Wednesday, July 02, 2008

day one.

The 40 Day Challenge.

Write everyday for 40 days answering these 5 questions:

1. one song lyric stuck in my head today.

2. what I am grateful for.

3. one thing I really want.

4. what was one moment of pure happiness today.

5. write about one person in my life that I love.

-- I was inspired to do this by my beautiful friend Leanne. I hope that by doing this I will be reminded of the good things in my life every day, and to get a desire to start blogging again. --

1. Song lyric harassing my brain today:

Well I sold my soul to Jesus and since then I’ve had no fun. – Laura Marling, The Captain and the Hourglass (Alas I Cannot Swim)

(It’s horrible, I know. Its just to the catchiest melody ever. Her CD tells me she has had a very bad experience with religion on the whole. I keep trying to remove it from my head by substituting the word ‘more’ for ‘no.’)

2. What I am grateful for:

This most wonderful day off to do something nice for people who are nice to me. I loved having time to bake and do dishes for the Wiebes and felt productive and restful all at once. The sun today has been amazing too.

3. What I wanted today:

I really wanted Terrell to not work late and to hang out with him, just relax and talk and laugh. And we got to do that! Watching Family Feud (they uh…stuff themselves into clothes) and America’s Got Talent while eating mouth-burning chips, giving massages and laughing was an excellent way to spend the evening.

4. Pure happiness:

Sitting on a bench with Terrell on this gorgeous day eating a hamburger and dripping relish on all my extremities (thigh and bicep. What is that, honestly?). When he smiled at me and said, “I’m happy you’re here.”

When after eating the supper I made (and a cinnamon bun I made too), Bruce said, “That was delicious.”

5. Somebody I loooooove:

Is it weird that I really want to say God? I mean He is somebody I love. Today I was reading my prayer journal that I’ve had since Outtatown and write in sporadically. I was reading all the things I wrote last summer, how happy I was and how God just filled me with joy every single day when I really needed it. It was a real interesting read, because I was so darn HONEST every time I wrote, whether I was happy or mad or sad or frustrated, I was so honest with God. Because I think He’s the only one who I can be that honest with, and I LOVE that. There is so much freedom there, knowing I can say anything to God and He loves me the same. I mean I can be honest with Terrell (and I am), but there is something so amazing about pouring your heart out to a God who cares. God is so faithful to me. In the winter I prayed that I would go wherever He called me this summer and be happy there doing whatever I had to do because I knew that was where He wanted me to be. So that’s what I’m doing. And that’s why I love God – He really does grant all the desires of the heart.

Monday, June 09, 2008

the hand that holds the world.


No greater joy

Is there than this

To know for what

We're meant to live

To hold Your hand

To touch Your face

To find ourselves

In loves embrace

I want to stand before the King

Join in the song that heaven sings

I want to hold the hand that holds the world

I want to know the mystery

Reach out and touch the majesty

I want to hold the hand that holds the world

No greater love

Could be bestowed

That You would name us as your own

Your daughters sing

Your sons rejoice

They gather here before Your throne

You are, You are

The author of creation

We are, the children of your heart

You are, You are,

The light of all the heaven

We rise, to worship all You are

Sunday, June 01, 2008

la vie en leamington

well, here i am, approaching my third week in leamington, land of many tomatoes. in my time here i have seen many friendly faces, a heinz plant, a play, narnia, the town's biggest yard sale, approximately 14 episodes of jeopardy, 1.8 seasons of corner gas, and the bee movie. also, lots of sun, some lightening, beautiful flowers and an abundance of ice cream.
in other news, i have a job, a house, and a wonderful boyfriend who has wonderful parents who have taken such wonderful care of me and made me feel, well, wonderful.
sadly lacking in leamington are anyone under the names jody r. b., owen, m. b., kristin r. b. l., tyler l., jordan p. b., and one brynne k. h. if anyone has any idea of their whereabouts, please send them to leamington immediately.
also, if anyone has a cure to pre-first-day-of-work-nerves, please contact janna here.
over and out.

Thursday, May 08, 2008

Life Is a Musical!

this video just made my day! i would love to do something like this.

Friday, May 02, 2008

the feeling of summer.

"it feels like summer."
ever heard that?
i hear people say that all the time, if the sun is shining and the birds are chirping
it feels like summer.
i whole heartedly agree that summer is a feeling, not just a season.
but summer is not just sun tans, beaches, and ice cream.
summer is a feeling.
i'm not talking about warm cars, sandy feet, hot sun kind of feeling.
or lazy day, sleeping in, stress-free kind of feelings.
summer is a feeling deep in my stomach, an uneasiness.
a restlessness of my heart.
summer is an ache, a pain, an upset.
summer is a cold, hurting wave across my entire body.
summer feels like someone is constantly squeezing my heart, tighter and tighter
or like a grown man is sitting on my chest, restricting my breathing.
summer is a physical distress to my body.
i felt it instantly when i pulled into my driveway after dropping terrell off
today and it has gripped me since that moment.
i can't believe i forgot what it felt like.
it just feels like something very essential is missing.
it feels cold no matter how warm the sun is.
summer feels like something is constantly wrong, and that is simply because
you're not here.

Sunday, March 23, 2008

i look upon your hill

-seven places-
I look upon Your hill
Your broken body hanging still
Your blood drips down
Your face and brow
You brought me life through death
No greater love than this
Surely He's borne our grief
Carried our sorrow
Though we've gone astray
It's by His stripes and wounds
We were healed
On that glorious day
Oh Lord, You've worn the crown
I've placed upon
Your head
Oh Lord, I've pierced Your hands
Yet Your blood declares my innocence
he died for us - its too amazing to even fathom.
and then he rose.
and now he interecedes for us
and the right hand of God.
we are so blessed!

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

heath.

so heath ledger died today.
i know he's a celebrity and all but i am sad.
i cried when i found out.
i am still in shock.
he was so young!
with a baby.
and a future.
such a tragic, needless death.
he was such a big part of my teen years.
like what girl didn't have him on her wall?
or dream of him singing to her?
sadness.
i feel like a piece of my growing up has died.
and this makes me sad.
the worst part it that people are mad that i'm upset.
because thousands of people die everyday.
and this is blown out of proportion.
but he was a real person too.
someone's father.
someone's son.
someone's friend.
and that makes me sad.
i think i'll be in shock for a while...
rest soundly, heath.

Sunday, January 06, 2008

surely we can change.

And the problem is this
We were bought with a kiss
But the cheek still turned
Even when it wasn't hit
And I don't know
What to do with a love like that
And I don't know
How to be a love like that
When all the love in the world
Is right here among us
And hatred too
And so we must choose
What our hands will do
Where there is pain
Let there be grace
Where there is suffering
Bring serenity
For those afraid
Help them be brave
Where there is misery
Bring expectancy
And surely we can change
Surely we can change
Something
And the problem it seems
Is with you and me
Not the Love who came
To repair everything
Where there is pain
Let us bring grace
Where there is suffering
Bring serenity
For those afraid
Let us be brave
Where there is misery
Let us bring them relief
And surely we can change
Surely we can change
The whole world's about to change.
-david crowder band-

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

merry christmas.

In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. He was with God in the beginning.
Through him all things were made; without him nothing was made that has been made. In him was life, and that life was the light of men. The light shines in the darkness, but the darkness has not understood it.
There came a man who was sent from God; his name was John. He came as a witness to testify concerning that light, so that through him all men might believe. He himself was not the light; he came only as a witness to the light. The true light that gives light to every man was coming into the world.
He was in the world, and though the world was made through him, the world did not recognize him. He came to that which was his own, but his own did not receive him. Yet to all who received him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God- children born not of natural descent, nor of human decision or a husband's will, but born of God.
The Word became flesh and made his dwelling among us. We have seen his glory, the glory of the One and Only, who came from the Father, full of grace and truth.
John testifies concerning him. He cries out, saying, "This was he of whom I said, 'He who comes after me has surpassed me because he was before me.' " From the fullness of his grace we have all received one blessing after another. For the law was given through Moses; grace and truth came through Jesus Christ. No one has ever seen God, but God the One and Only, who is at the Father's side, has made him known.
1 John 1:1-18

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

glorious impossible.

its two weeks today until christmas! enjoy this amazing song by the GVB.

its the same version as our Christmas in South Africa DVD.

