The Kalan Story

OH MY GOSH.
Tonight I saw, heard, touched, MET AND TOOK A PICTURE WITH KALAN PORTER!!!
I could seriously die! The whole thing seems so unreal right now!!! Like it hasn't totally sunk in yet, I want to see my pictures so maybe I'll believe it. HOLY CRAP THIS IS CRAZY!
So Brynne, Ireen, Ashley and I went to Brandon (even though the highways were closed, lol) and hung out at the mall a bit. I got Drive Me Crazy and The Babysitter's Club on DVD! I'm pumped! Then we went to the Westman Auditorium, it was around 7:30. We got Kalan shirts and pictures, it said Amanda Stott was giving autographs but nothing on Kalan, so we were sad. Then we went in, it was PACKED. I'm serious. So many girls, of all ages! Little girls and moms and even some grandma's! It was hilarious. Anyways, I was wetting myself and feeling totally nauseated. It was crazy. Then Amanda Stott came out. WOW. What a voice! Its totally sad, she had 10 thousand times more talent than Kelly Clarkson, but she's like hardley famous at all. She's unbelieveable, and completely inspiring. I bought her CD! And got a picture with her. She actually almost made me weep, her voice just moved me.
So after her set, and an autograph and picture with her later, I was back in my seat, feeling ill. Maria was two rows ahead of me, and was like "see that guy up there? Is that Kalan?" I looked up and it totally was! I was like, waving, and he was smiling and waving back. Then the lights went off. Everyone was screaming and I was freaking right out. It seemed like 5 minutes before I could hear this sound...and saw this guy with a violin walk out in a black coat with the collar all turned up. Oh wow. He started playing, it was amazing. Everyone was screaming, and the lights were purple! Then, after the Prelude, he turned his back, and his band rushed out. He whipped around and started "She's So Dangerous."
I was numb, I didn't know what to do. So I cheered. Then I started bawling my head off. I was so overhelmed, that he was real, and there, and singing, and he was so REAL. I mean he was a living breathing real person, not just a face on TV. Ireen laughed at me as I cried until the end of the song. Then he sang "And We Drive" and I wanted to die. I LOVE THAT SONG. Then he was like, "Hey Brandon" and there was more screaming. I was zooming in on my camera and taking pictures. He sang "I Don't Wanna Miss You", and my word, it was lovely. I mean that kid can sing. Like sure, he's an absolute cutey, but when it comes down to it, he is TALENTED. He sang "Single" and finally people got up and started dancing. After the song the skanky old man in charge told us to sit down. Then he sang "Old Man" and Ireen sang along, too cute. It was beautiful. Then Kalan told us to stand up! Ha ha! It was awesome. He kept singing and it was amazing, I was just screaming and Brynne and I were freaking out.
I got up and went to the side to take some pictures up close. I mean I got some great ones. He was so close, I could see the amazing blue of his eyes. And he smiled too! It was amazing! He played his violin so much too! Wow. I went and sat down again and Brynne and I got up to polka during one of his solos, but then we just joined the pit. I wanted to get touched SO bad. Then he left and came back out with a cowboy hat on. I admit, it was hot. Maria joined us in the pit. Then he did "The Devil Came Down to Georgia." It was awesome. Then he sang "Awake in a Dream" and changed it so it was all rock-y, it was amazing. Then he left. I was sad, I so thought it was over. But he came back out and sang songs he sang on Idol, like "House of the Rising Sun", "Long Train Runnin", "Nature Boy", and "Born to Be Wild."
OH MY GOSH. During Long Train Runnin', he was running around touching fingers with people, and I reached...and he GRABBED my hand. I mean he was just wiggling fingers, but he grabbed my right hand. I almost puked. I was screaming and freaking, and I pointed at my hand at Ashley and Ireen, and they laughed. It was unreal. Then I cried again (tool). He sang the last two songs, then had a huge instrumental solo with his band. He waved, bowed, let some people touch his hair, and left. I was sad, wired, pumped and in shock!
Brynne and I decided last Friday we were going out to his bus. Well lots of other people had the same idea. So we waited (Ashley wouldn't come, that bum) and waited. I felt so bad. I mean the poor kid just wants to relax, you know? And he's hounded by fans. But yeah, I waited and couldn't believe he was right there. Then...I got up there. I gave him my sheet to sign and he said, "Hi, how are you?" And I blurted, "God bless you! That was good." And he was like, "wow, thank you." And then I asked for a picture, and he said sure, and I put my arm around him, and he put his arm around me, and Brynne jumped in beside me (you're forgiven) and Ireen took it. I don't even think I blinked. Then I said thanks and danced away.
I MET HIM! I TOUCHED HIM! HE ACKNOWLEDGED THAT I EXIST! And I have a picture to prove it!! (Please God, let it turn out!)
It still doesn't seem real. I'm flying so high right now. Wow oh wow. I don't even know what to say. Tomorrow I will be in the biggest FUNK ever.
Some things bugged me a little however. Nothing about Kalan, just some of the fans. I mean its like some girls know nothing about him. So many kept yelling "you're hot" and were dressed so skimpy. I was like, he doesn't appreciate that. He loves Jesus. He appreciates your support, but he wants you to love his music, too. I mean some girls had a sign that said "come over sometime, I have a double bed." I think he'll be discusted by that, not impressed. It made me sad, and made me realize that I should just keep praying for him, he needs our prayers. So all of you reading this, say a little prayer for Kalan that he won't stray and will draw close to God, and let Him guide him and be his strength. He needs that to stay grounded, to stay...Kalan. I believe thats what makes him so great - his heart.
God bless Kalan Porter, may he continue to make great music, sing well, stay healthy and stay humbled by God's awesome presence in his life. I love you, Kalan. I'm praying for you.

Three Hours

In three hours, I will see my man, my favorite person, my hero, my
KALAN PORTER
IN THE FLESH.
I think I might die of excitement. Or anticipation.

Best Day EVER!

Today has been the freaking funnest day ever! It was Jazz Fest in Brandon, so we all packed up after an hour and a half of practising and headed off. I got to ride in the Handivan! It was the best group of us: Curtis, Eddie, Geordie, Kyle M, Kelsey, Carlyle, Britney, Heidi, Brynne and me. We just talked and hung out the whole way there. Heidi and I laughed most of the way, really! "We're in the handivan...WE'RE COOL!" LOL! Carlyle sat in the wheelchair! We were drawing on the fogged up windows (nice roadkill squirrel "guitar" Eddie!) and waving at people who passed us. And we ate on the way too, Eddie was jealous of my lunch. Then we got there, and we hung out in the hallway, and I saw Jeff and Norah came over to say hello. Then we went to warm up. We went out on the stage to set up, and I saw Andrew! That was cool. He actually announced us, and the songs we played. Then we played In the Mood. It was...interesting. Well it was actually pretty good until the last two bar lines, when the trumpets play the chromatic scale. We all just kind of died and yeah it was bad. I was so humiliated after we finished. Then we played Woodchopper's Ball, which was somehow worse. Oh it was so completely awful. But then we played Soul Bossa Nova. That was the best we ever played it. I mean, we nailed everything! It was amazing, we just killed it! The trumpets we good that whole song, I must say. Then we were adjudicated, and he was really nice. We went to another building and he worked with us for like an hour. We improved so much! If he came to our school once a month, we would be a completely better Jazz Band. So then we like rocked at Woodchopper's. He told us that we we started to play Soul Bossa, we completely changed. He said it was like we were a totally different band. So yeah, that was good.
Then we went to get pictures taken and the photo guy was a total skank (just like at Optimist). So we took the picture, and then we hung out outside. Eddie and I discussed how it must photo guy requirements to be a hoebag, lol. Then Kristin came and said goodbye. Then we all got on the Handivan. We were sitting there, just talking and some of us were humming Soul Bossa. Then Carlyle started yelling "HANDIVAN!" at people who walked by. It was so funny! Then we sang Soul Bossa, each of us singing our parts. It was totally fun and we were just screaming the whole time. People looked frightened, it was funny! My throat was so sore after that. After singing it through about 4 times, we were all like, "what time is it? why haven't we moved?" and Mr. Pettinger was like "It's 3:20 (we were supposed to have left an hour ago) and the handivan won't move out of park." So we all went outside and tried to push it, which was funny also.
Then we got back on, and Mr. Pettinger was on the phone calling the school etc. There was a charter bus parked across the street, and we were waving at the 3 people in it, yelling "Handivan!" at them. They waved and acted like idiots, and we were feeling silly, so Eddie stuck his head out the window and blew a kiss at them. This one guy was pumping his arm in the air with excitement, which scared Eddie. So he gave me his sunglasses, and I continued to wave at them. Then they wrote us a note and held it up against the window. It asked us to um, show some skin and we all laughed, and wrote back for them to show us some first. It was all in good fun, really. But then this one guys started taking off his sweater and dancing around, and then he started with his pants! I was hiding, and then I saw his teacher coming! He did too, when she came on, and ducked into a seat to redress. She looked pretty mad! When they walked by we all laughed and applauded, and I held up a sign that said "Nice." It was hilarious! Finally the handivan started moving, around 4:00. We celebrated by going to McDonalds. It was awesome! I hugged Carlyle! We laughed and talked and it was great. And Brynne and I started making our straws make sounds, and everyone else joined. We called it the Handivan song. It was totally awesome.
Then we finally started home, around 4:15. We talked about movies we like (who knew they all love Monty Python?), and comedians, and laughed like idiots. We also laughed about everything else that happened that day. We had a contest on who was ugliest when they were 12. We talked about hygene, and how cool it would be to take then Handivan to a drive in movie, with a big buttload of us. Seriously, I am so jealous of all of them. I was never that cool when I was 14 or 15. It was so totally awesome, like I mean we never ran out of things to talk about, or laugh about, and I could've driven for way longer than we did. I feel like we're like the Handivan's own Breakfast Club. We're like the Handivan Club (whoa, that sounded way cooler in my head). Like we're all forever bonded because of that one day. Who knows if on Monday we'll talk or anything, but for those few hours we a tight group of friends. Now that is beautiful. And I am so in a funk.

