i heart autotunes.

this still makes my day. if i need to be happy, all i need to do is press play, dance, and sing along!

my top 5.

my experience yesterday with the funniest video i have ever seen has inspired to me to post my top 5 favorite youtube videos of the moment, and why i love them so much! dedicated to my dad, the biggest youtube fan i know. so lets get down to business!

Honorable Mention - Oh Don Piano!

This oldie of the talking cat is so hilarious that I cannot watch it without laughing. Poor thing is sick or scared, but he makes some hilarious sounds! WHY I EYES YA! Love it.

Ok but here we go:

#5 - When Elephants Retire.
This video makes me teary every time - its so sweet! When the elephant has her head against the gate and she's just sitting there looking sad...aww. What a nice video!

#4 - Single Ladies Devastation.
Terrell found this, and I think its so funny and adorable. I love the kids reaction and the way the dad ends the video is priceless!

#3 - Sam Tsui - Summer Pop Medley.
Sam Tsui singing a sick arrangement of every song that was popular this spring = AWESOME. He is so talented and really I could listen to him sing anything.

#2 - Boys Will Be Girls.

I think I should be offended, but its WAY too funny to be! Between the OMGs and the hun cal fro yos, I am too busy laughing to care! And the gust of wind thing always gets to me!

...and finally...the number 1 video is....

#1 - DOUBLE RAINBOW.
Okay, so Jess showed this to me last night...I have not laughed this hard in a long time. I actually had the same reactions as the guy in the video. I laughed, I cried, at one point I sobbed, "make it stop! Its too much!" right when he also declared it to be too much. Basically only watch this if you are in a giddy mood or else it won't be nearly as hilarious. But I can't even think about it without laughing my head off. And yes, apparently he was sober when this video was filmed!

Bonus! Double Rainbow Autotune song! Its so catchy! Its been in my head all day!!

I hope you enjoyed my video selection! Tell me yours!

no greater love have i ever known.

this song just gets me and makes me weep. terrell and i asked katie and glenn to sing it at our wedding and i am so glad they did. to me this song blows my mind because it describes my relationship with God and my relationship with terrell. i love the picture it paints of just being at rest in God's presence. it reminds me of those times that terrell and i are just together, enjoying each other's company, and knowing that God is a part of that too. i am always so astounded that God not only loves me, but considers me to be his friend, too. if i think of him as a friend, and not just as something i can't see, i find it so much easier to imagine trusting him, spending time with him, and confiding in him. i just love this song.

reception

this weekend terrell and i are flying out to ontario to see his family and friends, as well as have a second wedding reception! i get to wear my dress again, we get to hear some speeches again, and we get to each cake and most likely receive presents again (like we need anything else!).

it will be nice to re-live our wedding, even though we won't know as many of the people who are there (it will mostly be terrell's parents' friends and church people) it will still be great. and luckily for me, i will have some family there! kristin and tyler are stopping in on their drive home so they will be there to celebrate with us. and, perhaps the most surprising of all, MY MOM is coming!! she is flying out with us tomorrow morning and driving back with my siblings. crazy! i am really excited that it all worked out! my mom has never flown before so it could be interesting! but she is a brave lady so i am sure all will be well.

so that's where i'll be for the next few days. have a great canada day!!

thoughts.

i hate when its dark out ALL DAY. it makes me depressed.

money stresses me out.

my chiropractor makes me feel better.

i like sleeping on a real bed.

i like watching movies and tv.

i watched pearl harbor last night and didn't cry! its a first!

i miss my high school friends.

i love my husband.

i really like sour cream and onion ruffle chips. who knew?

grey's anatomy is my favorite show of all time. i love the characters like they are real, i love the medical drama, i love how the season finale makes me bawl like a baby EVERY YEAR.

i miss dancing.

i dislike when bad things happen to our car.

i am excited to see sarah soon!

my lips are dry.

i should blog more.

may 1st, 2010

woot!

I AM GETTING MARRIED IN 10 DAYS!!!

oh, be careful...

i thought today for the first time in a long time about the song we sang in sunday school as a child:

oh be careful little eyes what you see

oh be careful little eyes what you see

for the father up above is looking down in love

oh be careful little eyes what you see

oh be careful little lips what you say...

oh be careful little ears what you hear...

oh be careful little hands what you do...

oh be careful little feet where you go...

i thought of this song today because someone sent me an email that i wish i could remove from my memory.

it was prefaced as a "don't text and drive" email, and showed a series of photos of a smart car that was essentially inside a semi. the driver of the smart car was supposedly texting and crossed the centre line. it looked as though the semi had eaten the smart car - there was really nothing left of it.

there was a warning that the photos were graphic, but i thought the worst thing i would see would be some blood on the highway. i mean, the pictures of the car itself were graphic enough. and considering the person that sent it to me (an elderly person), i never thought it would be that bad.

well, it was that bad, and worse. the only way i can properly describe it is to say that i feel ruined. i was unprepared for close up shots of the smart car driver, who had been sliced in half from the accident, and (i assume), dead. you could see his face. one picture was of his face, and another was of his lower half.