Monday, December 10, 2007

christmas gala

so a week ago today was the christmas gala at cmu - everyone dresses up beautifully and we basically eat food, take a ton of pictures and then dance our butts off in the blau. so fun. and i just like seeing all the guys in suits and all the girls who never wear makeup with their hair in ringlets and dresses. its a grand old time, and was 100x better this year without the boring program! here are some pictures of the festivities. :)


terrell and i at the table.

with josh reimer - so glad he's here to stay!

my ladies - i pray with them every wednesday!


i think i am dizzy from justin's vest.

at the dance afterwards, i love how many people we fit into this picture.

i love them all!

i am in love with this picture.

now i have 3 more exams (almost two) and 5 days until i fly to terrell's house. i am so excited! i am sad to miss stuff at home but i know how special it is that terrell and his parents want me there for a special day. i am excited! i just want it to be saturday. 5 more days...

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

ever with me.

Oh Lord, the Spirit of love abiding
The voice in the darkness guiding
Hear my prayer.
Be in my head and in my understanding.
Be in my eyes and in my looking.
Be in my mouth and in my speaking.
Be in my heart and always in my thinking.
Lead me Lord.
Lead me in Thy paths of peace.
Make You way plain before my eyes.
For it is only by your guidance
Only by You tender love that I may dwell in safety,
Dwell in safety.
God be in my head and in my understanding.
God be in my eyes and in my looking.
God be in my mouth and in my speaking.
God be in my life and in my breathing.
God be in my heart and in my loving.
God be in my thoughts and in my doing.
God be in my joy and in my laughing.
God be by my side, be my Protector.
God be at my end and with me ever
With me ever with me, ever.

-Gwyneth Walker

Thursday, November 22, 2007

it's snowing again.

i like holding hands through mittens.

Monday, November 12, 2007

the moment.

i don't want to go to bed.
sleeping will officially end this weekend.
i don't want it to end!
it was too great...
too short...
i am not ready to go back to real life.
i want to go back to brandon.
to the apartment.
to my family.
to snuggling with you on the couch
and watching hockey.
to waffle stix and chocolate fondue.
to laughing too much.
to burgers at midnight.
to the newsboys concert
watching you dance and sing your heart out.
to eating fuzzy peaches on the bus
and talking about christmas.
gah.
living in the moment is hard sometimes.
the library awaits me tomorrow.
deadlines await me tomorrow.
but forget tomorrow.
right now memories call me.
thankfulness in my heart calls me.
praying, then sleeping calls me.
good night.

Saturday, October 27, 2007

sorry everyone.

so i never post anymore.
life is just so busy!!
being an ra, a student, a room mate, a friend, a girlfriend, a daughter, a christian...
it takes up at lot of time.
sometimes i feel like i suck at them all.
sometimes i feel like i only suck at some of them.
but life goes on.
i go on.
we all gone on and press on through.
or we try to anyways.

maybe i shouldn't post when i'm so bogged down with work. lol.
back to the books...

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

too long!

ok, so its been way too long since i last posted, i apologise. life just gets crazy! so here is a one-sentence summary of the important things that happened.

1. i saw JOSH GROBAN live in concert!!! it was life-alteringly amazing, i bawled through most of it, GAH i love him.
2. i crashed a car - on the way to ashley's house for her birthday. henk and i lived, the car did not...oops.
3. henk came home! its been good to see him.
4. i led song actions for vbs with jodi on my lunchbreaks all of last week. it was so much fun; exhausting but rewarding.
5. al came to visit with her boyfriend on friday - sarah, rob and i joined them for supper and a movie and it was absolutely lovely to see them all.
6. i saw hairspray again in theatres. be still my heart.
7. i worked saturday and then had a party at my house which was so fun. i love camp fires.
8. sunday was jordan's 24th birthday party, my word my brother is old!
9. on monday at work it stunk like skunk and we found a dying baby one inside the building. john killed it with a shovel, and i cried (i would like to point out that he ended its suffering, it was in real bad shape).
10. yesterday was terrell's 20th birthday! so happy birthday to my guy. :)

and now ashley is here. today i pulled a bee out of my pocket and it was scary. and the mama skunk is in our building. oy! one week until i am in winnipeg, i am so excited but have so much to do! two more days of work and 7 more until i see terrell...sigh. life is happy.

Monday, August 06, 2007

what i know

1. i really don't like being called "jan" by people who don't know me well. friends, family, they can call me that - they know me. but people who i've just met only call me "jan" because they don't remember my actual name, and that bothers me!! this kid at work called me that and i was like, no.
2. drunk driving is never, ever cool. i don't care if you do it in the country, or give it a catchy name like "booze cruising", it doesn't make the possibility of death and injury cool. its completely idiotic and i really am frustrated by how popular it is in our area. oy.
3. you don't need to go overseas to be a missionary. at work this kid asked me if i was into church. i said, "well i don't know if i'm into church, but i'm into god." he made a comment about being religious and "into all your gods" and i said, "oh no, not 'gods', i believe that there is only one god." and he gathered from that that i was 'less religious' or less of a christian because i only believed in one god, as if by believing in more gave me more faith. so it just goes to show that even in our own communities some people have absolutely no idea about christian spirituality, or even about god, and that there is always a window of opportunity to step in there.
4. my aunt's boyfriend is awesome, a total keeper and the whole family loves him. excellent!
5. its much more fun to meet distant relatives now than it was when i was little because now i'm an adult and actually have things to talk about with them. its even better when they actually feel like they're your family and you feel like a part of theirs.

Thursday, August 02, 2007

i love you.

cutest, best commercial of my life!

Monday, July 30, 2007

good morning baltimore

well guys, its almost august! can you believe it?
this summer is ridic.
well i am pooped after two fun weekends in a row. last weekend i went to the peg with nash and leanne and it was SO much fun! got home at 2 am on sunday and i definitely worked at 8:30 the next day. good stuff.
this past weekend i helped with some home renovation and painting and then went to brandon with ash to see hairspray with brynne. best movie ever!! it was so much funnier than i expected, and seriously such an empowering film. it covers issues like being different and embracing it, accepting people that are different (whether its race or size or whatever), standing up for whats right, and really chasing after your dreams. so many times in the movie i was applauding just because i was so pumped up and so happy! and the music was great too. basically i want to see it again - right now. and then supper and cheesecake with dan man. and a wedding registry. ha ha! after a failed attempt at mini golf, we went glo bowling where we danced to hollaback girl and listen to your heart. so fun! once again got home too late and then i sang at church. then there was a shower and then off to salt lake with ash, curtis, and michael. it truly was the only was to cool off and dingys made it even more fun! i laughed too much and ate too much brownie and played way too much bubble bobble (original nintendo baby). curtis and i even wrote a song to the irritating music. we managed to tag team it and defeat all 100 levels and the final boss. yup, we're awesome (and by us i mean curtis and michael, because ash and i weren't much help i don't think). but it was so much fun to hang out and laugh too much. GEEEB!
its too hot. officially. i am constantly dizzy at work and its very smelly there.
i feel like i could say more about life and hairspray etc but i think it calls for a seperate post. so until then, my lovelies!
ps i see terrell in less than a month - boo ya kashaw!

Thursday, July 19, 2007

10 excalmations

1. i am feeling better!
2. today i rode in the parade on the town's float!
3. i ate too much candy!
4. i am excited about home renovations!
5. it was really hot all day!
6. i love sytycd!
7. wednesday nights with ashley are the best!
8. canadian idol sucks!
9. i am pretty tired right now!
10. traveler is the craziest show EVER!

terrell should like this post - no one loves exclamation points quite like him.

Sunday, July 15, 2007

Paging Dr. House

so i've been feeling crappy since wednesday, and after an unsuccessful trip to the doctor here i am on sunday, missing church and feeling like a poop sandwhich. i wish i could report better but i woke up on saturday feeling worse than ever - which is unfortch bc i was really feeling quite a bit better friday evening. now my throat is seriously KILLING me, it feels like my left eardrum is about to explode, and swallowing is basically impossible. so dad took me to the hospital where they took blood and tested me for mono. the results came back negative, but my over swollen glands (you can see them bulging on either side in my neck, two rock hard ping pong ball sized lumps that hurt like a you-know-what), inability to talk, and high fever concerned him, as did my "concerning overly high" white blood cell count (which means that my body is producing more trying to fight off some kind of infection), so he put me on some meds of some sort, i have to take three ginormous horse pills a day. yesterday all i did was take two two hour naps, and sat up for an hour inbetween. last night i forced down food bc i haven't eaten properly since wednesday because swallowing is too painful. i feel like i have definitely od-ed on advil and tylenol trying to kill the renlentless fever, and cough candies make me nauceous/do absolutely nothing. so please, pray for me, because if i don't get better i will definitely be missing a lot more work and really the pain right now is inbearable. i think my infection is moving: before it was the right side of my throat and ear, than the left, and now my left ear is like super death! i really dont understand what is wrong with my body. even if my throat problem goes away i could at least function. so yes, prayer would be nice. thanks.