Aicha

So sweet, so beautiful
Every day like a queen on her throne
Don't nobody knows how she feels
Aicha lady, one day you'll be real

She moves, she moves like a breeze
I swear I can't get her out of my dreams
To have her shining right here by my side
I'd sacrifice all the tears in my eyes
woo woo woo

Aicha, Aicha
Passin me by
Aicha, Aicha
My my my (ooh)
Aicha, Aicha
Smile for me now
I don't know, I dont know
Aicha in my life

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Again

Today
I cried
Again
Harder
Than before.

In Rememberance

Okay, so I've been deeply changed and moved by the four RCMP officers killed in Alberta. Everytime I see anything about them on the news, I cry. Right now an "In the Line of Duty" special is on. Oh wow, I just couldn't stop crying. Over 700 officers have died in Canada since the 60s. This one officer, his wife was 4 weeks pregnant when he was killed. He was only 21. She never met her father. Another one has a young child and leaves a pregnant wife. Oh, its just awful.
One of the officers was the son of a Lutheran pastor, and he told his dad that no matter what happened to him on the job, he knew where he was going to end up. I mean how beautifully and tragically sad is that? I just bawled. I mean he was only 25, he had his whole life ahead of him. He's with Jesus now, but the fact is he shouldn't be. He should be living his life, having children. I find it so unfair and awful. The truth is, nobody is to blame. As long as there's sin in the world, this will happen. People need Jesus, you know? Like people just need to find Him and hang out with Him and get to know Him and maybe stuff like this wouldn't happen. There was no reason to shoot those men. Oh this is awful, I am so sad.
I wish I could do something, I'm just feeling this deep desire to help out. The worst thing is that no matter what I do, or tried to do, nothing can bring this men back to their loved ones.

Const. Peter Schiemann, aged 25

Const. Leo Johnston, aged 32

Const. Anthony Gordon, aged 28

Const. Brock Myrol, aged 29

"We seek comfort in the midst of our sorrow, peace in the midst of our inner turmoil and hope...from a good and gracious God who is more powerful than the evil in us and around us. Yes, what happened to Peter and the others was horrific. Sin will run rampant, but horror and evil, sin and death did not win the day."

You will be remembered.

The Countdown

ten things i want to do in my lifetime:
1. hang out with (or preferably marry) Matt Thiessen from Relient K
2. fall in love and get married
3. graduate from college
4. have a family of my own
5. learn to play the guitar
6. travel around Europe
7. go to underprivilaged countries to do missions work
8. write and publish a book
9. have blue hair
10. help lots of people find Jesus

nine things on my mind:
1. i don't care enough about school
2. my head hurts
3. i wish i could do something tonight other than math
4. i am SO SAD that Matt Thiesson is married!
5. should I be coloring my french poster right now?
6. how much longer will I have this job?
7. I eat too much chocolate
8. something smells totally funky in here
9. what will Sarah and I sing for the talent show?

eight songs i love:
1. Crimson and Clover - Tommy James and the Shondells
2. Look What You've Done - Jet
3. When I Go Down - Relient K
4. Hopeless - The Trews
5. Boulevard of Broken Dreams - Green Day
6. Untitled - Simple Plan
7. In The Light- DC Talk
8. Pitiful - Blindeside

seven things i do almost every day:
1. complain
2. take tylenol
3. worry about something
4. listen to Relient K
5. eat a lot
6. laugh
7. say "Holy Crap"

six things (not people) i love:
1. rainbows
2. snuggling with my cats
3. getting e-mails
4. Festival (and my hoodie!)
5. dancing
6. playing the piano

five people i enjoy the company of: (not in any particular order)
1. Ashley
2. Brynne
3. Cassie
4. Ireen
5. Everyone who's reading this now...I LOVE YOU! I love too many people.

four most recent movies i’ve seen:
1. The Village
2. Hitch
3. Barbershop 2
4. Cellular (LOL!)

three skills i have:
1. writing stuff
2. singing
3. eating! lol

two things i’d change about myself:
1. I would SO be thinner! I mean...I'd accept myself :)
2. i would be better at telling people about Jesus

one bit of advice:
1. always smile! someone will smile back!

Hurry Up, Tomorrow!

I wish tomorrow would get here. Not like today has been exceptionably awful or anything, but tomorrow is going to be fun! We have a sub in french, so that will be good, then work, and then Brynne and I are going to see Kristin's play! Maybe we can go out for coffee after or something, or just back to her room. Oh well. I'm hoping to show Brynne my grad dress as well. I hope she likes it! Then she's spending the night and we're going to the wavepool with youth group the next afternoon. And Ireen is coming! I haven't seen her in ever! It'll be a blast, I'm stoked. Plus swimming, how fun! Other than the swimsuit aspect. Oh well, whatevz. I can't believe I just said that, my sister is really starting to rub off on me...
Okay, so reading my 17 magazine today made me realise that I am TOTALLY addicted to caffine! The symptoms were that if you didn't have it you were sluggish, had headaches and were irritable. Well thats been me lately. I am so tired for no reason, I have constant headaches and mom pointed out that I've been grumpy. So yeah. I think its the chocolate more than the pop, because I've had so much of it in the past few weeks, with my birthday and Valentine's Day so close together. But now my supply is out, and I'm feeling the effects, people. Not good! I've totally put on weight since January too, which sucks. I just feel fat and yucky all the time, how annoying. So yes, caffine is bad, as is chocolate and no energy to work out. So yeah. Yeah.

When I Go Down

I'll tell you flat out it hurts so much to think of this. So from my thoughts I will exclude the very thing that I hate more than anything is the way I'm powerless to dictate my own moods. I've thrown away so many things that could've been much more. And I just pray my problems go away if they're ignored, but that's not the way it works. No that's not the way it works. When I go down, I go down hard. And I take everything I've learned and teach myself some disregard. When I go down, it hurts to hit the bottom. And of the things that got me there I think, "if only I had fought them." If and when I can clear myself of this clouded mind I'll watch myself settle down into a place where peace can search me out and find that I'm ready to be found. I've thrown away the hope I had in friendships. I've thrown away so many things that could have been much more. I've thrown away the secret to find the end of this. And I just pray my problems go away if they're ignored, but that's not the way it works. No that's not that way it works. Any control I thought I had just slipped through my hands while my ever-present conscience shakes its head and reprimands me, reprimands me. Then and there I confess I'll blame all this on my selfishness. Yet You love me, and that consumes me, and I'll stand up again - and do so willingly. You give me hope, and hope, it gives me life. You touch my heavy heart, and when you do it makes me light. As I exhale I hear your voice, and I answer you, though I hardly make a noize. And from my lips the words I choose to say seem pathetic, but it's a fallen man's praise. Because I love You. Oh God, I love You. And life is now worth living if only because of You. And when they say I'm dead and gone it won't be further from the truth. When I go down, I lift my eyes to You. I won't look very far cause You'll be there with open arms to lift me up again...to lift me up again.

Stuck In My Head

Here's the thing, we started out friends. It was cool, but it was all pretend. Yeah, yeah, since you been gone. Your dedicated, you took the time, wasn't long, til I called you mine. Yeah, yeah, since you been gone. And all you'd ever hear me say is how I pictured me with you. That's all you'd ever hear me say. But since you been gone, I can breathe for the first time. I'm so moving on, yeah yeah! Thanks to you now I get what I want, since you been gone. How can I put it? You put me on. I even fell for that stupid love song. Yeah, yeah, since you been gone. How come I'd never hear you say I just wanna be with you? Guess you never felt that way. But since you been gone, I can breathe for the first time. I'm so moving on. Yeah, yeah. Thanks to you now I get, I get what I want. Since you been gone...you had your chance, you blew it, out of sight, out of mind. Shut your mouth, I just can't take it again and again and again and again... Since you been gone I can breathe for the first time. I'm so moving on. Yeah, yeah. Thanks to you now I get, I get what I want. I can breathe for the first time, I'm so moving on, yeah yeah. Thanks to you now I get, you should know, that I get, I get what I want. Since you been gone...since you been gone. Since you been gone...

The One That Got Away

Ok, so these past two weeks have been insane. I haven't really been home for like the past five days. I went to Winnipeg to Festival Du Voyageur twice!!! It was totally awesome and fun and I love it there! Beaucoup de les mignons garçons! LOL I saw my future husband, he was this adorable dark haired guy who was the lead singer in a french band. He was so talented! And french! And didn't appear to have a girlfriend present! But yeah, I think we might have looked at each other once or twice (we had a moment!), but then they left and I never got to talk to him or find out his name or even the band's name! :( So yeah, it made me sad. I just chose to call him the one that got away...

Its My Birthday

I"M 18!!!

SCARY!!!!

So yeah, happy brithday to me, I think Brynne and I are gonna go see "Finding Neverland", so toodles!

My New Kitties!

Hey! I got kitties on Monday, they are so cute and cuddley and I love them! The one on the left is orange and his name is Mozart. The one on the right is named Melody. Mo is so dumb, he's a huge goof. Mel is cute and really shy, but I think she'll get used to us eventually. They are siblings and 7 months old right now, so they're so tiny! I love them, and I am so excited to have cats!