i am sure even just describing that give you chills. well seeing it was worse. i almost vomited. i gagged over my garbage car at work, like i was there in person and had seen the results of the accident. after the initial shock wore off, i drove home and thought of the lyrics to that sunday school song. oh how i wish i had been careful enough to never see that! now the image is burned in my mind. i spent the day feeling as though i had gone through an ordeal. after bawling on terrell about it for half an hour, i had a long nap and the first thing i saw when i opened my eyes was that guy's face. i can't believe that is just out there on the internet. that is someone's SON and that is just being sent around all over the world as some kind of gore pornography. that makes me almost more sick than the image itself.

and so i am reflecting on the song, and though its simple and childish, it still rings true today. we put ourselves in places where we see, hear, do, and say things that we shouldn't. sometimes its not our fault, like today. and sometimes we let it slowly get to us, like listening to depressing music when we feel sad which only makes us feel worse. we must be careful, because not only is God always watching us, but because He wants to protect us from these things.

i wish He would have slapped His hands over my eyes today.

can i have this dance

i have a question for y'all.

what do you think about this song? listen to the piano part. its really pretty. what about the words? i think they are actually quite nice.

i am mildly toying with the idea of having this play as i walk down the aisle. i just really think it sounds happy and lovely. terrell wants me to walk in to the theme from 'the holiday,' as its one of our favorite movies, but ashley walked in to it and i don't want to steal that from her.

so let me know what you think. my only hesitation is because of what movie the song is from...if you don't know, please listen to it unbiasedly and offer your opinion before you look it up.

also, again, sam tsui is incredible!

reminisce

I was reading back over my blog because I was interviewed for CMU Sunday Radio this mornign about my Outtatown experience and I wanted to refresh my mind with some memories.

Looking back over my posts, I saw that I posted 100 times in 2006 (!). That is out of this world!

Not only was I posting often, but I usually had like 3-5 comments on each post. My friends and I were constantly commenting on each other's blogs.

It made me just miss those days when we all posted so frequently and had our own little network, and stayed in touch that way. :(

I wish I felt like posting more.

And I miss all y'all.

Just sayin'.

the consuming word

its that time of the month again - sermon writing time.

the thing that annoys me about writing a sermon is that it MATTERS.

unlike the papers i wrote in school - they didn't matter. they just needed to be written so i could fulfill the 25% or 40% of my final grade.

sometimes it felt like grammar mattered more than content, that how i said what i said mattered more that what i was actually saying.

not that i wrote bad papers while i was in university. they were well done, and i put a lot of effort into them. but only one person read it (the prof) and writing them didn't affect my life.

the main thing is that when i took a break from writing papers, it was a break. i never thought of it. i went to bed and didn't think of the subject, i watched movies and ate food and stopped thinking about prayer and superstition or thomas muntzer.

with sermons, i cannot stop thinking about it. i lie in bed worrying about it. i make supper and ponder the meaning of the text. i pour over books and the internet trying to find examples that are meaningful and personal. i drive to and from work wondering if i am living out what i am saying in the sermon, if my example are clear, how to put all my thoughts together. i am afraid that i will come across as insincere instead of genuine, if people will think i am a phony. i kill my back and and eyes staring at my computer for days on end and feel like crying when at the end of the day i have only written 300 words that i will actually use in my sermon.

what i say in my sermon MATTERS. i am supposed to be nurturing people. challenging people. they need to relate to it - it has to be inclusive. it has to sound good - not just be read, but spoken. i need to write it to fill a need. and what i say in my sermon will be analyzed and critiqued, not just for marks, but for who i am as a person or faith and what i believe.

i cannot walk away; i can't seem to take a break. it follows me. i look at people interacting with each other and search for a way to include what they are doing into my sermon. i read the text over and over. i read the passages around the text. i memorize the text.

writing a sermon is so difficult because i can never escape. i am continuously caught by the consuming word.

recess

its kinda funny how just one tiny thing can take you right back to the emotional state of being 10 years old.

a few days ago i was in terrell's apartment and as i was leaving, friend after friend of ours was coming into the apartment with food. they had decided to all make supper togeher and eat together, each person bringing different foods that were cooked together to create a dish.

i felt really awkward, because terrell was invited, and my roomate was participating, and i knew nothing about it. so i went back to my room to eat supper by myself in my apartment.

before i left terrell said i should stay if i wanted to, but i felt awkward because i didn't have any food to contribute to the meal. i also just felt awkward because frankly, i wasn't invited. even though terrell invited me in that moment (and his roomate sort of invited me to stay as i was leaving), i already felt shafted and didn't feel like staying. does anyone else get that? or am i alone here and you think i was being dumb for not staying?