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

thoughts.

lately i have been tired.
tired but happy.
which is good.
i like being happy.
i have also been busy.
which is great.
have i mentioned that i love my job?
and how good god is to me?
i feel like these past few weeks he's been more than god to me.
he's been my friend.
and i love that!
i've been keeping a prayer journal and its going great.
i like looking back to see how he's answered prayers.
yup god's good.
and now terrell's on the phone so i gotta go.

Monday, July 02, 2007

time with terrell

so its officially been a week since i left terrell's, so its about time i tell about it!
well, firstly i got to brynne's and we had a fun adventure of shoppers drug mart, construction sights, hair straightening and so you think you can dance. after very little sleep, we headed off to the airport where i checked in and boarded soon after. i flew next to a kind of creepy man to toronto, and from there to (on the smallest plane EVER) london! terrell was waiting when i got there, and i shook through our entire reunion - i'll blame it on excitement and ridic turbulence!
so we drove back to his place and unpacked my stuff. i think we hung out with his dad and chilled and then went to pick his mom up at work, because we were going to detroit for a david crowder concert!!
i know, can you believe it? it was pretty amazing - he sounds AWESOME live!! we were so close too! i think nonie was more excited than either of us, ha ha! although he sang my favorite songs so i was thrilled. it was a great time of worship and so much fun, a dream fulfilled!
the next day we chilled and watched 'myth busters', which had this guy with some amazing facial expressions that made us nearly die laughing. we ate lunch (well they ate, i was nauseous most of the weekend), played pool and frisbee outside and picked nonie up at work again and drove once again to the united states. my passport got a workout! we ate at TGIFriday's and continued on to our destination - gotta love super 8s! first we shopped and terrell bought him and myself the two heaviest books in the store, then we hung at the hotel and watched 'the pacifier' on tv. i got my own room at the hotel, it was so sweet!!
the next day we drove to frankenmuth, mich, and went to the world's largest christmas store. it. was. so. HUGE! and fantastic! you really need to see it to believe it! its 5 acres of tacky christmas amazingness! we took a lot of pictures.
after lunch at a sweet restaurant in town we checked out some shops and then drove back over the canadian border to this sweet beach town, where i think we were the only 4 people wearing shirts. or pants for that matter! that aside, terrell and i took a stroll down the beach. we had a light supper and then went to huron country playhouse to see 'cats', which actually rocked my world! the sets were fantastic, as was the makeup, costumes, singing and dancing! the plot was stupid and made no sense, but the show was brilliant, i loved it! we got home after midnight and hit the sac immediately.
sunday was the best day ever. slept in, showered, ate a delishious brunch, hung out with terrell, played dominos with him and his mom, lost horribly, went to grad where terrell wons lots of money! came home, looked at our scrapbook, ate supper, went to ryan's house where he, ben, darren, kelly and us played frisbee and roasted marshmellows. it was so much fun! it was great to hang out with his friends, and spend time with sandra and kelly. that whole night was perfect too - it was great just talking, laughing, tickling, and eating fruit loops! and i gave terrell a great new nickname! ha ha.
it really was the perfect trip. i wouldn't change a thing about it - well maybe it'd be longer...oh and my flight wouldn't be delayed and hour and a half. but it really was perfect. i got to spend so much time with him and his parents, and saw some great things and had a lot of fun. its hard to come home knowing it will be so long until i see him again, but i know time will go by fast, and that god will give me joy when i need it. and i now remember just how good it is to see him after a break from each other, so i anticipate august 29 so much more!

me and my sherrell terriff!

Thursday, June 28, 2007

beautiful

i am now even more convinced that wade robson is a genius. he choreographed this beautiful dance between jaimie and hok on so you think you can dance. its a love story between a flower and a humingbird, hok as the bird and jaimie the flower. at first she grows, and they are wary of eachother at first but soon....well just watch it. its maybe the most beautiful thing i've ever seen. and this is why i love dance - expression without words. amazing.

EDIT: i need to post about terrell's and i will...soon.

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

tomorrow, tomorrow...

...you're only a day away.

no words.

tomorrow i am going to winnipeg after work.

and spending the night with brynne.

then, bright and early, leamington, (and more importantly) terrell-ho!

ha ha it sounds like i'm calling him a ho. that makes me laugh.

he's no ho.

so i am packed, anxious, and so excited i feel nauceous.

like i could seriously yak. i don't know if its terrell or illness...

Saturday, June 16, 2007

i'm cool like that.

today is going to be fun! going to brandon with brynne. gonna get my hair cut, eat some seafood, and buy nothing because i'm poor! ha ha!
well maybe i'll buy something...
so i will be at terrell's house in 5 days, that makes me so happy its retarded! cause i get to see him! and take a break from work! and see a DAVID CROWDER concert!!
thats right, be jealous!!
work is good, i am officially off of the probation period which is nice. so now they have to keep me all summer, suckers. started at the dump this week, just for the afternoon. my boss, johnny (who i just adore) went in and made them clean up, put up a mirror, and took dirty pictures off the wall, telling me that this was "no place for a lady." it was so cute, they guys said he's never kicked up such a fuss over a summer student so he must really like me. that made me feel special! i am going to bake him cookies sometime, he's great.
the dump is gross. please, for the love of all things holy, rinse out your recyclables!! it makes my job of sorting them so much more pleasant. nothing is grosser than sorting out a bag where everything is covered in pasta sauce and the milk jugs still have milk in them. *shudder* and seriously it takes like 5 seconds to rinse stuff like that out. honestly. so do it for your friendly neighborhood recyclables sorter. they will appreciate it.

Saturday, June 09, 2007

excited!

sorry i've been so lazy lately, not even posting about my first week of work. i was just too pooped! mowing lawns for 7 hours a day in freezing windy weather has been exhausting. but i really enjoy it, more than my job last summer, even though i am working ten times as hard and making minimum wage instead of making $10 an hour to talk to brynne on the phone and read people magazines. its physically strenuous but i find it really enjoyable beautifying the town. no tan so far - its been SO COLD all week that i wear a tank top, t-shirt, long sleeve fleece, my coveralls (yup i wear coveralls), another fleece and then my windcoat, plus a touque and work gloves...its cold stuff! it makes peeing a process. hopefully it stays warm like it has today, my ears can't take that freezing wind much longer. i eat lunch at my baba's every day which is sweet, she feeds me too much. and then i come home, shower and veg all evening. i really wish i had energy to work out still, but i just can't. maybe next week i'll be less tired by my 8:30 start to the day. anyhoo i leave for terrell's in 12 days, i am FLIPPING EXCITED. goodness! so excited i could just...yeah i am pumped. by then it will have been 2 months since i last saw him. he's well worth the wait. so thats exciting!!
tonight is my mom's birthday party, so i'm psyched for lots of people and food. and this nice weather! oh and ps my sister graduated from u of m thursday with a degree in social work, and today she bought a wedding dress. and SYTYCD! bascially life is exciting.

Friday, June 08, 2007

Un-Free Paris

Ok so apparently a judge ordered that Paris be sent back to jail this morning. Its all quite dramatic:

Paris Hilton was sent screaming and crying back to jail Friday after a judge ruled that she must serve out her sentence behind bars rather than in the comfort of her Hollywood Hills home. "It's not right!" shouted Hilton, who violated her probation in a reckless driving case. "Mom!" she cried out to her mother. Hours earlier, the 26-year-old hotel heiress was taken handcuffed from her home in a black-and-white police car, paparazzi sprinting in pursuit and helicopters broadcasting live from above. She entered the courtroom disheveled and weeping, hair askew, without makeup, wearing a fuzzy gray sweat shirt over slacks.
Before Judge Sauer, Hilton's entire body trembled as the final pitch was made for her further incarceration. She clutched a ball of tissue and tears ran down her face. Seconds later, the judge announced his decision: "The defendant is remanded to county jail to serve the remainder of her 45-day sentence. This order is forthwith."
Hilton screamed. Eight deputies immediately ordered all spectators out of the courtroom. Hilton's mother, Kathy, threw her arms around her husband, Rick, and sobbed uncontrollably. Deputies escorted Hilton out of the room, holding each of her arms as she looked back.