Stop! In the Name of WAD

Okay, so last night Brynne and I went to this family dance thing to watch WAD in Shoal Lake. It was AWESOME! Geordie and Eddie are discustingly talented. And Geordie is so my hero, I mean he's amazing at both the drums and the piano. Watching him play is amazing, I love watching people do what their passionate about and/or good at. Like seriously! After their first set Brynne and I went and sat with him because there was seriously no one else there our age. So we hung out with Geordie for like an hour. It was very funny, he was telling us stories he plans on telling magazines when he's famous! LOL I laughed! And about music and bands, like Default - turns out they're fans too! Whoo! Default power! Then it was midnight and Eddie's birthday so we went and yelled happy birthday at him. That was funny. The lead singer of the other band was really good! He sang happy birthday to Eddie and it was funny. He's only 15 now, but he's more talented than like 30 year olds out there now. He's like a next-generation Jimmy Hendrix! Seriously! Then WAD went back on and Brynne and I sat on the side, where we had a better view. They totally played a Default song! I was so excited and singing along. And at the end, I cheered - I was the only one however, much to my embarassment! But yeah, I shook it off, I mean anything in the name of Default, right? So yeah, the point of this story is that I was discustingly impressed, among other things, right Brynne? IT WAS SO COLD IN THERE! I thought I would die! I had my coat on the whole time, and yeah I was freezing! My toes froze. I got home and they were all white and I had to rub them for like 10 minutes before I went to bed. It was bad. And so I slept like a rock last night, I'm still tired, and yeah, thats my story. Go see WAD when you can people! Brynne and I are now gonna be groupies! LOL lata playas...

Goodbye! I'll Miss You!

Well this is basically a post to say that I will most likely be unable to post for the next 2 weeks. Life is carzy right now, with exams and math and grad pictures and everything. :( I apologise for my lack of posting and hope everyone will forgive me until my next post.
Now on to my weekend. On Saturday was my dad's 50th birthday! We planned this huge surprise party for him. It was the church. Everyone from the church was invited, and so were people like Henk, Brion and Brynne. It was pretty sweet. So all day we just layed around and I did homework all day and then we snuck off to the church to decorate. We made this huge banner that said "Happy 50th Owen" and we got everyone to write stuff on it. Dad seriously had no idea. He loves birthdays, so it was totally hard to watch him mope all day. We came home and he was all dressed up and ready to go, but then we just ate leftovers and watched the news. It was so sad! Then Jordan and Kristin and I said we were gonan go rent a movie, but went to the church to set up all the food. There was so much! People started arriving around quarter to six. Lots of people arrived and then around 7:15 mom and dad walked in. Everyone screamed and yelled "Surprise!" and dad was just beaming away! It was totally cool! Then we all mingled and talked and over 50 people were there and we presented the cake and Irwin prayed for dad and we had cake and ice cream. It was totally sweet. Then later Kristin got Henk cake but Ashley and I inhaled it before he sat down. Then we did it again with the next piece. Henk was like, "I'm gonna cry" and so was I because my stomach freaking hurt from all that! Then Pat and Ralph came and we all screamed. It was very cool. I didn't sleep until like 2:00 am and then we went to church the next morning. I was needless to say exhaustified!
It was totally wicked awesome and dad totally deserved it. He's the best! :) Then I did LA all day yesterday and math all night last night and that's what I'm off to do right now! Toodles!

Wrong Number

Someone just called me and said it was a wrong number. Oops! LOL I HATE wrong numbers! They are so humiliating! Its like, wow I'd rather die than continue talking with you on the phone. And they're all like, Oh no problem, or sometimes they ask your name. Thats the worst. I mean smaall town, everyone knows everyone! So its awful! Anyways, I wrote my math exam and it went really well. I thought it was like, easy. I was happy, it was almost fun because I knew what I was doing the whole time. So that was all good and happy, but then we spent all morning filming our LA talk show, and then it was all screwed up and ended up not taping the good takes and just the out takes. So that blows. Anyhoo, I should go, work is done. Toodles!

Forgotten Music

Okay, so we happen to have a bunch of crappy '90s band on our computer. I totally listen to them tout les temps! Its a little sad really. Some of them aren't that bad, or at least they're cheesily enjoyable. So here's a shout out to some 90s bands that have become...forgotten music.

B44
Does anyone remember these guys? They sang "Get Down" and "Go-Go" which are totally fun and absolutely retarded songs. The harmony just SCREAMS boy band! Its so funny, it reminds me of grade 7, back when these guys were new. They were totally not really popular then...I like them. They make me laugh.

BBMak
Something about the B bands that caused them to die off or something...these guys are so cute! They're from the UK, so they were a typical boy band. Only with 3 members. The words hardly make sense, but the song "Ghost" is sung so beautifully, who even cares? And they sang "Out of My Heart" too. I think it was on a movie, cause I remember the video. No wait, that was "Still on Your Side." Okay so they had more singles than I remembered. But they're totally cute, and pretty talented. I wonder what ever happened to them?

Vertical Horizon
This band is like the definition of 2000. They were one of the first bands on the brand new radio station 94.7 STAR FM! Thats funny! I remember listening to them on the way back from the grade 7 field trip. They were actually good! I love the song "You're a God" its so awesome and catchy. And "Everything You Want" was huge in Westman for so long! I seriously really wonder where they are now...I really liked them! They still totally rock in my book. Their music should not be forgotten!

Other memorable bands and/or singers: Toni Braxton (who sang "He wasn't man enough for me"...if you listen to her deep voice you might take a stab at why!), Wide Mouth Mason ("Change"), Smashing Pumpkins (oh wow now thats an old one!), Shawn Mullins ("Lullaby" that was so not a song, he just said the verses...), Lifehouse ("Hanging By A Moment" was huge...I always got them confused with...), The Calling ("Wherever You Will Go"), Craig David (what a tool, I hated that "Fill Me In" song so much, almost as much as "7 Days"), Amanda Marshall ("Shades of Grey" was my favorite song for ever! Now I don't like her), Wave (what a sad sad excuse for a band...although I did see them in concert and met them too. I still say "Don't Say Sarah" killed their "career"!) And so many more, but I'm outta time and energy to type them out!

Random Thoughts of the Day

Everything sucks when people quit drama, Pizza Pringles and chocolate milk = worst breath EVER, bacon and eggs rock and should be consumed daily, A Beautiful Mind is a sad sad movie, Mario Kart is fun, its too cold outside to exist, church is fun, old people are cute, secrets are the best, the only way to win Mario Kart is by actually knowing who you're paired up with lol, black fingernails are the best, hair is annoying, glasses fog up too easily, flirts are annoying to be around, boys can act weird, and they will always laugh at the word booby not matter how old they are, Cass' grad dress is pink and I'm excited, Relient is the best band of all time, Aicha is the funniest thing of all time, my grandma's car is a treat to drive, grandma is short, a house looks empty without a Christmas tree, CD burners rock, retainers are smelly, my head it constantly itchy, drugs are stupid, layering clothes is the way to go, skater shoes are hot, staying up too late on a Saturday night = an unpleasantly exhausting Sunday, God rocks my world and finally, fried chicken will cure a choking victim everytime!

Get the fried chicken!

Ah! I apologise for my lack of posting! But really, between the provincial LA exam and prepping for our art gallery, I have had zero time to be posting. The exam went well, I think. The theme was appearances. I hope I did good. I was really happy with my written assignment. SO yeah...
Alrighty, so my weekend was totally good. On Saturday I called Cass and we talked for like 2 and a half hours. It was totally awesome, we just laughed and talked and had a totally wicked good time. I miss her. I gotta go to her grad, and she's gotta come to mine! I'm so excited! Then on Sunday was Drama, and I saw all these people and had a great time! Aaron told me that my teeth looked "lovely". I was happy. And David is the freaking funniest kid ever! He was talking about Ashley playing b-ball and how much he wanted her to dunk it. Can you believe I've been in Drama for 10 years? Thats more than half my life! Thats insane. I can't believe Cody just turned 17. I mean I'll be 18 in like a month. A month yesterday! Crazy! Wow. I like being 17, its been my favorite year thus far. But hey when I'm 18 my teachers have to give me all my school stuff and can't give it to my parents, which is funny. Especially because I'll most likely show it to them anyways! Ah, adulthood. So not ready! I guess I feel pretty grown up, and I'll have to grow up to go to South Africa...
Well thats all I got time for. Talk to y'all soon!

NO MORE PICTURES!

Okay so the past two days have been good and bad. Last night was totally fun! Dingus and I went out for supper, and read the Miss Lonelyhearts stuff from the paper and talked and laughed like two huge idiots! Then we sang DC-10, and I called the newspaper the dictionary. That was funny! And we dicussed the "NO MORE PICTURES" moment. Seriously, if we were watching it at home, would we have yelled it? Together? In unison? Was it the Red Bull? Was it the sugar? Was it the excitement of failing a bio exam and then driving to Brandon in the Gremlin and staying up too late? Maybe we just shouldn't watch movies together, at least not in public...
Then I felt really awful last night, my mouth hurt. So I went to bed really early. Then today I wrote a stupid open book bio test, that I'll most likely need "divine intervention" to pass. LOL it wasn't too awful I guess, it was just BLAHHH. A bio test. Then art was just art, and I got a headache from all the evil paint fumes, and it was funny watching Jannelle paint in anger, lol. Then I went to work and came home and showered to get ready for my first drama rehersal! I was so excited (wow there's a really retarded Ashanti Herbal Essences ad on TV right now). So I got all prettied up, and went, and then there was no one there. Seriously, all the people I wanted to see, like my Westman crew, was non-existant. I wanted to cry. Brynne told me I smelled good, and I told her it was wasted. It was also SO BORING and gross because its like Jim hitting on Jackie, ew! And so we left at the break cuz we were tres bored. Then we spent half an hour throwing snow chumks at a snow bank on the roof trying to get a bottle that was stuck up there down. It was freaking hilarious! And cold. So Sarah left and Brynne came here and we drank water and watched the Festival tape. Wow we were all like 5 years old, Henk looks so little and I look so NASTY! Wow! Then she left and I read some of the play to mom. Then I came on here to e-mail some people and post. And here I be. And I just found out that Brad Pitt and Jennifer Anniston split up!!! NO!!! This is so awful! I'm sad, there were an adorable couple that I really wanted to last! :( So that killed it. And I'm exhausted and going to bed - my parents fell asleep watching a CSI rerun.

