Monday, January 10, 2011


so i have basically not been well since i got married.

constant colds (sore throat, stuffiness), perpetual but never completed flu-like symptoms (digestive issues, nausea, fever, seriously nauseous every time i eat, etc), and constantly, and i mean CONSTANTLY exhausted. and with that comes debilitating migraines that know me out for a few days usually.

i thought stress probably was a factor, being newly married and switching jobs only a few months into our marriage. but lately i have been more aware of how tired i am. like if we have a retreat on a weekend, or a busy weekend, i basically need to sleep for 3 days straight to begin to feel decent. i guarenteed get a cold and usually drag myself around for the next two weeks.

also, my body aches. i have been seeing a chiropractor for six+ months, and its been really great, but i find my body aches when i get into bed at night. my muscles are sore and certain joints will throb.

i have been thinking too lately that i need to get to an eye doctor because my eyes throb/feel strained alot so i guess my perscription must have changed.

and since getting married, i have been unable to multitask. terrell often gets irritated with me because he'll talk to me when i am cooking to watching tv and i can't listen to him while i am doing it, so i never hear what he's said.

anyways, all this said, and after sleeping in today for the third day in a row and feeling like it was impossible to wake up, i started to wonder if maybe i have chronic fatigue syndrome.

so i looked it up on wikipedia (where else!) and here if what i found.

You may have CFS if you have experienced:

1. A new onset (not lifelong) of unexplained, persistent fatigue unrelated to exertion and not substantially relieved by rest, that causes a significant reduction in previous activity levels.
2. Four or more of the following symptoms that last six months or longer:
  • Impaired memory or concentration
  • Post-exertional malaise, where physical or mental exertions bring on "extreme, prolonged exhaustion and sickness"
  • Unrefreshing sleep
  • Muscle pain
  • Pain in multiple joints
  • Headaches of a new kind or greater severity
  • Sore throat, frequent or recurring
  • Tender lymph nodes

Other common symptoms include:

  • Irritable bowel, abdominal pain, nausea, diarrhea or bloating
  • Chills and night sweats
  • Brain fog
  • Chest pain
  • Shortness of breath
  • Chronic cough
  • Visual disturbances (blurring, sensitivity to light, eye pain or dry eyes)
  • Allergies or sensitivities to foods, alcohol, odors, chemicals, medications or noise
  • Difficulty maintaining upright position (orthostatic instability, irregular heartbeat, dizziness, balance problems or fainting)
  • Psychological problems (depression, irritability, mood swings, anxiety, panic attacks)
so that sounds a lot like me. holy crap. and i think we have some in our family (like i think my uncle has it? not sure) so it wouldn't be unlikely. hmm. something to look into.

on another note, i keep dreaming about being somewhere warm and tropical, and lying in the sun. maybe i should start taking vitamin d. ha ha.

there's my health report for you as of now!