The dramatics are so unnecessary! Oh my word. Good for the judge though, I would be ticked if a sherriff who has the hots for Paris overruled my authority!

Thursday, June 07, 2007

Free Paris

ok so paris hilton went to jail for 5 days and cried so much they sent her home. is that pathetic or what? i guess her dad owns half the city so they have to listen to him...i found this on msn.com and it looks really long but i think its worth the read. it pretty much discribes how i feel about it too!

By Michael Ventre, MSNBC contributor
If Johnny The Fence, doing a stretch of two to five years, wants to get out of the stir, all he has to do is claim that his back hurts and he can no longer endure the strain of prison life. If Dave the Meth Dealer, scheduled to be incarcerated for the next five years, doesn’t like spending his days behind bars, he can just call for the doctor and say he’s having migraines and needs to be home in his own bed. Worse, if Lance the TV Star gets a couple of DUIs and can’t quite cope without his hot tub and his Porsche, all he has to do is hire a high-powered attorney who specializes in helping the rich and famous avoid responsibility.
Which brings us to Paris Hilton, up until Thursday the most famous prison inmate in the country. But authorities have decided that, after “extensive consultation with Los Angeles County medical personnel,” she is finished with her sentence after just five days, and will now serve the rest of her time at home, wearing an ankle bracelet.
No word yet on whether Paris will be free to roam wherever she wants until a custom-made, diamond-studded ankle bracelet is delivered by Tiffany’s, but you know that’s coming.I’m no legal expert, but I know enough as a private citizen to understand the importance of precedent. And this sets a horrible precedent.
Paris Hilton had already been coddled beyond belief. She had been sentenced to 45 days in prison for violating the terms of her probation on an alcohol-related reckless driving case. She didn’t get it. She reasoned that just because the law requires a person to spend time in jail if they don’t comply with the terms of her probation doesn’t mean she can’t drive around without a suspended license.
Then when she appeared before a judge, she claimed she didn’t know, that she was told by her publicist, Elliot Mintz, that it was all right to drive around under those circumstances. Then she fired her publicist before hiring him right back. Then she whined about how unfair it all was. Her quote: “I feel I was treated unfairly and that the sentence is both cruel and unwarranted. I don’t deserve this.” She neglected to mention how cruel it would have been had she killed somebody while driving under the influence (word!).
Her mother, Kathy Hilton, otherwise known as “The Enabler,” called her original 45-day sentence “pathetic and disgusting, a waste of taxpayers’ money” and “It is a joke.”Then some of her friends suggested going to Gov. Arnold Schwarzenegger to seek a pardon. One of them even wrote Arnold a letter, claiming Hilton should go free because “she provides beauty and excitement to most of our mundane lives.” I don’t know if it’s possible for a governor to veto a letter, but Arnold should have looked into it in this case.
That fan letter also claimed this: “She provides hope for young people all over the U.S. and the world.” I’m sure she does now that she managed to weasel out of a 45-day jail sentence after just five days. I’m sure there are guys on death row who think anything’s possible now.
Paris Hilton was originally scheduled to serve 45 days in prison. Almost immediately, it was cut down to 23 days because of a good-behavior discount credited in advance. And now, after five days and several reports from bloggers and gossip sites that she cried a few times and didn’t like the accommodations, she was allowed to go home. I know it sounds incredibly naïve, but what kind of a message does this send?
What about Tom Sizemore? The actor was just taken into custody on Wednesday for violating terms of his probation on a drug possession charge. If I were advising him, I would tell him that, instead of continuing to be 45, male and fairly nondescript, he should instead become 26, female and beautiful. Oh, and cry a lot. That would help. Law enforcement officials interpret that as a sign that you want to get out early.
For that matter, what about any celebrity now who gets pulled over for anything? Jail isn’t really a serious deterrent anymore, because if a celebrity is arrested, he or she will simply ask for “that Paris deal,” and he or she will probably get it, because a precedent has been set.
Paris Hilton already had her sentence reduced once, to just over three weeks. She didn’t have to endure the humiliation of a cavity search, which is standard. She was whisked through the intake process rather than have to stand and wait like all the other inmates. On top of all that, she wasn’t even exposed to the general prison population, but rather was kept secluded, in her own cell. So if Paris Hilton had medical issues, why wasn’t she brought to the infirmary? Better yet, if celebrity worshippers wanted her to continue to get special treatment, why didn’t they allow her own doctors to treat her? What medical issues could she have had that couldn’t be accommodated while she was behind bars?
What really appears to have happened is she was stricken with that most heinous of maladies: not getting her way. So, in their infinite wisdom, law enforcement officials gave her what she wanted.Granted, she didn’t get everything she wanted. She won’t be able to go clubbing for another couple of weeks or so, which in the celebrity realm is like being pilloried in the town square. She won’t be able to “provide beauty and excitement to most of our mundane lives” from home confinement, although that could change if somebody slips in a video camera. And, most important, she won’t be able to drive. After all, we wouldn’t want her to get in trouble and go to jail again.

Thursday, May 31, 2007

God is Good

i just got a job! yesterday, an hour after my interview. its 10 mins from my house, working at a dump/recycling centre. sounds fun eh? but its work, and its regular hours, monday - friday, and thats what i'm all about. the cool part is that there were two positions available, one for mowing and painting, and the other for the dump, and they offered this one but also working the other position for the next three weeks starting monday (!!) and then taking my other job in july. its a grant job, and the grant is only for 10 weeks of work, but they are offering me 3 extra weeks just because (God is awesome!). too good! and i discussed time off with them and they were cool about it, so i am taking three days off and going to see terrell! i booked my flights this afternoon. i leave in like 22 days. seriously, everything has just fallen into place so quickly, i am so excited and so happy. i am nervous about my new job, but excited to start working so quickly. basically, i love life!!!

Sunday, May 27, 2007

its all messed up but we're alive

so life is a crazy whirling thing.

but god is constant and that is good.

had a job interview on saturday and got a job at timmy ho's in brandon.

have another interview on tuesday for a job at home.

things could change a lot in the next 48 hours.

i might need to move. i might settle in.

went to eldin roth's funeral on saturday. it was very sad.

he was my dad's age. it made me grateful for all i have.

his wife...well it broke my heart. she will be hurting for awhile.

rode my bike to church today. in a skirt.

i love being at home just me and the rents. its fun.

i also love talking to terrell. even about nothing at all.

but i think i just love him in general. yeah thats most likely it.

christopher lee is 85 today. happy birthday saruman/count dooku.

Sunday, May 20, 2007

Intense!

This is seriously amazing! Its the Gaither Vocal Band kickin it old school, Mark Lowry singing lead. Maybe the whole song isn't super interesting, but wait until you get to 3:32. My head almost exploded. That is some ridiculous, intense, arm wavingly moving harmony from three talented tenors. David Phelps, Michael English and Guy Penrod. Yikes!

Friday, May 18, 2007

what the...?

ok so i was just talking to brad at the play and he told me that HENK is coming home tomorrow! tomorrow!! why did i not know this? apparently he'll be here for nine days, which is ridiculously exceptionally exciting. i am pumped. but he's such a bum for not telling me. when i see him i will tell him he's a poo head, and thats a promise!
and i came home from the play just now and my parents have officially disappeared. i have no idea where they are, they left before me. i almost stayed for the after party because i was invited but i didn't feel like raining on their parade. hmm...

Thursday, May 17, 2007

Pie Day

Today I spent the afternoon at Bakes' house and we made pie!! It was so fun. I ate too much crap and feel a little ill though, and like I can't put off working out much longer. A routine must begin!
If you'd like to see today's events click here. That should work.
Still no update on jobs. I feel a little better about it today. Yesterday I felt like a loser, it was not a good day. It was good to have fun today though!
Think I'm gonna go for a walk now.
EDIT: What a horrible night for television!! Renee kicked off America's Next Top Model by the hideous wisping ghoul-witch that is Tyra Banks (seriously, you should've seen her! whoever told her that long, flat, gray hair extensions were a good idea should be slapped!) even after they told her that her video & pic were the best. What is the point of the challenges then? They obvisouly mean nothing. Plus they called her "puffy" and "wrinkley", which was so unnecessary. That left big lipped small brained Natalie in the final two, boo!! At least she didn't win, but still! And then Melinda gets kicked off American Idol. What is wrong with people?! Its nights like this that I feel like not watching television ever again. Except CSI: New York was great tonight. Wow.