Everything and Nothing

Wow, I have no idea what to say, so I'll just ramble. Maybe something significant will come out after all this. So tonight I am all alone in the house, currently listening to CSI: Miami and talking to Kyle M about being 18 and with Brion about having colds and how they SUCK. And Kyle just told me that uber was my word, lol thats funny! I haven't talked to him in forever. Okay so last night I had this dream that Chris Moffatt died. It was awful! I was talking to her in the hallway and then all of a sudden I hear that right after our convo she had a heart attack and died. Oh my gosh this black guy on CSI just called Horratio "homie" Ha ha ha! Well back to my dream. I was like what? A 17 year old girl having a heart attack? I was just bawling like a loser, I mean I grew up with the girl. I mean I am still growing up with her. ANyways. SO yeah then I was like who will be grad president? (which is dumb b/c Chris isn't even president, she's treasurer) And somehow I was and everything I did for grad was about Chris, like we had a slideshow all about her and stuff. It was weird. And then all day I was like "was that real? Is she dead?" Oh my gosh she just logged on MSN! So funny! I was like "BUT YOU"RE DEAD!" I should start a convo w/ her and be like "you're alive!" That might scare her tho. Anyhoo my eye is so itchy. And I need to sneeze.
I wish that I could play guitar. I watched "Josie and the Pussycats" today and now I want to play guitar and be in a band and be famous. I can write stuff, I just can't play it. I wish I could. Then I'd be all over, playing and singing for everyone. I mean I love performing. I feel the same way about it as Ash does about playing bball. Its like this huge rush where nothing else matters but that mircophone and the people in the audience. When they smile I feel like I've accomplished so much. I mean wanting the attention of a room, and getting it, and creating something beautiful all the same time...wow. Thats why I love choir. Meeting all these AMAZING and beautiful people, and bonding through something so magical and beautiful is so amazing! I just love it. Nothing feels like it. And its not even thinking, its just...feeling. Wow. Nothing can describe it. I wish I was famous, that'd be fun. LOL anyhoo my parents are home, so off I go! Toodles.

Brr its cold in here...

There must be some JANNA in the atmosphere!
Okay so I'm at work doing math and FREEZING my butt off! It is seriously SO COLD! Just sipping a C-Plus and sucking on a Caramilk square (there, that enough product placement for you?) and blowing on my hands every five seconds because they are so cold that I want to die. Anyhoo...Don hasn't gotten back yet and linear equations were getting slight monotonous so I thought I'd make a dumb post. Anyhoo yeah. So yeah, I'm gonna go. I want to go home and watch some girl movie, like A Walk to Remember or Get Over It or Bring it On or something. I totally make a Bring it On reference every day, its just silly. I wish we had The Matrix at home, I haven't seen it in like 3 years. CRAZY! I used to watch it everyday. Ash and Kristin and I would try to learn the fight scenes...we were such losers! Ok so before I humiliate everyone I know I'll get back to linear equations.
Toodles!

Happy New Year

Okay so I've decided that I really like not having braces. Its so much nicer. Even the retainers aren't so bad. Seriously, they're kinda cool, except I talk like I'm wearing dentures. Its interesting anyhow. I am SO TIRED! Too many late nights in a row. Like there was New Year's on Friday night. I was up until 5 am with Henk, Brynne, Brion and my family watching the Rundown (funniest awesomest movie of all time!), King Arthur (whoo a stinker!), and Mean Girls (thoroughly enjoyable). It was fun, there was way too much good food, and yeah it was good. Henk and Brion left around 4:00, and then Brynne and I stayed up talking and watching stupid infomertials. It was totally fun. I had fun. LOL I repeat myself way too often! And Henk ditched his truck at Brion's house, what a tool! I laughed. Yay I have another website with a guestbook, SIGN IT! It's www.freewebs.com/thephatkid
Whee! I'm a loser. Have a lovely day, everyone.
Oh by the by last night we watched Secret Window, it was AWESOME! Seriously best movie ever. Johnny Depp is amazing. Then we watched Chasing Liberty today, which I also enjoy, when the agents hook up and the guy in that movie is is hot! Yikes!

Brace Face No More

I got them off!! They are gone!!
My braces were taken off today! I'm undecided about that. I mean its totally awesome and everything, but when I look in the mirror all I see is teeth! They are so huge! I have so much of them! And they feel all slimy and smooth. Its so weird! Its a little silly, really. I almost miss the braces, but not enough to put them back on again! It sounded like he was breaking my teeth off when he took off the brackets...
Not much else to say really, I'm just happy they're off! I can't wait to see people! It will blow their minds! I just hope I get used to them soon, because I feel a little self concious about them and all. So anyhoo, talk at y'all later!

I got in!!!

I got in to the Outtatown program!! I'm in! Ashley and I both got in to the South African program!! We're gonna have so much fun together, I love her and I am so happy we both got it! Thank You God!!
I am scared, and worried about the money to pay for it, but if its what the Lord wants, He'll provide a way for me to go. I am so pumped, this is what I've wanted always, to go on a real missions trip and help people.
Thank You God!!

Let it All Out

Okay so today was the last day of school before Christmas holidays, PRAISE JESUS! School was getting to be too much. I hate it. Anyhoo, last night I went to bed at a decent hour, but I ended up listening to my Relient K CD on my head phones. I got to the song "Let it All Out" and I was like, wow, I love this song, so I played it again. And again. By that time I had really started listening to the words and the words just spoke to me. I mean the second verse, wow. So I was laying there, nodding emphatically along to the song, bawling my stupid head off. It was just that those were the words I needed, that no matter how crappy stuff gets, in the end it won't matter. God loves us no matter what. And in Him, there is strength. So I looked inside last night and found my strength. It was amazing.

Let it all out, get it all out
Rip it out, remove it
Don't be alarmed, when the wound begins to bleed
Cause we're so scared to find out
What this life's all about
So scared we're gonna lose it
Not knowing all along
That's exactly what we need
And today I will trust you with the confidence
Of a man who's never known defeat
But tomorrow, upon hearing what I did I will stare at you in disbelief
Oh inconsistent me, crying out for consistency
And you said I know this will hurt
But if I don't break your heart then things will just get worse
If the burden seems too much to bear
Remember, the end will justify the pain it took to get us there
And I'll let it be known at times I have shown
Signs of all my weakness
But somewhere in me, there is strength
And you promise me that you believe
In time I will defeat this
Cause somewhere in me, there is strength
And today I will trust you with the confidence
Of a man who's never known defeat
And I'll try my best to just forget
That that man isn't me
Reach out to me
Make my heart brand new
Every beat will be for You, for You
And I know You know
You touched my life
When You touched my heavy heart and made it light...

Congradulations Ashley!! I'm so excited for you! Love ya to pieces!

Nothing Specific and Everything in General

So tonight was carolling. SO FUN! There were only like 12 of us, and it was tons of fun! We sang and Hazel gave us chocolate, which was so cute. Then we watched Elf at my house and talked forever. We also watched all these old movies we made for school until like 12:45. So it was a long youth group!
So today Henk called and said his plane was wrecked so no flying. I was saddened by that, but today was a good day so it was all cancelled out anyways.
Wow this is the worst post ever! But I don't even care! Tonight I asked Curtis to be my grad escort. He said yes! I was happy. I mean one less thingy to stress about. It wasn't even weird, and like I thought I'd have huge issues with how to word it. But nope, it just came out nicely. And he said yes, so all is well! Yay!
I am so tired, I have to go to bed.
I must say this though: I love all my friends! Like everyone, Ashley, Brynne, Curtis, Jodi, Henk, Adrienne, Allison, Ireen, Kaitlan, Lenny, Sarah, Brion and Mike. Even Josh. Seriously, hanging out with them is the happiest I ever am!
And Cass and Al - I MISS YOU SO MUCH! I had a dream about you last night, it made me sad because you're so far away. I love you guys, you are my SSS forever!
Toodles!

I'll Fly Away...

Wow, I have been neglecting my blog and for this I am extrememly sorry! Its been ridiculously busy. Bio is EVIL and it has been taking up alot of my time. And art too...
Anyhoo, last night was our church concert. It went well. Ireen was so cute and excited! She said it was her first church concert and she was totally cute and nervous before we sang. Ireen, Sarah, Kristin and I sang Silent Night. It went okay. Afterwards we had goodies and juice downstairs and I hung out with Addy, Allie, Jodi, Ireen, Curtis and Brion. It was so much fun! We did all these dumb things and ate way too much and talked and it was totally fun. Curtis was running around in my rainow scarf and mitts and it was very funny!
Today Henk invited me to go flying. Ashley and Brion are coming too. We're going aroud 2:00 this afternoon. I'm scared! I was really excited about it all week, and now I'm scared! I mean we could die! Wow, this is totally showing my lack of faith in Henk, who is a scary driver... But yeah I'm scared about it. I want to sit in the front. I've been flying once before and I sat in the back so I really really want to sit in the front. I hope Ashley and Brion will let me.
Tonight is carolling! My favorite Youth Group! I'm excited! We are singing and then coming to my house and eating and watching Elf. I've never seen it, I hope its good! But I think all my people are coming so I'm excited, its gonna be a good time! Today is just generally going to (hopefully) be a good day!
I should go get ready, I'm still in my pj's. And I think mom wants to go grocery shopping. So anyhoo I'm talk to y'all later!