(as an aside, i might have stayed after terrell's invite but i had a massive migraine and just needed quiet)

well i got back to my apartment and made a salad and was on the verge of tears the entire time. i thought at one point i might actually cry...and i felt ridiculous about it!! my friends didn't forget me to be mean, or to make some point...they just forgot, and in our busy lives i can't blame them. but i still felt like i was in grade 6 and my friends started playing a cool game at recess without me and then when i showed up they said i could be the maid while they were all princesses (hey, thats the way it was in the '90s).

i am not telling this story to make anyone feel bad, or to make you feel sorry for me, but rather to point out that a person can be quickly approaching 25 and still feel like a prepubescent.

people are weird.

Sam Tsui

IS MY HERO!!!

this is seriously SICK. terrell showed me this and his version of "don't stop believin'" by journey today and i nearly lost it. he is amazing!! he has an incredible voice, and yes, that is him 6 times singing each of the 6 parts. his producer is the one beatboxing on the left.

so check this out - the michael jackson medley. i nearly died!

sunshine!

...here comes the sun...do do do do....

cold weather is so much more bearable with sunshine! :)

my life is busy and hectic and that stresses me out sometimes.

when will i find time to get everything done??

but its also really good.

yesterday i was feeling inspired so i made a wedding binder!

it has all my receipts and important stuff like that in it. pretty sweet!

its blue and brown (like my wedding colors) and that makes me happy.

also, i am happy because i have been reconnecting more with old friends this year, like ashley and brynne. they have always been friends but i see them lots this year and its been just wonderful! it reminds me why we've been friends for so long. :)

i love coffee....mmm....

...and sunshine!

rainy day(s)

this weather = the PITS.


seriously...

i need sun. i can't go six days in a row with no sun

without feeling depressed.



this weather makes me feel like hiding.


....or disappearing

i want to curl up in my blankets and block out the world,
because all i can see out my window is grey BLECH and dull sky.

seriously...


where is the sun?

God With Us - MercyMe

(my fave song of the moment. i recommend listening to it, i get chills)

Who are we
That You would be mindful of us?
What do You see
That's worth looking our way?
We are free
In ways that we never should be
Sweet release
From the grip of these chains

Like hinges straining from the weight
My heart no longer can keep from singing

All that is within me cries
For You alone be glorified
Emmanuel
God with us
My heart sings a brand new song
The debt is paid these chains are gone
Emmanuel
God with us

Lord You know
Our hearts don't deserve Your glory
Still You show
A love we cannot afford

Like hinges straining from the weight
My heart no longer can keep from singing

All that is within me cries
For You alone be glorified
Emmanuel
God with us
My heart sings a brand new song
The debt is paid these chains are gone
Emmanuel
God with us

Such a tiny offering compared to Calvary
Nevertheless we lay it at Your feet

ENGAGED!!!!

so i guess its finally safe to put out there on my blog...

I'M ENGAGED!!!!!!!!!

WHOOOOOOOOOOOO!!

terrell proposed and now we are engaged and it is lovely and happy. :)

it happened on our 3.5 year anniversary, on september 23.

we set the date for may 1, 2o1o. so in a few months from now, i will be mrs. wiebe.

WOW.

but most of all, i get to marry my best friend, the person whom i never tire of or can stay mad at, who infinitely interests me in what he has to say, who makes me feel loved, valued and beautiful, who reveals to me each day the love that God has for me. and the person who makes me feel complete.

and now we will never be apart again!!!!

(hopefully)

time sucks.

sometimes i really hate time.

only because its the most reliably unrealibly reliable thing.

its reliable, because, well, its time. its set. it doesn't really change. 60 seconds per minute. 60 minutes per hour. 24 hours per day. and then it starts all over again.

so really, it should never be faster or slower. it should just be.

but in all actuality, it is rather inconsistant. because if it is supposed to be set...

how come when everyone i know is studying and i don't have to be time drags on forever? how come it seems to take millions of years for our 75 minute choir rehearsal to wrap up? why does it seem like hours for my tv show to load on my computer?

because time slows down sometimes?

then how is it that hours can pass when i feel like i just started a conversation with terrell? when i only have 20 minutes to finish an exam? why do i wake up exhausted every morning, feeling like the sun shot up into the sky quicker than it should have?

because time speeds up sometimes?

i really wish it wouldn't. i wish it would stop. not because i don't want to graduate, not because i don't want to write my exams. and not because i don't want to pack up my apartment.

(even though, in all honesty, i am really not looking forward to those last 2 things.)

i wish time would stop because every time i look at a calendar, i feel sick. every time i see how rapidly the end of april is approaching i want to cry. each night when i go to bed i cannot breathe. because each hour that passes is one hour closer to the hour that terrell drives away and doesn't come back for 4 months.

but of course, time will continue to speed along as usual. and then the summer will arrive and time will seem to stop, each minute equilavent to an hour.

i hate you time. you are really unfair.

unbeatable harmonies.

guaranteed to make me cry, every time.

blessed assurance - the isaacs

buddy holly.

today is the 50th anniversary of the day the music died.

whenever i think of buddy holly i wonder how much more he would have revolutionized the music industry if he wasn't on that plane that day.

he was only 22 and he had already done so much! too young to go, i think. it especially blows my mind now to think about because he was the same age as me.

enjoy this video of one of the greats. rip, buddy.