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

the end.

so tonight was the gilmore girls series finale - i really enjoyed it. it ended so happy and wonderfully, and wasn't super clichéd or anything. kinda reminded me of the everybody loves raymond finale in the sense that the show could've continued next season if it wanted to but was fine that it didn't.
i have had a headache for a week straight now - its getting really old! there are only so many drugs one can take!
i cannot wait until the provincial election is done! enough stupid commercials! since when did campaigning = insulting other candidates without any self promotion? its so childish, seeing all these old men make stupid commercials soley to insult one another. pathetic. call me old fashioned but that is so unsportsman-like. boo.
slowly everyone around me is becoming employed. is it my turn soon? i hope so.
my head is going to explode. have a great evening everyone.
EDIT: Alister McGrath is on The Hour right now discussing his new book, The Dawkins Delusion, and his body language is identical to Henk. It makes me happy and sad.

Saturday, May 12, 2007

My Interesting Life

I've been home for three weeks now, I think. Yeah that sounds about right. So, an update from my post two weeks ago.

Nothing much to report on:
Still no job.
Still not much to do.
Still missing Terrell.
I still officially hate flossing.
I still miss eating ice cream.
I still wish Brynne was working at home this summer.
Went to Brandon yesterday.
Its cold in my house.
I am alone for the day.

EDIT: Here are some pics of my hair post-pink dye. My streaks are carmel-y and pretty.

Thursday, May 10, 2007

Pink Haired Daddy

ok so last night i highlighted my hair (well kristin did it for me) and the dye was idiot proof, aka neon pink so you could tell what part of your hair you had streaked. so i was using pink bleach on my head, and my dad came in curiously. my dad has always had a weakness for blonde hair dye, and before you know it i'm piling neon pink goo on his head. next came the funniest photo shoot ever, and then the rinse - not only was his hair platinum blonde, but his scalp was still pink from the dye!! he looked a little like strawberry short cake. ha ha. it was pretty much amazing. here are some pictures for your enjoyment.

the side burns kill me.

eyes so blue and hair so...pink.

this is going on the anniversary cake.

Wednesday, May 09, 2007

cool song

here's a cool version of bon jovi song sung on american idol last week by blake lewis. i thought it was pretty sweet. apparently he could go tonight as every review i read said he was pretty bad last night. either way i thought this was a pretty sweet rendition of a popular song. enjoy!

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

pour your love down

We're worlds apart
The distance between us is just too great
Draw me close
Let me know You're near
The reason we sing is to bring down Your glory
Show us Your face
Pour Your love down
And cover me
Pour Your love down
And cover me
At Your feet I bow down and know that You are my King
The weight of life gets s w e p t away
The reason we sing is to bring down Your glory
Show us Your face
Show us Your face
Pour Your love down
And cover me
Pour Your love down
And cover me

In this moment I feel so alive
When You pour Your love down
Pour Your love down
And cover me
Pour Your love down
And cover me

Pour Your love down and cover me
Cover me with Your love
Pour Your love down and cover me

Friday, April 27, 2007

So I Switched...

So I switched to Google Blogger, although I fought long and hard against it, it was refusing to let me sign in until I did. It even said my password was wrong! Lame!

Nothing much to report on:
No job.
Not much to do.
Missing Terrell.
I officially hate flossing.
I miss eating ice cream.
I wish Brynne was working at home this summer.
Going to Brandon tomorrow.
I feel fat AND sassy!! ha ha. just jokes.

Yeah okay this was hardly worth switching for, what a terrible post. Have a good one.

Friday, March 16, 2007

a little confession

so...i like jojo.
yup, i said it!

she is so pretty and mature for her age (she just turned 16!) and has a good voice too for such a youngin'! i like her songs, they are usually cute and age appropriate. so yeah, i watched this music video of hers and thought i'd post it on here for all of you who secretly enjoy jojo as well.


I definitly learned a few things from this video:
1. "Its what you do, not what you say." Flirting with another girl when you are dating is not cool. JoJ0 says it like it is, telling her man he's 'disrespectful'. Man is she mature or what?
2. Don't accept large stuffed animals from your boyfriend because it looks awkward to throw out when you break up.
3. This is for all the men out there - don't treat your woman like poo, or else you will fail at everything in life, even the things you were once good at!
--terrell and i went to the ballet on tuesday. check this out.--

Monday, March 05, 2007

plans

let me just say this first - i HATE blogger!!! man it is one annoying operation! i DO NOT want to switch to google blogger, but the old blogger won't even let me sign in. i fought for 20 minutes to write this - NOT WORTH IT! man!
anyhoo, my life has revolved around plans lately.
homework and schedule plans.
ukranian christmas plans.
mom and dad visiting plans.
one year anniversary plans.
and summer plans.
summer.
the dreaded time of year.
usually.
it means no friends, no terrell, crappy job.
loneliness.
BUT! i have been making some plans.
and i am praying that they work out!
like for summer jobs - i hope to work at MYJC again.
i think i can do a better job this year, and they pay good, good hours.
AND! brynne is applying to be rec assistant!
so we would work together in the same office! and she would be home!
and i would have a friend!
man that would be amazing, and she'd be good at the job.
so i am so praying for that to work out!!
also, plans to go to terrell's this summer, and see scott on the way!
and see wicked in chicago! and spend like a week at terrell's!
its almost too perfect, and too much to handle.
so i am praying for that too.
i feel a peace about that stuff now.
i think that this is god telling me to trust him with stuff...
well i am hoping so anyways.
if brynne and i get those jobs this will be the best summer ever.
i hope my plans and god's plan are somewhat the same.

Sunday, March 04, 2007

come and listen

i revisited david crowder band's 'a collision' album today.
so good.
i forgot how much i loved it.
i need to get to blessings and spend some of my birthday money.
whoo!
i don't know what i'll get.
maybe 'b collision', that would be sweet.
or a book?
i feel like i am so out of the christian loop.
i miss the good old days of audio a and dc talk.
they were always my first pick.
well them or skillet or earthsuit.
now its like....?
i don't even know who's out there!
i need to get out more i guess.
i think when i go to blessings i'll take terrell.
he knows his stuff.
now to find the time to go...

OOH! i forgot to mention that last week terrell and i played in a cpac mixed doubles tournament. it was pretty crazy - lots of teams from other schools and cmu's president gerald gerbrandt even made an appearance! anyhoo we did good - we got third out of ten teams. everyone said it would either make or break our relationship and i must say, after almost a year we're still going strong. :)

Saturday, March 03, 2007

I Only Need One!

Is there any way to work off a double chin?
I lose weight and yet it remains.
I hate it!
by the way sorry for the lack of posting; blogger has been ticking me off lately and i have been swamped at school - a really bad cold, assignments due everyday (including a 3500 word essay!), RA applications, and outtatown friends visiting. its been crazy! i hope this month will be less crazy.

Sunday, February 18, 2007

Choir Tour Funking

So I'm back from tour.
It was amazing.
I wish I could explain all the details but I don't think I can.
It was GREAT to be in a smaller community again, especially while travelling.
It reminded me of Outtatown in some ways.
It was wonderful even though everyone got the flu.
It just made everyone lift each other up.
I especially loved our devotional times together, they were very special.
I almost cried singing "The Lord Bless and Keep You" today.
Our conductor did.
Agh I am so NOT happy to be back in the real world.
The caf seemed too crowded, res seems too big.
There is more to do then sleep and sing.
Poo.
I feel emotional and weird.
I think I'll watch a movie and have a good cry, then go to bed.
I wish I could hang out with Terrell, but he's working hard on an essay.
He inspires me with his dedication to school.
I love that guy!
Ok, I am off.
Have a good one.

Monday, February 12, 2007

So I Turned 20 Today

So, its my birthday today...and I'm actually feeling a little sad.
I don't know if I like birthdays or not...I feel like I am getting to be a bit like my dad - as in I really make big deals out them/want to anyways. So we aren't really doing anything that I know of. Everyone was asking me what we're doing tonight and I was like, why do I need to plan it? Its my birthday, and it should be planned for me! Ha ha, seriously though, like I'd like to do stuff but I don't necessarily want to make people do things for me...
Gah I am feeling old and a little unspecial today, even with the phone calls and e-mails. I miss my family too like no one's business, shed a few tears about it just now. Plus Terrell's really busy so its not like I get to hang out with him all day, and Bakes went home. I feel lame, and selfish, and like I want to do something fun but I don't know what.
On the plus side I am not puking my guts out like I did last year.
Leaving for choir tour tomorrow...