The Weekend

Okay so this weekend has been fun. On Friday we went and saw Ocean's 12, which was extremely funny! Ashley and I like died laughing! NO MORE PICTURES! Ha ha! And yeah we embarassed ourselves by talking loudly and laughing through the whole movie. It was fun though. I sat inbetween Ashley and Brynne, and then Brion and Henk. It was fun!
Then we went to McDonalds at like 11:55 and they still made us food. I hadn't eaten yet, and Ashley and Brynne had only had ice cream, so we got food. I sat in the back with Ashley and Henk on the way home. We had to huddle for warmth, it was so cold! When we got to Minnedosa, there were police cars around due to an accident, and they stopped us. He was angry and actually kind of rude. I wouldn't be very happy standing out in the cold at 1:00 am either, I guess. But yeah, I got home around 1:20, and Henk gave me a hug! I think he did it just so he could hug Ashley, but oh well. Oh yeah, he asked her to be his escort on the way home too.
It was fun, but I felt like such a fifth wheel! I mean it was Brion and Brynne in the front, and they're going to grad together, and then Ashley and Henk all snuggly in the back. So I snuggled up against the cold door for comfort, lol. So that part wasn't so great...
Then on Saturday we went bowling with the Youth Group. It was fun! Yay Twinkletoes! Afterwards Brynne, Henk and Brion came over. That night we put up our tree! That was awesome. Our house is now officially Christmasified. I love it.
Then today was church and tonight's the church banquet. I think I'm going. Its gonna be some good food! So yeah thus was my weekend. Laters!

Happy Birthday Brion!

Oh, I've been neglecting my blog so much this week! But this week was a really crazy one! Today is my homeboy Brion's birthday - he's turning the big 1-8 today! Now he's an adult! Whoo! He can vote! I'm glad I can't vote yet, I hate politics. Anyways...
So yeah tonight the plan is that Brynne, Henk, Ashley, Brion and I are gonna go see Ocean's 12 to celebrate the kid's birthday. It will be a Gremlin trip, and its gonna be fun! I'm excited! I need to have fun (and a red bull) after such a long and exhausting week.
My mouth is so sore! I cut it all open inside on my braces...I think its from playing my trumpet, because that just about KILLS me. The band concert went awesomely well on Wednesday! We played 3 senior band songs and 3 jazz band songs. Our jazz band rocks, its just so much fun to be in! And Geordie, Eddie, and Benny Waddell played Carol of the Bells by Metallica. It was amazing! I would marry those boys, such talent! I mean seriously, talented and the nicest kids ever. Too bad they're all younger than me. They're just so cool and incredibly talented! Anyways, before people start getting creeped out...
So yeah I should go do some math. I got back my latest module today and I got 84% on it, so yay. They correcting people are stupid. All they ever say is "show your work!" And I AM! I mean like how much more could I possibly write, stupid woman. But yeah, at least I'm doing alright in it. I think I'm writing the midterm not next week, but the week after. Scary stuff. Then I'll do the second half and write the exam in the second week of February. Thats the plan, anyways.
Well I'd better go. Toodles noodles!

Red Bull Works!

Okay, so I have zero energy to post, so I'll write later.
Guess what? Today I was bored so I looked up what my name means. And with my first and middle names put together it means "God has been Gracious" "Fairy or Elf".
I find this to be inexplicably anusing. I mean I'm a fairy! Ashley was right all along! And so was Andrew the day he called me something mean...
I HAD THE FUNNEST WEEKEND EVER! And I only got 11 hours of sleep in 48 hours. I want to die I am so tired. I still have some bio to do, and then I'm off to bed! Ooh actually I really want a Red Bull...they are so addicting!
Laters gaters!

4 Hits and a Miss (plus 5 Queer Guys)

1. Topher Grace is totally my hero! I mean his name is Topher, how cool is that? And he's just so dorky cool, and he always plays such a nice guy, like on That 70's Show and Win a Date With Tad Hamilton. He's too cute! I just wanna marry him!
2. The guy from the "I've-grown-out-of" milk ads. I really hate that chick, but the guy is so cool, with lovely hair. And he doesn't pretend to rap, either. He's just too cool.
3. Josh Groban is amazing, its really completely sick how talented he is. I love him, his voice, and like all of his songs! Even the ones that aren't in English have beautiful translations. He just blows my mind - his talent is seriously not of this earth!
4. Ben Stiller is SO awesome! He always plays someone so awkwardly adorable, and I just wanna hug him! He's so funny and cute and seems like a really sweet guy. Plus he can totally re-invent himself and play just about anyone.
5. Ireen is such a sweetie! I just love her, she's my girl. We can just be like whatever and its all good. I'm totally glad we became friends, and I actually feel like she likes me, which is nice. I haven't heard her dis me or stuff I like yet, so all is good. He accent and grammer is so cute! I'm glad she's here this year and in my classes.
6. The Fab Five are so cool! I want to hang out with them! I almost wish I was a sloppy straight guy so they'd come over, beautify my house and take me shopping! Carson is so gross and funny, I love Kyan (he's so pretty!), Jai is totally cool, Thom is so talented and Ted is hilarious! I want to hang out with them and make them like me! They are so hilarious and their camaradrie is inexplicable. I just love them.

When You Say You Love Me

I LOVE THIS SONG!! Josh Groban is so fantastic! Sometimes I pretend he's singing this to me...lol I'm a loser!

Like the sound of silence calling
I hear your voice and suddenly I'm falling,
Lost in a dream
Like the echoes of our souls are meeting,
You say those words, my heart stops beating
I wonder what it means?
What could it be that comes over me?
At times I can't move
At times I can hardly breathe

CHORUS:
When you say you love me
The world goes still, so still inside and
When you say you love me,
For a moment, there's no one else alive

You're the one I've always thought of
I don't know how, but I feel sheltered in your love
You're where I belong
And when you're with me if I close my eyes
There are times I swear I feel like I can fly
For a moment in time
Somewhere between
The Heavens and Earth
I'm frozen in time
Oh, when you say those words

And this journey that we're on.
How far we've come and I
Celebrate every moment.
And when you say you love me,
That's all you have to say.
I'll always feel this way.

When you say you love me
The world goes still, so still inside and.
When you say you love me
In that moment I know why I'm alive.
When you say you love me.
When you say you love me.
Do you know how I love you?

Much Ado About Nothing

Wow, I haven't posted in ever! I never seem to have a spare moment. Anyways, hows it going? Last night I spent all night writing this essay for ELA. It was comparing To Kill a Mockingbird (really good book) and Of Mice and Men (really sad book). It was pretty easy, but very extremely long. Anyways, so yeah. And its a little crazy at my house, emotional wise. Everyone's kinda freaking out, which is understandable, but the tension is really high and weird. Anyways, I had a dentist appointment so I had to miss Jazz band, which sucks. I love Jazz band, and when Eddie plays Default music! But next month, on December 29th I get my braces off! Whee! I am so excited. And I love Josh Groban, holy crap. He's so pretty and talented! Like the song "When You Say You Love Me" is so amazing and I wish he was singing it at me! Wow! LOL anyways, this is dumb and I don't have much else to say. Oh except this: know who I like? Ireen. I think she's nice and fun to hang out with at school. We're totally friends. Anyways, better fly!
P.S. I wish I could fly! I am such a Peter Pan loser!

Clocks

Hello hello again. So today I woke up an hour earlier than usual because I can't tell time. So I suck and am exhausted! But I actually ate breakfast this morning and read some of To Kill A Mockingbird, which was nice.
I'm excited, because today I get my HOJA CD! They were so awesome! And yeah, there are three different ones and Sarah and Ashley and I are collectively getting them all, so we'll share! I'm excited. Okay so my lips have been so uber dry lately, its annoying! Especially after band class. And so I've been slathering vasoline on them (hot, I know) but it like soaks in in like 2 minutes. So I hafta keep slopping it on. Yuck, it tastes bad. So yesterday we went to the art gallery in Brandon and looked at two different shows. One was The Best Man by Riel Benn, and the other was Cowboys and Indians (and Métis?) by David Garneau. They were really good! The Riel Benn stuff was really weird though. It was kinda creepy. He's really talented, though. I guess he just likes to use his talent to paint weird things. Then we got to paint with acryllic paint, which is the bestest. That was fun too. And on the way back we listened to Brynne's Kalan Porter CD!! I love it! There are some really good songs! Kalan is so awesome and pretty and NOT girly (darn you, Kalan bashers!). I guess it was weird that I called him pretty and ungirly in the same sentence. I'm a freak. Anyways, off to do some dreaded math before going to dreaded art and then buying my HOJA CD! Whoo! Talk at y'all later!
P.S. Last night I said goodbye to Patches, the cat Brynne is taking care of. I love that cat and I will seriously miss her! I love having a cat, and she's so pretty and cuddly and cute! I'll post some pictures if they turn out.