Monday, February 05, 2007

Crazy Busy!

Sorry its been so long. February is officially hell month. I am going to be busy for a LONG time.

On a happy note, I spent Friday night at Allison Enns' house. It was excellent. I had a wonderful date with Terrell on Saturday and I went out for supper with him and his grandparents on Sunday. It was really nice! Then I hung out with Brynne and Scott and that was good as well. Happy Love Spooning Party! Whoo!

To top it all off I recieved some really exciting news on Wednesday and today I had a great chat with Tim Remple about being an RA in the block next year. I am going to apply and I feel as though he likes me and that will help me out a bit. :)

Supper soon! I hope its good! It smelled like perogies...I know it isn't...

Tonight I have a meeting and then WORK WORK WORK my little behind off.

Stupid 8-page long computer applications assignment!

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

Billy Talent!

Billy Talent was AWESOME last night! Seriously, they were great! They had an awesome sound live, which was excellent. I still can't hear or speak.
Here are our thoughts after the show. Sorry about the F-Bomb! Totally Catcher in the Rye all over again. If you don't understand that, its okay.:)


I'll post more later. Gotta go to class!

Monday, January 29, 2007

The Big 5-2!

I would just like to say a massive and love-filled
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
to my wonderful daddy...

...the best daddy in the world!
I love you and I wish I could be there with you today!
Have a great day!

Doesn't he look sweet...sleeping and looking like Yoda? Ha ha!

Saturday, January 27, 2007

lazy dayzy

another saturday at cmu...this has been the first one since i've gotten back that hasn't been insane.
of course that means that the 48 hours after that will be!
tomorrow i have choir, and then i get to watch curling (!!!) in a box (!!!) the final game of the canadian open (!!!). I might get to see david nedohin (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) depending on how well they play today - do it team ferbey!!
later that evening is ballroom dance and time with kirsten, and then monday is classes and then supper and BILLY TALENT!!
i have been looking forward to this since october, no lies. so i am pumped!
today has been LL - lazy and lonely. i showered, shaved my legs, vacuumed my room, and watched zoolander by myself.
yup, i'm cool.
i don't know where anyone is to chill with...terrell is watching curling all day and scott left for the evening, and brynne is busy.
so i guess i'll eat popcorn and read anabaptist beginnings.
mmm...salt and martin luther.
EDIT: I AM SEEING TEAM FERBEY TOMORROW! I could die of complete joy, a life dream coming true!! Oh my word, I am SO EXCITED!!

Friday, January 26, 2007

Friends and Team Ferbey!

So my computer has finally decided to let me post from it, so I thought I'd better cease the opportunity!!
Last night was fun. Lots of Outtatowners, 17 (exactly half) to be exact. We went out for supper at Applebees (which always makes me sick after) and then hung out in the alcove of the lounge, talking and reminiscing. It was sweet.
Then I talked with Scott and Terrell for a while until Terrell went to bed. Scott and I had both were having an 'emo' day so we stayed up talking and singing along to High School Musical and Kelly Clarkson. It was fun but I killed my already-sore throat. Jess, Landon and Jothom were a slight interruption which included snorting, crying, kissing and laughing. And many many photos. I laugh right now remembering...ha ha!
Anyhoo so we finally decided we should go to bed, and he walked me back to my res. I was asleep as soon as I hit the pillow, I think!
OH GUESS WHAT?!?! I am totally going to watch the final game of the Canadian Open! Terrell has free tickets so he, Zach, Baker and I are going! I almost cried when I found out, I am so excited! Dad, I could see like, Gushue Stoughton, or (squeal!) TEAM FERBEY. Yeah I am freaking out. Wow.
So thats all for today.

Monday, January 22, 2007

crazyawesome weekend

I thought last weekend was amazing, how does my life keep rocking even more?

I don't really know what to say about it, it will probably bore everyone who wasn't there. But it was AMAZING!

Terrell was gone all weekend so my best friends decided to keep me as busy as possible so I didn't miss him too much, LOL!

Thursday meant marks (I did good! And I got a C+ in bio! Whoo that was all I wanted!), choir, Marva Dawn, pool, Step Up with Justin, Scott and Brynne, talking, crying, emoting, dancing, and then ridiculous amounts talking until unGodly hours.

Friday was sleeping, showering, talking with Scott all afternoon, supper, High School Musical w/ Scott, almost watching curling until my ride fell through, snack, G smacked my butt accidentally, busing to the OC with Justin, Scott, Brynne and Rachel, freezing in line, running to the bus, freezing my feet, walking forever, getting lost, getting cold, getting checked out by people in drag, getting scared, being relieved and warm in the Empire, dancing, laughing, sweating, taxis, McDonalds, Get Over It, going to bed in the wee hours of the morning.

Saturday was sleeping, hanging with Scott and Blatz, pool, McDonalds with Scott, Brynne, Rachel and Mae, looking at Africa pictures, Nikela, curling, going to Zach's, Bogart, SNL, pictures, back to CMU, creme egg! talking through a movie while eating pizza with Tyler and Scott, falling alseep on Tyler's bed, going to bed.

Sunday was breakfast with Scott, African church (or choich if you will), dancing, clapping, exhaustion, African food, back to CMU, off to curling with Brynne and Mike, getting lost, laughing, watching Terrell and Zach win, coming back, eating ice cream, hanging out with Terrell, ballroom dance, more time with Terrell, snack, pool, hanging with Blatz high kicking in the hallway, snorting and nearly peeing my pants, and finally off to bed.

Welcome back, Monday. Off to supper with Terrell's grandparents tonight! And tomorrow is Terrell and my 10 month anniversary...crazy.

i was bad to my body this weekend...too much dairy! and mcdonalds...eww. and my first creme egg of 2007!
mmm...yummy.

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

Sweet Action

So today started off crappy...I woke up with something in my eye. Still haven't gotten it out yet, but it hurt like a mofo! So I spent all of Anabaptist Beginnings crying, finally leaving the room to dig around my eye in the bathroom. My prof came out looking for me and asked me if I was okay, so I had to explain and felt dumb!
After class was sweet though! I played badminton with Caryn, Terrell and Mae. It was SO FUN! And painful, who knew I had those muscles? I hope to play again (maybe every Tuesday and Thursday?). I was nervous cuz I haven't played since gym in like grade 10, but I wasn't terrible. It was a fun workout and I really enjoyed getting some agression out on the birdie - and Mae apparently. I hit her in the face with it when I smashed it like 3 times. She must think I have a personal vendetta against her. Really Mae, I love you!
Then choir and computer apps, my eye is still driving me crazy. Especially when I lay down and close it...sleeping should be an adventure.
Well off to the books and hopefully some eye drops. Baker you rock my socks!

Monday, January 15, 2007

I am Happy

okay so my blog won't let me post when i'm on my computer...any advice? right now i am on baker's, but its very annoying not being able to comment or anything when i want to...

Best weekend EVER!
Pancakes.
Drama.
Friends.
Fun.
Tootsie Roll Pops.
Glenn, Mike and It Is To Laugh.
M&Ms.
Degrassi.
Men In Kilts.
Cold.
Taxis.
Spooning with Brynne.
Applebees.
Burgers!
Catching every bus.
New shirt.
Calling my mommy.
Terrell.
Ballroom dancing.
Cars.
Love.
High School Musical.

Great people. (Justin, Baker, Megan, Terrell, Caryn, Scott, Mae)

Happiness.
Plans.
Dancing.
Guitar.
Singing with Caryn.
Talking to Scott on MSN.
Going to bed
With a smile on my face.
I.
Love.
Life.

Saturday, January 13, 2007

Freedom Writers

So the movie Freedom Writers came out yesterday! I cannot wait to see it, it looks upsetting, moving and amazing. I am pumped! And so many other people want to see it too...I think we should all go together. When does it start playing in Winnipeg? Cause I wanna go!

Also I just watched the lastest episode of Degrassi and totally cried, I cannot believe that they killed off my favorite character JT! I was so upset, and it happened so ridiculously... it was very sad. I felt like a loser sitting here crying, ha ha.

Yesterday I missed my mommy alot. During class I looked at Sheila teaching and Megan learning and I wondered what it would be like to have my mom teach me a class. I think it would be cool and I really wanted to go to the front of the class and hug her because I really missed my mom. Now I feel sad again. I think I'll call home tomorrow.

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

The Bra, The Bad, and the Ugly

So last night was fun! Brynne came over with measuring tape and we measured and then went bra shopping. I found 2 that I liked, and one of them was only like $6.00! So that was sweet! And finally I have a bra that fits. Turns out I'm now a 36C, even though thats not what we measured at all. Stupid abnormal boobs! Sorry Terrell for all the bra posting, it will probably cease now that I have ones that fit!
Then Brynne and I went to see The Prestige in cheap seats. It was interesting...and very weird. The ending was astounding, pure cinematic genious! But as a whole I don't think I really liked the movie. It was about two horrible people who were obsessed with ruining each other's lives, so it wasn't the happiest story line at all. I didn't want either of them to win, they were so lame. Second movie I've seen in a while where one character's lives is all about secrets - this does not work! Especially in a relationship! So please converse, and don't lie, thats all I ask of you!
Then we came back and watched The Last Kiss with a bunch of people. Worst. Movie. Ever. Nothing about it was enjoyable for me, AT ALL. I was assaulted in every sense - my ears heard too many f-words, my eyes saw waaay too much sex and nudity, and my head was spinning in complete confusion of why someone felt the need to make this movie. If you like Zach Braff or Rachel Bilson and intend to keep it that way, do not see it! It was horrible, so many bad things happened and it was so dumb! The entire movie I had my hands in the air yelling, what the heck! I actually cried when it was over because it was very upsetting and unsettling for me. I mean in the movie his gf is pregnant, and then he cheats on her. Thats one of the worst things I can imagine. How alone would she feel? Oh, it was horrid. And I refuze to like it just because Zach Braff made it as well.
Afterwards Brynne and I talked a while in Megan's room and then tried on clothes in mine. I stayed up too late thinking. But yeah, it was a fun evening despite TLK and all of its horridness.

Monday, January 08, 2007

Srozhdestvom Kristovym!

Merry Ukranian Christmas, all!

I miss eating lots of Baba food like we usually do. Instead I ate old chicken fingers in CMU's caf. Oh, week in review!

Today was good. Productive. Fun! And some things that have been bugging me were discussed and somewhat resolved...I guess we'll see in time. Ballroom dancing was frustrating but fun. I found out that I like to/am a good lead. Thanks Ian for giving me that opportunity to show off my skills.
Then it was Dave and snack and now studying and bed. Good times!
EDIT: So I really need to go bra shopping...I've lost some weight and I think they've shrunk! Figures, that thats the first place you lose it...I am a little nervous to go through the ordeal again. Anyone remember this?

Sunday, December 31, 2006

Oh How the Years Go By

Who's pumped for 2007? Thats right its me baby! Ready to ring in the new year with two of my close friends and my darling parents. And a lot of food! New Year's is never really a super huge party anymore, but its still fun. Plus there's punch (eh Brynne?)!
Hmm...2006. What a big year for me! Went to Africa, held babies and orphans, tried to make a difference, swam with sharks, got attacked by b a b o o n s, swam in the ocean, hiked mountains, made new friends, g r e w in God, fell in love, chose a career, worked for 4 months, gained and lost a bunch of weight, got bangs, studied, cried, worshipped, d a n c e d, counselled, prayed, laughed a lot, and had a love/dislike relationship with life.
Overall a pretty good year, I'd say.
This past year has brought me so much and I am so thankful to have had it; I can only look forward to and feel ready to embrace what the coming year will bring. If its anything like this past year then I know at least one thing to be true - it is in God's hands, and I trust Him to continue to lead me along as He has thus far.

Saturday, December 30, 2006

Change of Plans

After a frustrating and painful morning (liquid nitrogen, I hate you!) we cancelled our trip to see the movie. I can't believe its not playing yet! Ridic! Anyhoo, so because my foot hurt we decided to go tomorrow and have supper and go bowling instead of wasting money on a movie we don't want to see. So pumped! Bowling with Henk is always the funniest thing ever!
I went to Brandon today anyway, with my sister. She got her hair cut and I got some pictures printed ($10 worth, or 58 ha ha!) and I booked a hair appointment for myself for tomorrow. That is a necessity. I bought some pretty clothes from Giant Tiger as well. Brown ones.
After her hair cut we had supper at Joey's (yum!) and saw The Good Shepard with Scott. It was weird. And dark. And disturbing. And weird. And Matt Damon is a good actor, but yeah it was weird. But nice to see Scott! And then we talked about the movie practically the whole way home, and now here we are.
Home sweet home.
EDIT: I forgot to mention that yesterday afternoon KB and I pulled out our instruments from high school band - her trombone and my trumpet. I almost had an aneurysm. It was pretty hilarious! And fun, I played taps. Afterwards I has the sickest lip hickey ever, it was sweet!

Thursday, December 28, 2006

Fun Times

So the past few days have been fun - Boxing Day with the Bryce clan and two crazy cousins. I was happy to have a tea party with Kiah, watch Cars with Elijah and that Tyler could come for a few days! I enjoy him, even though he kicks my butt at crokinole.
Went to Brynne's yesterday, saw her fam and her massive television. I want. LOL! It almost gave me a headache though! But we exchanged gifts and I got a sweet action shirt from her, I love it! It was fun, and she decided to spend the night and so we rented Stick It and Step Up after having supper at Choy's. Of course as soon as we got home I got a severe head ache, so I spent the night on the couch feeling nauseous and exhausted. But we watched both films, which were pretty good (Stick It was nothing like I thought it'd be - but still pretty good) even though I had a 15 minute nap between the two.
Today we woke up, ate, chilled, kept eating, talked for a few hours, watched Step Up again and then I took her home. It was really funny because I told a story and Brynne shot water out of her nose...ha ha! Oh Nargus!
Scary story!!! I was listening to my new Christina Aguilera CD, and the first song on the second disk has carnival music in it, and it scared me SO BAD. I hate clowns, and carnival-esque stuff, yikes I was like totally freaking out and shaking so Brynne made me change the song. Ug, I still feel all shook up *cue Elvis voice*.
Yup tomorrow I go to the doctor, hopefully get a wart removed (yahoo) and then off to Brandon with Henk, Brynne and Bakes. Life is good.

Monday, December 25, 2006

Glorious Impossible

so this song is basically defining my christmas this year. here it is being sung by the gaither vocal band - good stuff. hope you like it. i am not as in love with this version as i am of the one on our christmas in south africa video, but it is still great. how much do you love the dark-haired high tenor? i want to hug him!

Sunday, December 24, 2006

Its Christmas Eve!

Today has been quite the day! First, there was church and it was a great service. It was a Christmas/Baptismal service. I definitly cried, Pastor baptised his son and they were both crying when he dunked him. Actually each of the three people that got baptised were crying, so that was nice because it showed that it meant so much to them. It was very happy and emotional. Plus a lot of people were home for Christmas so we got to see a whole bunch of people that I haven't seen in like a year.
Then we had lunch, read the Christmas story from Luke, sang "Joy to the World" and opened presents. I got some sweet stuff! I got Amanda Falk's CD, the movie Cars from Jordan, some sweet action socks, guitar strings, a Newsboys devotional book, Philip Yancy's new book about prayer, some scrapbooking stuff complete with some sweet action albums (so now I need to print pictures and get started on my OT albums) and last but not least, a knitted black toque from my sister - with a brim!! Oh baby!!!! What I have wanted for a long time and everyone says they will mock me for wearing it, but just you wait CMU, I will be wearing it when I get back! Ha ha! Putting it on ruined my hair though...
Anyhoo tonight is supper at Baba's (bring on the nylyshynky!) and fun family times ensuing after that. And tomorrow is Christmas day at Baba's, where more presents wait (which is absurd! I have already gotten so much). I am excited to see my aunt and uncle and eat too much!
Mostly though, people, I feel really excited about Jesus this Christmas, about the 'glorious impossible' that came to earth to die for all my sins and faults. Praise God, eh? I mean we are so undeserving, but He loves us all the same. Thats pretty sweet.
Merry Christmas!