Under Pressure

What to even say...not a whole lot is new. I am feeling SO STRESSED about my math! Like I am freaking out. I refuse to think about grad because what if I'm not there? What if I don't graduate? Why did this happen to me? I mean life would be so much less stressful if I didn't have this math thing hanging over my head. I could anticipate grad and be excited about it. Frick this sucks. And lately I feel like I've gained some weight, and I mean I usually don't care, but like I was starting to trim down and be comfortable with myself, and now all I see is yucky flab. And life is so crazy and stressful and I just want to die and be finished math! Why don't I have my sister's brain? She'd be done it by now, or at least she'd have passed Pre-Calc in the first place. Frick. I'm gonna go do math now.
Oh and by the way Brion and I made up yesterday. That took a long time! And he told me I was his best friend. :)

Food, Glorious Food

Okay so tonight was SO MUCH FUN! There was Youth Group, which I needed after such a crappy day. It was the progressive supper, and we had appetizers, ceasar salad, potato soup, roast beef with potatoes and gravy, and turtle cake. Everything was inexplicably yummy! Then we had the devotion at my house. There were 28 teens squished into my living room. It was insane! Afterwards we all went outside and hung out and lots of people left. Brion, Brynne, Henk, Codie, Kate and I walked down to the church. Then Codie and Kate left, and the rest of us cruised in Henk's truck. It was totally frightening! He's a horrible driver, I gotta say. But it was so fun too. Then we dropped off Brion and the three of us talked and cruised in the Gremlin. That was so awesome! I mean Henk and I haven't bonded since...grade 10. And he was like yeah, I'm gonna take you guys flying! I was so excited! And we're gonna go see a movie sometime too. And then he told me I was awesome to talk to, and that was nice! We listened to Em and totally had a good time. We just cruised and had Gremlin moments, which are the best kind. One of the few that don't involve Dean! Thats a good thing. Anyways, so yeah it was totally awesome and I didn't get home until like, 11:00. Brynne was whining about how she had to get home, but I don't really blame her cause her dad's home and she had a 10 minute drive. But yeah it was totally awesome and tonight made my weekend. Anyways, I should go to bed so I can get up for church.
Night all!

The Nylons (and other good stuff)

So yesterday was actually a pretty good day, after all. We got our report cards, and I have 90% in ELA, 66% in Bio, 93% in Art, 89% in Band and 95% in Jazz Band. Good enough, I say! Well Bio could definately be brought up alot. So thats one to work on, but other than that, good on me! And last night The Nylons were at the theatre. I just about FREAKED they were so freaking amazing! I'm listening to their CD right now actually - I even got it signed. They are so amazing, and they wore funny sparkly shirts and danced all silly. And they were so hilarious! Everytime they spoke everyone was laying in the aisles laughing! They were just so totally awesome, what extraordinary talent. That was probably the best talent to ever be on that stage. Wow, they were amazing! And so many people I knew were there. Like David and Trevor, Hannah, Julia, and all these Dinner Theatre people. I miss them! They all came and talked to me and told me they missed me. They all wanted to know what I was up to, and I was like wow, I miss Dinner Theatre! Anyways, so I got home at like 10:45, so then I did my bio until late, so I am super tired today. I think Brynne and I are gonna watch a movie tonight. Yay the OC is on! Adam Brody! Right on. Later!

Me Against the World

So today I woke up and decided I was gonna do what I wanted and not care what anyone said. So I got up and thought I'd wear sweatpants - its all about comfort, baby! I also decided to vent through my eye make up. They say the eyes are the window to the soul, right? LOL. So I'm wearing like an inch thick of black eyeliner on both lids. I think it looks cool, actually. And I wore my Westman hoodie because it makes me happy. I need to feel happy because today is report card day.
Plus last night I had a fight with Brion. He was being such a boy about everything too, which made me more mad than I already was. I thought he was better than that, that we were different and he didn't have to act like a moron with me. But I guess we slipped. As Avril Lavigne would say, we lost it. LOL! Oh, Avril. Anyways, I'm off to do some more math, and then I have band instead of art! Yay!
Oh and I had a bio test today and thought it went pretty well.
And I'm listening to Josh Groban....hee hee I love him!

"The Dirt"

Okay, so I haven't done a real post in a while, so here goes.
Life had been alright lately I guess. I'm been in the crappiest of crappy moods lately and everyone seems to be trying my patience and pushing all the wrong buttons. And now I am remembering why I'm not friends in a group of 3. Because I always end up being the one feeling left out. Like the other two are way tighter than you and have all these inside jokes that are mentioned all the time. I hate when someone treats you a certain way to make you feel special and then does it to someone else too. I mean, that just makes me feel cheap. Everything seems to be disappointing me too. My friends, school, myself. I am freaking out about report cards like you would not believe! Yuck. I just don't like school, and I'm overtired and WAY behind in my math and really starting to feel the pressure now. And why haven't they contacted us about Drama yet? Why did I dream about Blaine and David? Why is my head so itchy? These are the questions that haunt me frequently. Well I'm off to do some math and then go to art class (joy).
Wow this was mopey and stupid. Sorry everyone.

Remember When It Rained

Josh Groban is the most talented person alive. I swear. He just blows my mind. Last night he sang "Remember When It Rained" on the AMA's. It was amazing! He like held this one note forever and it was so glorious and beautiful. And just effortless too! Oh wow I love him! So here they are, the lyrics for an amazing and beautiful song sung by someone who gets way less credit and respect as an artist than he deserves!

Wash away the thoughts inside
That keep my mind away from you
No more love and no more pride
And thoughts are all I have to do

Oh, remember when it rained
I felt the ground and looked up high and called your name
Oh, remember when it rained
In the darkness I remain

Tears of hope run down my skin
Tears for you that will not dry
They magnify the one within
And let the outside slowly die

Oh, remember when it rained
I felt the ground and looked up high and called your name
Oh, remember when it rained
In the water I remain

Running down...
Ah ah ah ah ah na na
Na na na na na na na na na
Oh oh ah oh ah na na
Running down...

I Celebrate the Day

by Relient K
I find this song so incredibly moving and wonderful...

With this Christmas wish is missed
The point I could convey
If only I could find the words to say to let you know
How much you've touched my life because
Here is where you're finding me
In the exact same place as New Years Eve
And from the lack of my persistency
We're less than half as close as I wanna be

And the first time that you opened your eyes
Did you realize that you would be my Savior?
And the first breath that left your lips
Did you know that it would change this world forever?
And the first time that you opened your eyes
Did you realize that you would be my Savior?
And the first breath that left your lips
Did you know that it would change this world forever?

And so this Christmas I'll compare
The things I've felt in prior years
To what this midnight made so clear
That you have come to meet me here

To look back
And think that
This baby would one day save me
And the hope that
That you give
That you were born so I might really live
To look back
And think that
This baby would one day save me…

And the first time that you opened your eyes
Did you realize that you would be my Savior?
And the first breath that left your lips
Did you know that it would change this world forever?
And the first time that you opened your eyes
Did you realize that you would be my Savior?
And the first breath that left your lips
Did you know that it would change this world forever?

And I celebrate the day
That you were born to die
So I could one day
Pray for you to save my life
Pray for you to save my life
Pray for you to save my life

Relient K Rocks My Socks!

Hey all. Nothing really new to report about. I was listening to my Relient K CD today when I was doing math. I love them! Really, they are my favorite band ever, they are so talented and awesome. They can be hilarious, and then sing something so moving and thought provoking that it just blows me away. It just rocks my socks. I mean there's this song on their Christmas CD called "I Celebrate the Day" and its so wonderfully moving. They make me feel like I can just open my ears and listen and hear God speak. I mean their lyrics are all about how we're normal, and we screw up, but God loves us so much that He just embraces us and loves and forgives us through all our crappy times. And I so need to hear that. I love Matt Theisson. He's my hero. His voice is just beautiful, like the words he writes. Anyways, everyone should go out and buy "Mmhhmm" and "Deck the Halls, Bruise Your Hand" because they ROCK!
GO RELIENT K!

Oh, Drama!

So tonight there were Drama auditions. Nobody came! Seriously, there were like me and 4 other girls and that was it. Lindsey was there. I love her, she's so talented and fun! And then all the Minnedosa crew, who I also love! LOL! And we hung out and talked, and I found out a person that everyone likes and thinks is hot that I don't like or think is hot...well they feel the same way as me about her! And it was funny, David and I talked about when we went out, lol, good times. It was fun, and I hope this is how Drama is, just our group. Because tonight was a sick amount of fun, again. I seem to have fountainous amounts of fun with those guys! The only bad thing is a girl who isn't worthy will most likely get the lead part, which is so typical Drama. I should really learn to just get over that. The weird thing is I don't want the lead. Like at all. I just wanna hang out downstairs with the crew. The Westman crew. And David and Trevor and I were talking and and David and I decided we were gonna do it as his house - as in hang out, you sick minded people! LOL! It should be fun, Trevor's got my number, so its gonna happen! I'm happy! And I have a huge headache so off I go to bed!
Oh crap I gotta print off that Outta Town thing first...

Churchy Weekend

Wow, I haven't posted in a while! Sorry! Anyways, nothing really interesting has happened. Well I guess Youth Group on Friday was awesome! We all went out to Baker's and played capture the flag in the dark in their bush. My team one! It was totally awesome, and my ex boyfriend was there, which is hilarious. He's not really a social setting kind of person, so I thought it was funny. Then we had hotdogs and cake and watched fireworks. It was FREEZING outside. But Kaitlan was huddling with me and we kept warm. Then we played dodge ball and that was it. But it was uber fun, and everyone was in a hugging mood, and I was too, so all was good. And Leanna hugged Henk, so she is therefore my hero! Ha ha. And then on Saturday Jodi, Ashley, Leanna and I (with Ireen) went to a Catholic church and taught their Sunday School kids some songs. I thought it went really well and it was fun because I was with them. When I got home Kristin and I watched Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. It was interesting. I thought it was good, and I loved her hair! Then today was church, and I cleaned my room. I should go do some math though. But I'm talking to Ashley on MSN and its really fun! But I should post this before it gets too long and stupid.
Byes!