Saturday, December 23, 2006

roly poly annoying-oly!

i am really sick of feeling fat!
SO sick of it!
its gotten to the point where i feel uncomfortable in my own body; uncomfortable existing.
its not even an emotional feeling, its purely physical.
yuck! it makes me angry. and its not fully my fault.
i wish bran worked. grr.
--i am not always this negative. its just been a bad couple of days--

Thursday, December 21, 2006

Shopped Out

So I spend a majority of my day in the mall. Ew.
I can't believe when I was 14 that was a hang out location of choice!
Christmas shopping was frustrating and hard, so needless to say I was in a bad mood.
Then I came home and had 4 e-mails: one each from Mike, Chaput, Dayna and Terrell respectively.
So now I am happy and full of homemade cookie. Yay!
BRYNNE COMES HOME TOMORROW! Thats happy!

Monday, December 18, 2006

Candlelight Service

Last night was the Candlelight Service at church.

I like candles.

And carols.

And Jesus.

So basically it was a good night.

Sunday, December 17, 2006

Home Again, Home Again!

So I am now home! After a bio exam and the longest, frightening and most snow-filled drive home, I am back in the Strath Dot. Kristin and I ate and then headed to the church Christmas Concert, which was hilarious! Between Mike knocking down the nativity, Luke the shepard joining the angels and Mary and Joseph sprinting to Bethlehem, I laughed until I was sore. It was nice to sit back at watch the concert for once and not be in it.
I can honestly say that I was welcomed home with open arms. I think I got a hug from over half of the congregation and then some! So many people told me I looked good and my great aunt (Baba's sister) commented on how much weight I had lost, even encouraging me to eat more dainties and expressed concern that she could feel the bones in my fingers. LOL! It was funny and so nice to feel so loved.
After the concert I watched the Gaither Homecoming in South Africa video with my family - AMAZING. I loved it SO MUCH! SO many good songs and funny moments. I had chills like the whole time, so many moving songs (especially the Iaacs singing "Blessed Assurance"). PLUS!!!! They went to the school we went to and delivered shoe boxes! The one in Soweto that we painted and sang at! It was incredible to behold.
Today I slept in and hung out with the fam. I even ventured to SL to see Baba. I forgot how much I miss driving! Baba gave me a pretty bracelet and fed me too much. Tonight has been pretty chill - watched Montreal kill Pitsburg 6-3 (what a final 30 seconds!) and watched some AFV with the whole fam, including Jordan! I laughed too much and feel ill. Well soon I'll head off to bed so I can function at church tomorrow. Love to all!
AH! HENK CAME HOME TONIGHT! I will probably see him...tomorrow...

Thursday, December 14, 2006

Homesick

So I realise this song is about someone dying, but it kinda sums up how I feel right now. So many people have left, and I just want to go home, not study/write an exam! So here is a great song by MercyMe to express myself.
You're in a better place, I've heard a thousand times
And at least a thousand times I've rejoiced for you
But the reason why I'm broken, the reason why I cry
Is how long must I wait to be with you
I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now
Help me Lord cause I don't understand your ways
The reason why I wonder if I'll ever know
But, even if you showed me, the hurt would be the same
Cause I'm still here so far away from home
I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now
In Christ, there are no goodbyes
And in Christ, there is no end
So I'll hold onto Jesus with all that I have
To see you again
To see you again
And I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

Canmates: The Pros and Cons

CON: They play loud, crappy music.
PRO: They never listen to country!
CON: Their sink is DISGUSTING!
PRO: Its their sink, and I have my own.
CON: They use toilet paper faster than anything.
PRO: hmm...I guess they buy more sometimes.
CON: They never unlock my door after they shower.
PRO: I get to hone in on my lock-picking skills.
CON: They don't empty the garbage.
PRO: They take out the recycling.
CON: Talking is sometimes awkward.
PRO: They are pretty nice.
CON: They do laundry by hand and leave the floor a wet mess.
PRO: They usually de-hair the shower.
wow making this list has made me realise how gross bathrooms are! ew! and that a two week break from them will be lovely and is much appreciated.

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

Pouting

Ok, so right now I am totally pouting.
I was listening to Barenaked Ladies and decided to look them up on Ticket Master b/c I knew they were coming to Winnipeg soon.
And they are!
On February 13! Great birthday gift!
Oh wait I have choir tour....
So now I pout.
I mean I'm really pumped for tour, but like, it does mean no reading week which sucks...sigh...

Sunday, December 10, 2006

Divine Text Message

guys...God is so great....
i was just sitting here looking at my bib lit with dismay when my phone went off.
tyler had texted me!
it said, "janna we love you and are praying for you. you will do awesome.
you can do all things through Him who gives you strength."
and i never expressed any concern to him at all, and i was just feeling overwhelmed....
totally a God thing.
off to study now, i hope it goes well.
p.s. terrell's mom sent me a letter and my soul is very thrilled. :)
p.p.s. look guys, i have the cutest boyfriend alive! seriously!

Saturday, December 09, 2006

too tired to function

so i've been up past three the last four nights in a row...

should probably sleep sooner tonight.

do you ever have a day where you think you'd find it totally satisfying to cry? that was me today. didn't cry though, shucks.

i burnt my tongue on hot chocolate tonight and it hurts. plus i have soy milk in my lungs!

inspiring song line of the day:

"I won't hate myself to be loved by you."
-Hedley

(whoooooooaaa, whooooooooaaaa) yeah its a good song.

i sound stupid. good night all!

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

Christmas Gala!

So last night was the CMU Christmas Gala. It was so fun! I wore my grad dress, which made me so happy. It didn't even feel too tight, which was sweet. Terrell dressed to match me and that was happy as well. I don't think we've ever had that many pictures taken together ever in my life! After food, a boring program, and many many pictures we headed to the Blaurock for the after-party that included a crazy awesome band and lots of Mennonite dancing!! Here are some pictures from last night.
who's hot? its me and t-rell!

dookhie and myself behind the trees.


kissing caryn!


pregnant with Jotham (mom he says hi and apologises by the way ha ha)


pooped from dancing.

Afterwards G, Terrell, Caryn and I hung out in G's apartment. It was fun! I felt weird after the night was over, however. Lately I've really sucked at dealing with fun things coming to an end. I get depressed and feel like crying. Maybe it happened as well because I had been looking forward to the gala for so long - I just want to go home now that its over. Unfortunately I have two exams coming up before then, ew. But tomorrow Bakes and I are going to house-sit for Alison's aunt while they are at Todd's funeral, so I should get some good study time in then.

Monday, December 04, 2006

Exploited

Has anyone heard the new Gwen Stefani song? I mean first she takes "If I Were A Rich Man" from Fiddler on the Roof and now she uses "The Lowly Goatherd" from the Sound of Music.
IS NOTHING SACRED?!?!?
I mean what will she sample next? "I'd Do Anything" from Oliver! ? "If I Only Had a Brain" from the Wizard of Oz? Perhaps she'll use something from Hello Dolly, or Jesus Christ Superstar. People, I will not be surprised. So watch out, your favorite musical may be exploited soon!

Random Fun Things

Last weekend at the mall I set off alarms everywhere I went because I didn't remove the 'Please remove after purchase" tag. Each store kept scanning my bag, but my pants kept setting it off. Finally in Shoppers, after setting off the alarm entering and leaving the store, the guy scanned my bag and I showed him that it was indeed my pants by going through the entrance again. He looked at me, tapped the counter and said, "hop up." So I sat on the scanner thing, wiggled my butt a few times and got off. No more setting off alarms for me! So funny! Everyone in the store was howling when I got up on that thing...maybe it was mostly Brynne...
You guys, God is awesome. I accomplished everything on my to do list today. That was exciting! Plus I even found time to watch curling with Baker! That was great, even though Ferbie lost...grr! Anyhoo, Bib Lt homework - check. Steal Baker and Terrell's cameras - check. See a movie with Brynne - check (Little Miss Sunshine...it was weird and good and sad and hilarious). Hang out with Terrell (?) - check! Even though it was only for like 15 minutes, those 15 minutes mean so much to me. I am happy for anytime spent with him. What can I say? Easy to please!
I should be sleeping so I can accomplish my to do list for tomorrow. I am going to fast and pray for all the students preparing for exams and for the Outtatown students that are preparing to return home for Christmas. It is a difficult time! I am looking forward to spending that time in prayer.
Goodnight my lovelies.
P.S. I quit hockey and feel great about it. This was the first Sunday in a month where I didn't feel stressed at all.