If You're Not the One

by Daniel Bedingfield

If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is trueWe’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I praying you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
Know my heart is by your side

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

Conflicted

I HATE THIS!
Why can't I ever just feel
Happy, or sad
Instead of both??
I mean I am SO HAPPY for Al
She and her boyfriend are disturbingly cute
But seeing pictures of them just
Makes me sad
I want that.
Where are all the good boys, anyway?
I mean why can't someone be happy to see me
And happy to be with me
Like that?
Arg, I'm going to bed.
Today sucks.

Another Blarging Day

Well, today was another AARRG day. It just wasn't the grandest day, and I am super tired. I actually almost cried. And I didn't get the job I wanted, and every class basically was torture. I mean bio and art just SUCK. Like hardcore suck. And I feel so rushed and over tired and over worked and it generally blows. Wow I'm in a complaining mood today! I guess jazz band was good today. And I am happy for Ashley. She's the greatest person, and I couldn't think of anyone who deserves that job more. And I got all my homework done. So yay me. Anyways, I guess I should go and call Cass. I haven't talked to Cass or Al in forever, and I feel kinda crappy about that. Especially Al. I at least talk to Cass on MSN, so I know most of the scoop. But I have no clue whats going on with Al. So yeah I should go call them. Later I guess.
P.S. I promise the mopey and irritating posts will stop soon.
P.P.S. I love CSI: Miami! They played the song "Get Low" in the opening!
P.P.P.S. I hate CSI: Miami! They killed Speed! I bawled the whole episode! I LOVE SPEED!

Happy Halloween (how original!)

Tonight, I feel very AAGHH! I feel really happy, and really sad at the same time. Tired, but like I never want to sleep again. I think its because when I sleep, I dream, and I always seem to wake up disappointed that what I thought just happened didn't. Does that make sense? I just feel sometimes like my life doesn't meet the expectations I have for it, which is stupid. I dunno. I just feel really AAGHH, and it sucks. I'm worried about something, even though I don't know what yet. That scares me a little. I hope whatever's worrying me doesn't jump out and slap me in the face.
I really should stop posting at night, they never make sense...

When the Trumpet Sounds...

I am tired, and my mouth hurts. But today was actually kind of fun! I got to play with the BU Wind Ensemble. And I sat beside my sister's friend Andrew, which was sweet. And I was also greeted by her friends Jeff, Alissa, Clio, Sarah, and other Jeff. It was awesome. I like her friends, they seem to like me! LOL! Yeah we played two really hard songs and they sounded good. The second one I could actually play! And I saw some Westman people. Norah, Jon, Erin and William were there. Oh and Sarah too. And I saw my cousin's girlfriend Cydney, and she's really nice and like this amazing trumpet player! We talked and it was fun. Plus we went to Pizza Hut, and I mean it doesn't get any better than that! But it was really foggy on the way home, and I am exhausted so I'm going to bed.
'Night all!
~Jan

Whatever

Hey all. Once again, I have a killer migrane, what up with that? Today was an ungood day. I felt like everyone was ganging up on me. I hate those days, you know? Anyways, yeah whatever I am so over it. Oh, my poor head! Mom and I spent all night working on my collage for LA. Its amazing. I'm seriously really proud of it. Its big and cool and all about The Stone Angel. It almost makes the book look interesting! A miracle! Anyways, I should go rest my poor aching head. I have a big day tomorrow! :S I'm slightly freaking. Well more on that later!
'Night!

Blah

Okay, so my head feels like its going to explode, but I thought I should post at some point today. So hello. Today was a reasonably good day. I did alot in math, made up with Brion, and had fun in art (a first!). So yeah. I want to e-mail people but just can't. Looking at the screen is killing me as we speak. Or as I speak. Whatever. So bye all! :)
P.S. Happy Birthday Al! 19! Whoo!

Good Times!!

Oh my gosh! Tonight was SO MUCH FUN! I went to the Drama supper and all these Westman and Drama people were there! Aaron, Lindsey, David, Trevor, William are from Westman and Suzanne, Dana, Ashley and Julia are from Drama. It was so much fun! We ate and looked at pictures, and then we snuck out of the meeting and everyone came to my house. It was awesome. David was offended by Hillary Duff's face being on my dartboard, and then he and William took turns playing the piano. And then we attempted to watch TV. We all just talked and hung out, it was awesome. Then all the Drama people left and we sat around listening to last years Westman CD. And we blared Under Pressure! It was awesome!! I had a sick amount of fun, I'm in a funk all over again! I can't wait for Drama, to see them every week and have a Drama sleepover! Yay! It was awesome and I got hugs so it was all good. I love it. I love all you guys!

Oh, Bill Gaither...

Hey again. Today I spent the day laying around mostly, which was nice because its not done very often. And my sister dyed my hair. Its a really dark (but still vibrant) red. Its quite exciting! Then we looked for a song to sing in church tomorrow. We chose "Oh How He Loves You and Me." It should be alright. Then we all watched Bill Gaither videos. It was awesome! I actually really like those movies! The people are so talented, I just feel all WOW about God just listening to them. Especially the one guy from the Bill Gaither Band, he's crazy. His voice is like a trumpet or something. Speaking of trumpets, I should practice mine tomorrow. But yeah in general it was a fun day. I should go to bed, though. Night all!
I get to see Aaron, David, Lindsey, William and Trevor tomorrow!! Yay!!

Home Again...

Hey again. I'm home again, home again (Jiggity Jig) after spending the night at Brynne's. We stayed up until 5 am watching movies and old Backstreet Boys music videos. It was so fun! I haven't done that in forever! And Mean Girls is a really funny movie! We also watch Dirty Dancing: Havanna Nights, which was so good!! Oh my gosh I totally loved it! I thought the ending sucked, though! Diego Luna is like the hottest guy ever! Wow! And Pam came in this afternoon and we hung out, which was awesome because I haven't seen her since August. We all put on this putrid red lipstick and kissed each other all over our faces, which was hilarious! It was totally fun. Kristin braided my hair and now I'm here adding a lovely post to my blog. Anyways I should go. Night all!

My Routine

This is my routine every day at lunch hour:
11:50 - Get home
12:00 - Listen to Under Pressure (Queen and Bowie - the best!)
12:05 - Make lunch and dance like a moron in the kitchen
12:10 - Eat lunch and check e-mail
12: 20 - Post on my blog
12: 35 - Go upstairs and do math, leaving Kazaa on so songs can download
2:00 - Come downstairs, disconnect
2:05 - Go back to school

See, I do get work done at home people!! I'm not just farting around!
I seriously do the exact same thing everyday!

Burn that Fat!

Oh, Richard Simmons. Hey all. So tonight I went to rec basketball at our school. There was like, 4 of us there and my principal. It was fun, though! I haven't done cardio like that in forever! I was so exhausted after like 20 minutes. I'm gonna be feeling this tomorrow! I've never been so sweaty in my life...well not since that dance class in Rossburn with Brynne! Ooh, the Latin boy. :) Hee hee. Anyways, my feet hurt and most likely smell, and I'm tired so I think I'll head off to bed early. And I apologise for my constant posting, its just that I have no life and its SO FUN! Yay, no school on Friday! Its a good thing! Brynne and I are going to watch The Passion of the Christ, and I am going to bawl. Yay!

This Sucks!

Ok, so I now I seem to have severe mouse-o-phobia! I'm totally freaked out to go into the pantry now, lest another furry creature tried to maul me! Seriously! Like I have eaten a little bit for lunch, but I really want a granola bar, but am scared to get one. I'm such a retard! But yeah, even being in the kitchen is unpleasant. I keep stomping my feet just in case one is around, hoping I'll scare it away. Know what I've decided? I can never see that movie, "The Grudge." The Ring was freaky enough and apparently its scarrier. Plus I do not need to be afraid of my house, especially because I'm alone in it so often! So yeah, no Sarah Michelle Gheller for me! Especially with that frightening Japanese child that meows like a cat! Uhh!!
Yay Halloween is coming up! Candy and costumes! Good times!
Better go do some math!

Art

I made this picture for art class. I had to make it in the form of expressionism, and this is what it ended up looking like. Its actually a bunch of distorted pictures of my late Baba Kotyk. She was the coolest lady.

Sleep is GOOD!

Hey hey hey everyone! Today I was SO TIRED all day! So I got home from school and had a nappy poo. It was sweet! I am in such a weird mood right now, so excardon me Julivia! LOL! I am so sorry about this, as the deer panteth! Okay, I'm good now...
So anyways yeah today was a career fair, and I'm really excited about the Christian Mennonite University in Winnipeg. And my mom wants me to go! So how awesome! I'm gonna apply really soon. I'm very excited, and nervous too. University is scary, just because I feel kind of unready. I feel so little! But I'm also excited to go and have this amazing experience in this amazing environment and meet these amazing people. I'm feeling really positive right now! And my mom is watching That 70's Show, which in itself is funny! And I shrunk my picture, so it looks better. Green eyes? What? They look black on my computer! LOL anyways I'm gonna go!
Toodles noodles!

VICTORY!

Thank you thank you thank you Rob!!! He helped me put up a picture! Yay! Its a little huge, though, so I think I'll most likely change it, but all the same, I have a picture on my site! Yay! I'm am so happy. One small victory for Jannakind! Thanks to the help of Super Rob!
The picture is of me and Aaron by the way, so perhaps I should've mentioned that. Hee hee!
I saw Doug and Paige tonight!! It was very cool, but would've been way more fun if it wasn't freezing in the gym! Seriously our school needs a heater!
Anyways, oh my gosh, tonight I was on the phone with my uncle and was digging around in the pantry for some chocolate chips and looked to see a mouse crawling across my hand! I just about died! I started screaming bloody murder and ran into the kitchen and jumped onto the couch. Then I continued yelling for my dad to come out of the basement and set a trap. I was crying like a moron too. So I said goodbye to my uncle and watched TV under the security of an blanket. Yeah it was just discusting. Sorry Uncle Guye! I'll buy you a hearing aide when you need one. So yeah like 10 minutes ago we heard the trap snap, so hopefully we caught it. Eww, that was so gross, I can still feel his little feet on my hand!! Anyways I should go. Toodles!

Ordinary Day

I have nothing really interesting to say, really, I just felt like posting. Today there's a volleyball game after school and Douglas is coming! So yay! We'll get to hang out! I hope it all goes well...and that Paige comes too. I'm sure she will. Its so cold in my house! I had ravioli for lunch! It was yummy. I should go do some math, and I still have some crap to get together before I go back to school. Anyways, later!

Wow I apologise for my recent posts, they're pretty crappy and pointless...

Ow, my stummy!

Ok, so my stomach is so sore! Today there was a potluck at church, and I ate waaaay too much! Like there was chilli, perogies, cheese, pickles, buns, salad, fried chicken, veggies, pie, cupcakes, everything! And I ate so much of it! I'm still full and I'm about to go to bed! Then I had a nap and read "The Stone Angel" which is the dumbest book ever written. I dislike it immensely. So I came downstairs and watched some TV with mom. We are Desperate Housewives junkies! I love that show and tonight's episode was so funny! Ashley came over and watched it with us. Then I came online and e-mailed people, and thats really about it! This is so boring, I apologise for everyone who has to read it!
Goodnight!
Phatty :)

Interesting Day

My blog sucks, I just wrote out a big long thing and it didn't post or save.

Okay so today I did math...and it was easy and...I actually thought it was kinda fun! What up with that? I mean me and math don't mix. But it was nice because I actually felt like I understood what I was doing, which I haven't felt in a while, so yeah. It was nice, actually, and confortable, up in my room listening to Avril Lavigne and doing something that made me feel smart and worth something. That hasn't happened in a while. Usually I just wander around like a big moron not understanding anything or why I do it. So it was nice to feel like I had a purpose. Well this is hardly making any sense so its time for me to go to bed.
Night all!
~Jananers
P.S. Maria sent me all these pictures of us looking ugly, it was awesome. And Tin Tin e-mailed me! I get to see him on Monday! So excited! Yay!

Finally!

I've been on MSN numerous times since Westman, but for the first time today I was on at the same as Aaron. It just happened a few minutes ago. And because I seriously have no life and nothing else to post, I'll post our convo:

I miss WMYC! Hardcore! I love you all! says:
AARON!!!!!
Aaron says:
hey janna
A week since Westman?? Crazy!! says:
how was your mcflurry? lol
Aaron says:
super bad actually
A week since Westman?? Crazy!! says:
really? lol thats funny
Aaron says:
what you up to?
A week since Westman?? Crazy!! says:
just screwing around, you?
Aaron says:
waiting to go to brandon
Aaron says:
waiting for my ride
A week since Westman?? Crazy!! says:
really? good times
Aaron says:
with david
A week since Westman?? Crazy!! says:
sweet deal
A week since Westman?? Crazy!! says:
you guys gonna see a movie?
Aaron says:
yeah maybe
Aaron says:
rides here
Aaron says:
i'll email you
Aaron says:
ttyl
A week since Westman?? Crazy!! says:
ok!
Aaron says:
miss you
A week since Westman?? Crazy!! says:
byes!
A week since Westman?? Crazy!! says:
miss you too!!!

McDonalds - I'm Loving it!

Hey! I just got back from a Christian concert! Our youth group went. The bands were alright. I couldn't really tell what they were saying, but whatever. I just love Christian concerts, that unity and total respect I feel for the artist who just go out there and give it all to God. Thats just awesome. That's what I wanna do with my life. There were some freaky people there, though. I got a shirt! Its cool! It says Recycle Junk Rawk on the back, which is sweet. I love it.
Okay so after the show we went to Dairy Queen, but it was closed. So we went to McDonalds and I got a sunday. I had been sitting there for about ten minutes when this girl came in and I was like, is that Darci? And then I saw this guy and was like, that can't be Aaron. You're silly.
And it totally was!!! He waved at me and I fought my way out of my seat to give him a massive hug. I mean just the person I wanted to see! How ironic! I just about exploded, I was so happy!! I was like, heck yeah! So I hung out with him in line and we talked about random stuff for like 10 minutes. Then we hugged again and said goodbye. I just love that kid. He's so cool. And I was totally happy to run into him! It was just perfect! I am so pumped now! It was totally great to see him, I missed him! So yay! It was a good day!

Pictures!

Yay! Yesterday I made a special trip to Brandon with my friends to get my pictures developed! It was so fun and I saw Lindsey in the mall! She had just gotten hers developed, so we shared. Mine are so awesome! They turned out so well! I am obsessed with looking at them! I thought I'd better post one on here so I can stop complaining about it. Yay! I miss people! My pictures are awesome! This is the dumbest post ever! I'm gonna go!

Funking

by: Me on October 10, 2004

I miss Westman
So FREAKING MUCH!
I miss Aaron so much
Hugging him
And watching him sing
David Bowie
To me.
I want a Simon hug
Right NOW!
I want a Becca knee squeeze
I want a Cori kiss and a
Maria laugh.
I want a David elephant joke
And a HARDCORE from Douglas (Tin2)
I want a Rick smile
Some Danielle tears, a Paige dance
Some Tony silliness, a sporkfest with Lindsey
A William squeeze, a Trevor high five
Evan's hat, Denton's grin
And watching Aaron dance
During Zungo!

Still Feeling It

Okay so today I went on MSN and there were like 3 Westman people online! We talked for like an hour! I miss it SO MUCH! And I checked my e-mail and Aaron e-mailed me. It was called I MISS YOU. I just about died. I totally miss him. And I miss everyone. I miss the constant hugging, really I do! Like today I just wanted Lindsey to be there to put my arm around and Cori to give me a kiss on the cheek and Aaron to link arms with and Maria to mouth "I love you" at me from across the room, and make faces at during shows. I am so funking right now. I miss Aaron singing at me. I miss giving out Hershy's kisses. I miss it all. I want to do it again! I actually made a list of stuff I miss last night and I'm gonna post it very soon! I will! I miss everything! I love all you guys!

I LOVE CHOIR!

Well, this is my mopey I-am-depressed-and-totally-hardcore-funking post. Last night was my last night of Youth Choir...ever! I just bawled! I am so sad! Seeing these amazing people all day everyday for like a week and then suddenly being ripped away from that and being pulled back into reality is really harsh! I mean so many people that I just love! Like Maria! What a crazy girl! We talk about everything and always have so much fun, I just love her! And Aaron is like the coolest guy ever! He's so f'funny! And Tin Tin is like my hero. I totally hardcore love him. And Cory and Lindsey and oh my gosh Becca! I want to be her! She's so incredibly awesome! And Paige and Danielle, David, Trevor and William! Tony, Simon, Evan, other Paige and just everyone! Oh and Rick! I just love everything about choir and all the people. We're like a big happy singing family! Everyone is so comfortable, and everyone hugs and kisses each other because we're so comfortable together. There's always someone to talk to and hang out with. And the tour bus is awesome! Smuggling deserts and drinking tea, sporking, laughing about "the toilet" and wearing our Happening Ladies shirts...all such mother f'good times! I just and sad and I love everyone, and I will probably be back later to post more because I am feeling like 80 million emotions at the same time. I love you guys!

"When friends just can't be found, like a bridge over troubled water, I will lay me down..."

Pumped Up!

Tomorrow I go on WMYC tour! I am so excited to hang out with everyone and make music again! I'm packing as we speak...kind of. I also am watching CSI, the best show ever. I watched Desperate Housewives and was quite intrigued. Mom and I have a new show, lol, but nothing can replace Queer Eye for the Straight Guy! Thats totally our show. I wish it was on. Hee hee, sorry this is such a nothing post! I'll stop now!

Life is a musical!!

Back Again!

Sorry, I just had to post to say that I am so excited I added pictures! And I love Brynne's mom! Yay! LOL!
Okay so tonight my friend Brion came over for like 3 hours to do ELA homework. It was so fun! We just laughed and talked and got to know each other so much better than we did before. It was great. I really like having a guy friend! I mean I've totally been missing out all these years! And my parents liked him, and he liked them, and I just kinda felt like, "ha ha, I can have guy friends too!" LOL I don't know who that was directed at. I need to go to bed.
Night all!

Here I am...

What a Day!

Okay, so yesterday was so fun, and so unfun at the same time! My siblings were home for the weekend, and my sister streaked my hair...its orange! I am so excited! And I was mostly tired and trying to avoid doing my bio homework, and totally bummed that I couldn't go see a movie with my friends. Then they called me and said they'd pop over on their way home. They came in with Pizza Hut for me, and like got us all matching Halloween costumes. We're going to be fairies! It'll be so great. So we were having a ball and then my ex-boyfriend of like 2 weeks showed up to take my brother and sister back to university. That was awkward. We just hung out in the kitchen until he left. I still feel so weird about it, you know? Especially when he calls my house to talk to my sister, when he used to call and talk to me. But whatever. Then we watched stupid movies that we've made and planned a dance for spirit week. I am so pumped! It ended up being such a fun day! Duce, Nargus, I love you guys!
P.S. Happy skirt day!